A few days ago, I met a sister who lives in my neighborhood in the gym and walked home together after class.

Entering the community, she pointed to a lighted window on the fifth floor of the house and said, "That's my home. Come to my house to play when you are free. My mother cooks delicious food. What about you? Where do you live? "

I first reached out and pointed to the low building behind her, and then my fingers froze in the air.

I looked at the square with the lights on, and my eyes were dark and my brain suddenly went blank.

It turns out that I have lived here for two years, but I have never looked up. At that time, I didn't know which window was my home, because no one had ever lit a lamp there to wait for me.

I can't help but think of high school, when I studied by myself at 9 o'clock in the evening and walked home with several classmates. Every time I go to my house, my mother has calculated the time and waited on the balcony. As long as she sees my figure, she will peel the fruit for me and wait to open the door for me.

It's MINUS 20 degrees in the northeast. I stepped on the snow and creaked. My body was cold, but my heart was warm.

But now I'm alone in a foreign land. On a hot night in the south, I'm sweating like a pig, but there's a chill in my heart.

I like to stop and admire thousands of lights since I was a child, but now none of them are lit for me in this city.

02

After figuring out which window is my residence, I began to pay attention. Not only residential buildings, but also various businesses and lighted signs that open at night will attract my attention.

Another night, I came home late. I got off at the gate of the community, not far from a brightly lit housing agency.

I glanced at all the people standing in their workstations which were less than 1 square meter. The supervisor turned his back on me at the door and made a gesture from time to time. It seems that it should be a business summary before closing every day.

In fact, such an ordinary scene makes me feel different.

It's past the afternoon 10, and seeing these young people still in that cramped space, talking about their achievements in making a living, my first reaction is no longer their annoying harassing phone calls all the year round, or how many tens of thousands of commissions they can get from selling a school district house. Think of a little love and understanding, and sell shelter to others all day. What you may have is a bed in a corner of the city and a rental house.

Like me and thousands of young people in this city, they are waiting for a lamp of their own with inner fervor and anxiety.

03

How many people "would rather have a bed in a big city than a room in a small city", and how many people are gearing up to escape from Beishangguang in minutes.

To be fair, I belong to the former.

In a big city, I put up with its crowding and indifference, and also enjoyed its convenience and sophistication.

When chatting with a friend once, he complained, "I went to your place on business, and I wanted to go out to find a place to eat and buy some daily necessities at 9 pm, but I couldn't help it." I laughed, that's all.

In big cities, there are convenience stores open 24 hours a day, which can always meet your needs, no matter late at night or early in the morning. No matter how late it is, I'm not afraid to go home on an empty stomach. In addition to a wide range of food, convenience stores also cook car noodles and beef balls. A dozen dollars can always buy a steaming bowl.

When you are awake, there is always someone to stay awake with you-this is my self-defined way to comfort myself. Looking at the convenience store with lights on forever, my heart lit up.

04

I think I will never forget the Mid-Autumn Festival last year.

During the day, I talked and laughed with my parents and wished each other well. In the evening, I casually clicked on "Stranger" sung by my favorite singer Li Jian.

I was listening to this song when a person suddenly squatted on the ground and cried at home. I have regarded my hometown as my hometown, but why is it different from the song? There is not a lamp waiting for me.

I don't know how long I cried. I decided to go downstairs with moon cakes and fruits, put them on the bench in the community, and "offer the moon" as I did at home when I was a child. Watching people come and go, gathering for the festive season, and then looking up at thousands of lights, I am envious.

There is no light, but I have the moon. I imagine looking up and enjoying a full moon with my family in the distance, imagining the sentence "Heaven is still our neighbor". Suddenly relieved, I decided to shake hands with "a stranger in a foreign land".

Looking back on the days when I left home, I gained so many friends and saw so many scenery. Compared with the lights at home, it has gradually grown into a shining existence in a crowd, and it itself is even brighter.

There are always some ways to go alone. Even if you are always accompanied by your family and lover, under the dazzling light, if you don't cherish and move forward, your world will still be desolate and desolate.

And if you, even if you are alone, have a rich heart and always have gratitude and hope for life, you can still "enjoy the prosperity of the world with the company of the world of mortals."

05

This Mid-Autumn Festival, I will spend it with my friends. After the Mid-Autumn Festival, my parents will visit me from my hometown. The rarer it is, the more precious it is.

The warmth from the family can light us up, and the wonderful world outside also radiates charming light. But most importantly, I want to grow into a luminous body.

I still remember a friend once said, "I like watching thousands of lanterns." Not because it is magnificent, nor because it is bright, but because it interprets all life. "

I responded to him like this: "I also like to watch all kinds of lights, although I know that maybe there is no light for me at the moment, and loneliness and inner certainty can sometimes complement each other."

If there is no light for you, try to shine first and become your own light.