It is precisely because I know that I have given all 100% of my heart before, and I never intend to quit. When I find that my disappointment has reached a certain level and the injury has been caused, I will be almost desperate and at a loss. I don't know how to face him, because I know I can't go back.
We are in a long-distance relationship. We used to be very hard but also very happy. When we broke up, he came to me as soon as he found a job. Yes, he often visits me across America.
But all his goodness, our beautiful past, and our happiness when we were together with him kept coming like a huge wave of the sea, trying to wash away this decisive but necessary decision.
However, I am really helpless, because my feelings have changed, I can't get along with him as before, and I don't even know how to continue to associate. So I will try to get myself out, get myself busy, participate in various activities, join various organizations, and try dances that I have never learned. Although I will listen to the songs sung to him over and over again.
Tangled, shy, happy, warm, moved, desperate, sad, give up. At the same time, he thought from the earth, I will definitely contact him. I must be just losing my temper. I must be reluctant to part with him. I will continue to sing for him. Of course, when he faced my persistent indifference and unresponsiveness, his persistent concern and greetings gradually turned into severe blame-blaming me for giving up.
Yes, I am very strong. Even my best friend abroad is surprised by my calmness, but I have never felt it. When I broke up with him, he began to cry rudely, but I pretended to be calm. I try to manage my life well, so as not to be shrouded in sadness. In the eyes of others, this is indifference.
I will cry silently in the laboratory. Generally, when there is no candidate, I once lost control and cried in front of my classmates. He was still very kind and silently brought me a can of ice cream.
I don't like crying in front of others, especially when I know that others are enjoying the sweetness of love. Moreover, it is good to chew the sadness alone, and it will not disappear if you cry or get drunk.
So I pretended to be happier than when I was with him before. I'm used to keeping myself busy and starting to lose weight and make up.