If the doctor told you that you could only choose between your baby and your brother, what would you choose?

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My name is Lin Zihan. 20 14 After graduating from university, I worked as a kindergarten teacher in the provincial capital 200 kilometers away from my hometown. Six months later, I was introduced to Li Wenjin.

Li Wenjin is six years older than me. He works in a public institution. My father died young and my mother was a retired civil servant. Although his family is not well off, he is also very stable. His mother bought him a wedding room with a loan five years ago.

At the beginning of 20 15, we entered the marriage hall.

Life after marriage is comfortable and happy. The new house is less than one stop from her mother-in-law's house, so we fire and eat at her house almost every day. My mother-in-law is from Shandong. She cooks well, pays more attention to health, and doesn't lose nutrition with nutritionists.

But the only thing that bothers me is my mother-in-law's nagging. The content of nagging is the same: having children.

At first, I will respond politely, but after a long time, I get bored. My mother-in-law enthusiastically brought me all kinds of ancient recipes, either to treat infertility or to nourish my body, which made me laugh and cry, but I couldn't bear to refuse.

A year passed and my stomach didn't move at all. My mother-in-law is very dissatisfied with this. I can't help but get flustered. Is there something wrong with my husband and me?

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My husband and I hurried to the hospital for a physical examination. The examination results show that my fallopian tubes are blocked to varying degrees.

This result shocked us. Mother-in-law's face was ugly when she knew it, and she obviously disliked my weakness, which dragged the Li family back.

She deliberately said to Li Wenjin in front of me: "There are three unfilial things, son, and you should die."

I cried with anger, and the idea of divorce kept popping up. Fortunately, Li Wenjin sympathized with me, doing her mother-in-law's ideological work and taking me to major hospitals for treatment. Adhering to the principle of no surgery, we first went to see Chinese medicine. I can drink Chinese medicine for three months, but the effect is very small.

During that time, we seemed to be possessed. As long as we know where Chinese medicine is good, we will go as soon as possible. Bitter medicine soup, that is, life and hope, is poured into my body again and again.

Half a year later, my mother-in-law became a demon again. She told Li Wenjin that if she didn't get a divorce, she would die for us. In the face of my mother-in-law's refusal, my husband and I are both in pain. Her husband died when he was very young, and her mother-in-law raised him with a handful of shit and urine. He can't bear to see her heart broken.

But he won't part with me. Although I met on a blind date, my feelings have always been very hot, and I was not indifferent because of my physical accident.

He had to promise his mother-in-law that we would actively treat her and let her have a grandson as soon as possible.

I couldn't bear to see my husband sandwiched between my mother-in-law and me, so I resolutely went to the hospital for tubal recanalization.

However, after three months, there is still no sign of pregnancy.

In desperation, we had to follow the doctor's advice and do IVF.

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What a sad journey this is. Li Wenjin and I encouraged each other, drank together with tears, and got through it.

We successfully cultured four embryos. We decided to transplant one of them and freeze the other three.

Half a month after the transplant, I had symptoms of morning sickness. At that moment, I cried with joy. This shows that the baby has grown up in me!

My mother-in-law changed her old indifference and took care of me wholeheartedly. I also let go of the barriers and live in peace with my mother-in-law.

One day, my mother-in-law suddenly said sorry to me, saying that she had forced me to divorce before, and she was really afraid that the Li family would break the incense. She actually likes me as a daughter-in-law.

Since I successfully conceived, the atmosphere at home has been particularly harmonious. My husband always touches my belly happily and says, "The baby is our little lucky star."

When my body stabilized, I was happy to tell my mother the good news. I don't know why, whether it's a landline or a mobile phone, no one answered for a long time, and I have a bad feeling in my heart. Is there anything wrong at home?

I called Menstruation again, and Menstruation sobbed and told me that something had happened to my brother! My mother never told me, for fear that I would be worried.

Li Wenjin and I quickly drove to the provincial hospital. Along the way, my grief was unbearable. I can't believe the fact that my lively brother has leukemia!

When my brother was eight years old, my parents divorced, and my mother never got married for my brother and sister.

When I was 0/2 years old, my brother was 9 years old. In order to make a living, for a while, my mother went to work in other places with her relatives, leaving my brother and sister at home, and we lived alone.

Some naughty classmates were scolded by the teacher for bullying me at school that day, and they held a grudge. Knowing that I was timid, they came to my house late at night to play tricks, which scared me from sleeping. I picked up a rolling pin and rushed out. His voice is as strong as a calf: "whoever bullies my sister again, I will beat you to the ground!" "

It was the first time I was protected by my brother, and I was deeply moved. From that day on, my brother will hold my hand and sleep every night. He said, "Sister, don't be afraid. I will protect you forever. "

My brother protected me until I was 19 years old. Like a flower protector, he will secretly bury poached eggs at the bottom of my bowl; He will bravely drive away the entanglement of local ruffians and hooligans for me; I will also warm my heart with a cup of brown sugar water when my body hurts.

Other people's families are rich sons, and my daughter is precious in my family. My brother won't let my mother scold me. He does all the hard work and dirty work.

He has always been a bad student and always says cheerfully, "Sister, you should study hard. Our family can only afford one person to go to college. I'm hopeless. I can only rely on you. " I still remember the day I went to college. He hugged me happily and told me to study hard and fulfill his college dream. I was in tears.

In fact, I already know my brother's secret. I overheard my brother's classmates say that he was actually very smart, but he just gave up his studies willfully. His weekly diary reads: "It is my greatest wish to let my sister go to college."

I have felt guilty for my brother all my life.

My brother has been clamoring to be an uncle. Now, his wish is about to come true, but he didn't expect that he was terminally ill.

My heart ached with sadness.

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In the corridor of the hospital, my mother is sitting in a chair and wiping her tears.

I stepped forward sadly and shouted "Mom" with trembling. My mother saw me and hugged me and cried.

I learned from my mother that my brother had a low fever a while ago, but he didn't take it seriously. Until he suddenly fainted in the unit and was rushed to the hospital by his colleagues.

The result of the exam made everyone collapse. My brother has acute myeloid leukemia. In fact, my brother has been in hospital for three weeks. Mom said that my brother had been clamoring to leave the hospital for work, and he didn't tell me about it, for fear that I would be worried.

When I entered the ward, the sun shone on my brother's face through the window, pale and haggard, and I was sad for a while. When my brother saw me, he called his sister happily and reached out to shake my hand.

He whispered, "It's all right. I'm struggling. I am not an uncle yet. I can't bear to die. " I didn't tell my brother about my pregnancy, for fear that my body would drive me away.

My brother and I stayed in the ward all afternoon. Since we got married, we have rarely talked so intimately. My younger brother teased that he liked a girl some time ago and had planned to confess on Valentine's Day. Great, girls will miss a great man.

My brother also said that he wanted me to have a little nephew for him, and he wanted to teach his nephew Taekwondo.

Speaking of one wish after another, my brother's eyes sparkled. I saw his vision and hope for life, and my heart was full of pity: my brother, there are still so many landscapes in his life that I haven't seen. Is it really necessary to let life die?

I held my brother's hand and told him, "Sister will try her best to make you better."

My mother told me that the treatment fee should be at least 400,000 to 500,000, and the family savings are still 30,000. I can't hold on for a few days, and I have already called my relatives to borrow money. I told my mother not to worry, even if the pot sells iron, I will save my brother.

When I left the hospital, I stood at the door of the ward and looked back at my brother. He smiled at me and then made a victory sign to me.

On the way home, Li Wenjin and I discussed it and took out our savings to treat my brother. Li agreed without hesitation, and I thanked him gratefully.

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But when my mother-in-law learned that I was going to take money to treat my brother, she suggested that I only take out100000, and the rest of the money could not be moved.

"Mom, money can be earned again, but life is priceless!" My mother-in-law and I had a quarrel.

The mother-in-law objected, "You are going to have a baby soon, and you are spending money everywhere. How can there be so much money to fill the bottomless pit at home? "

However, a quarrel is a quarrel. The next day, my mother-in-law compromised and asked me to take out 200 thousand to treat my brother. One hundred and fifty thousand is my own private money before I got married, and fifty thousand is the property of husband and wife.

The next day, I took the money and rushed to the hospital again.

I asked the attending doctor about my brother's illness. The doctor told me that my brother was seriously ill. If it's just ordinary treatment, he will live for two years at most.

I listened with trepidation, even if I just thought that my brother would leave me forever, it would hurt like hell.

Then the doctor told me that if I want to treat it fundamentally, I suggest bone marrow transplantation. Bone marrow transplantation between relatives has high probability of success, low cost and good effect. My mother actually arranged it a few days ago, but the matching rate was too low.

After listening to the doctor's words, I could not help but shine at the moment. "So, my brother's illness can be saved. Maybe my brother and I have a high matching rate! "

I begged the doctor to match me with my brother. When the doctor learned that I was pregnant for three and a half months, he strongly disagreed. He said: "If the match is successful, you must give up the fetus in the uterus, because the fetus will die under the influence of drugs. It is prudent to trade one new life for another. You should discuss it with your family and think about it before making a decision! "

I suddenly froze. I didn't expect that such a simple thing as donating bone marrow, in my case, turned out to be a life for a life. I can't help but put my hand on my stomach, and the little life in my stomach is unforgettable. He is my little lucky star for the stars and the moon. Abandoning him is nothing but gouging out my heart and flesh.

However, my brother is also my closest relative! If I don't save him, his life will soon perish, which is even more cruel.

I didn't have time to think deeply, so I said to the doctor, "Children can regenerate, but there is only one younger brother. As long as the match is right, I will kill the child. "

The doctor nodded and soon arranged for me to match. Of course, all this is hidden from all relatives.

When the doctor told me that the match was successful, I seemed to see the light in the dark.

In addition to surprise, I fell into endless worries. How can I convince my family?

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That night, when I was struggling to make a decision, the air around me seemed to freeze and suffocate.

My mother-in-law and Li Wenjin are firmly opposed, even my mother doesn't agree. My mother-in-law was so angry that she almost fainted. My mother cried and stopped me, saying that if my brother knew what I had done to save him, would he be at peace for the rest of his life?

The husband tried hard not to get angry, but he knocked over the cups and stools at home again and again and threw pillows on the ground one by one to express his resentment and pain.

I cried to do my husband's ideological work: "I can obviously save my brother." If I let him die, what's the difference between it and killing him myself? " I will live with guilt and nightmares for the rest of my life. But the baby in the womb, he is not mature, and we have never met. Weighing both sides, I can only save my brother. "

"Have you ever thought that if your brother fails to match and aborts this child, we will never get pregnant again and we will die alone?" My husband's trembling voice expressed his concern, which was not mine.

But, at present, I can't think so much. I started drinking tea and eating rice, and my eyes were red and swollen. The next day, Li Wenjin hugged me with a sigh and choked up and said, "I don't want you to save my brother. I feel sorry for our children. I'm afraid I'll never get pregnant again. We will be embarrassed for a lifetime. "

I cried in his arms: "But I can't watch my brother die ..."

Li Wenjin relented and told me that he supported my decision. Mother-in-law's work is cleaned up by him.

With the cooperation of my husband, I sneaked out while my mother-in-law was out shopping and ran all the way to the hospital to tell the doctor that the operation was ready.

My brother soon learned the inside story. He cried his eyes red and said to me, "Sister, will you stop saving me?" ? You're finally pregnant. How can you have the heart not to want him? How can you explain to your brother-in-law that you have made such a big sacrifice? "

My mother stood by, neither left nor right, and she could only hide outside the door and cry.

I comforted my brother: "Sister is the only one who can save you. Aren't you going to teach my little nephew Taekwondo? " Don't you want to tell the girl you like? Sister will help you realize it. As long as people are alive, there is hope. The baby will still be here, believe sister. "

The younger brother nodded, his eyes showing his desire for life.

Went to obstetrics and gynecology, leaving the baby alone. I know that only by burning our bridges can we stop worrying about the pain.

Lying on the operating table, the child peeled off my body and I cried my eyes out. I have been saying to my children in my heart: Baby, I'm sorry, let's be mother and son in the next life.

Afterwards, I began to borrow money from relatives and friends, and finally received my brother's treatment fee.

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On the day of donating bone marrow to my brother, the weather was particularly sunny and everything went smoothly.

For the first time in such a long time, I have a bright smile.

My brother has a long recovery period after bone marrow transplantation. Li Wenjin drove me home. On the way, he told me that my mother-in-law almost committed suicide by taking sleeping pills during those days in the hospital.

Full of guilt, I said to my husband, "Don't worry, I will be fine, and we will have children."

Before I could catch my breath, I started the journey of IVF again.

Two weeks later, the doctor simultaneously transplanted two other frozen embryos into my uterus. Unfortunately, neither embryo was successfully retained in my body.

I cried to the ground when the embryo was lost from my body.

In order to avoid the pressure from her mother-in-law, Li Wenjin hasn't been to her mother-in-law's house for a long time. He said: "We have one frozen embryo left, and we must not give up until the last moment."

My husband's hug gave me the courage to continue fighting.

God has mercy on me. After the embryo was transplanted into the body for more than half a month, one day it suddenly rushed into the bathroom and vomited upside down. I bought a pregnancy test stick and tested it. I am pregnant! I made it!

One day when she was four months pregnant, her mother-in-law appeared at the door. I opened the door, and she took my hand with bags of ingredients and said apologetically, "Hanhan, you suffered, and mom cooked for you." I smiled and nodded.

The baby was born on April 30th, 20 19. In the hospital, the recovered brother was holding his newborn nephew and smiling brightly. Outside the window, everywhere, there is warmth, hope and deep feelings. Editor: Cece

Conclusion: One life for another. Two lives, two relatives-such a choice is too cruel for Lin Zihan.

She chose to save her brother and gave up her hard-won child. To this end, she had to bear the blame and pressure from her mother-in-law and husband. Fortunately, her husband was reasonable and stood by her from beginning to end, sharing all the pressure and pain with her.

The end of the story is warm and loving. Perhaps, fate will treat kind and affectionate people with more luck.