From grade two to grade three, it's always SY. As far as I can remember, I quit color for less than a week, sometimes two or three times a day. In recent years, my precious time has been wasted by using SY! There is something wrong with the body. Thin, it takes effort to go upstairs! I have no strength at all! Cold in winter! Ugly, hair loss, peeling, blushing! The soles of the feet are dry and peeling, layer by layer! Later, I will be flustered every afternoon. When you are flustered, you will be short of breath and breathless, so you will be afraid and flustered! I can endure physical torture! However, the psychology will be inexplicable panic and fear. When I'm scared, I think I'm going to die! The feeling of dying is particularly strong! I'm relieved to go to the hospital for an electrocardiogram. The doctor said I wouldn't be flustered if it was okay! But the next day it was like this again! Torture me to death every day! Real people have also changed a lot. There used to be aura and scenery everywhere, but later I became passive about Nuo Nuo, and I couldn't make up my mind to do anything. I believed everything others said! My classmates all say that I am like a girl, and I behave like a girl! At that time, the psychological endurance was particularly weak. Others didn't mean it. In my opinion, they just hurt me and deliberately attacked me! Too many symptoms. . . At that time, I was not me at all, but a group of walking dead tortured by SY! I have no choice but to drop out of school and go home! Drop out of school and go home, I want to see a doctor! Stay healthy! However, at that time, I didn't know that my body and mind were caused by SY! I went to see a western doctor, who said it was cardiac neurosis! Prescribed a lot of western medicine! I have a stomachache after eating every day, and I often vomit after eating, which tortures me to death! I can't help it. I insist on taking medicine to cure the disease! After eating for more than half a month, I feel terrible. I am afraid as soon as the sun goes down! I've been short of breath since afternoon, and I can't breathe! At night, I was so scared that I trembled inexplicably and felt a little cold. That kind of cold feeling is like dying, an unspeakable fear! I cried alone! My parents think there is something wrong with me. . . They didn't say anything! Have done a lot of tests, blood tests, electrocardiogram and so on! I know I'm fine! But I just can't say it. I am flustered! I'm scared! My parents hold me, and I feel so safe and secure! SY, I lost a little energy and suffered a big loss! ) my instinctive reaction, I need a psychiatrist! It's not a physical illness, it's a psychological illness? The psychiatrist said I was anxious and panicked! I have been treated for a long time! After every communication, I feel that the heavy stone in my heart is put down. After a day or two, I began to fidget again! Panic and fear! Standing in an empty place afraid, inexplicable fear! I am afraid of sleeping at night, and I am afraid that there are messy things next to me! Sometimes for a week in a row, every day at noon, there is that kind of shadow coming, and I can't wake up if I want to, and I can't move if I want to! You have to shout to wake up! It's too painful to torture me! After a lot of psychotherapy, it's still not good! I felt that I had no direction at that time, so I pinned everything on the psychologist, hoping that he could help me. Later, the psychologist said that no one can help you, I can only give me some advice, all you need to do is yourself! I broke down again. What can I do alone? I don't know what happened to me! I have no direction. . . I didn't know to quit color at that time! I say I am healthy every day, but I am still in SY! All the symptoms are not good! Eating western medicine is uncomfortable for the stomach! Suddenly I thought, what about western medicine and Chinese medicine? I went to Chinese medicine, thanks to the old Chinese medicine doctor! The first pulse will know my reason! He told me many symptoms! Nodding all the time, I feel that I have found hope and everything can be changed! He said that my kidney qi is insufficient, so let me pay attention! I thought, okay. Then once every two or three days! SY has become my habit at that time! How can you suddenly get rid of a bad habit for several years? All the symptoms have changed a little. I don't feel as scared as before, and my body is getting fatter! Well, I'm sleepy again, watching movies crazy, crazy SY! I have to say that I was a scum at that time! Once, the old Chinese doctor told me that our body is like a bucket, and your body is running out of water. You need to add water to take medicine, and this bucket is leaking, how to make it up! I said I was not feeling well! He told me a lot! At that moment, I became interested in Chinese medicine. . . I will go home and teach myself Chinese medicine online! And study psychology! I hope I can figure out how I became like this, because I have a clear conscience after my efforts! Why didn't my efforts get anything? I have learned a lot in the past six months at home. It is during this period that I don't know when or which benefactor, so I am told to abstain from color! Thank that man! Let me systematically understand the great knowledge of lust, caution! When I saw the bar, I found the organization! It turns out that there are many compatriots like me here! I am very pleased! Because it has been lost, it has been lost for a long time! Similarly, there are many teachers here telling us how to quit color! Why quit color? I was moved to tears. . . I want to know why. I feel like a lost sheep, looking for the direction of my home! Here also gave me unlimited motivation and strength!