During the day, I lay quietly in bed thinking. After going through one hurdle after another, I feel that death is nothing more than that. I look down on many things. After this regeneration, I suddenly found that it is a good thing for people to go to the hospital. Although there will definitely be pain, this kind of pain can naturally slow down your life, think calmly and stop being tired. No matter how good you are, you are a helpless person in the hospital. Your life is not in your hands, and you can't move it. At this time, everyone is equal.
Then, I called the doctor and asked them to treat this leg for me quickly. My leg can recover. There is no sports medicine in the hospital. They specially sent a car to the Third Hospital of Beijing Medical University to treat my leg. The main treatment in the third hospital is acupuncture. Acupuncture the nerve in my leg with electricity. After half a month's treatment, I began to get out of bed. But I still can't walk. I can only go outdoors in a wheelchair. I hate wheelchairs, so I started to rely on crutches. From crutches to single crutches, from single crutches to getting rid of crutches, and then limping. It's just a leg pain. What hurts more is the operation on the lower body. In order to heal the wound, you can't defecate, you can only eat liquid food. The pain is * * * put on gauze, pull out the gauze stuck in * * * every day, and then put a new one in. When you pull it out, the pain attached to the meat, the terrible pain, is like tearing a mass of meat off your body. The doctor said: Every time you change gauze, it is equivalent to a woman having an abortion. In this way, I will have a purgatory-like "abortion" every day.
Because of plastic surgery, I have to rely on a catheter to urinate. It usually takes two weeks to insert a catheter at most, while I inserted it for two and a half months. In order not to lose the function of urination in the future, I always hold the catheter with a clamp until I feel urination, and then loosen the clamp to urinate. One and a half months, need to change the catheter. The feeling of pulling out the catheter made me cry! This kind of pain is indescribable, and when I put on a new catheter and went there again, the pain was even more indescribable. After replacing the new catheter, the catheter was inserted too far behind the bladder wall, resulting in catheter blockage. That night, I couldn't pee, and my stomach was swollen and painful. I called the doctor, and the doctor rubbed my stomach, pressed it and put some urine. It took * * * an hour and a half before all the urine was discharged. The next morning, my stomach bulged again, but I still couldn't pee. I rolled in bed with pain. The doctor came over and asked, "What's the matter?"
The first step of transsexual: psychological examination before transsexual
Venus has published her own transsexual experience in great detail, including the whole process of transsexual. According to Venus, before she was hospitalized for sex change, the doctor would give the patient a psychological examination. It is said that there are more than 1000 questions to be answered. After Venus scored 94 points, the doctor was very sure of Venus' feminine tendency, so he promised to give Venus a sex-change operation.
The second step of sex change: chest surgery
The biggest visible difference between men and women is in the chest, so breast augmentation surgery is the first operation. When the transsexual doctor asked Venus to choose the weight of silica gel among 200 grams, 250 grams and 300 grams, Venus chose the largest one, but the doctor said it would affect Venus' dancing too much, and Venus finally chose the smaller one.
The third step of degeneration: removing the Adam's apple
If you want to make a woman's voice, you must remove the Adam's apple. Venus was awake even though she was anesthetized during the operation to remove the Adam's apple, because it was considered that if there were mistakes in this operation, it would lead to voice problems in the future. Therefore, Venus should make sound while performing surgery.
It is said that the reporter who followed the film at that time was stunned by the horrible and bloody scene when he saw Venus' hair removal operation, but Venus herself persisted despite tears. But Venus said that her tears were not caused by pain, but by the carelessness of the nurses, which made her very worried.
April 5th, Tomb-Sweeping Day. Unfortunately, no one had an operation that day. I said, "They feel unlucky. I have surgery. " The nurse said, "Venus, you should know that April 5 is Tomb-Sweeping Day!" " "I said," Tomb-Sweeping Day afraid of? Qingming, it is clear to remove the excess! Tomb-Sweeping Day's surgery is a good sign. "
The day before the operation, Director Yang examined me and said, "How sure are you?" I said, "50%." Director Yang asked: What about the other 50%? I said, "I gave it to heaven. Do what God should do to me. "
Director Yang shook his head. She saw me so determined, so sober, without any hesitation, and had to admit it.
The next day, I signed the responsibility certificate before the operation. The doctor showed me the responsibility list, which contained many risks of unexpected consequences. After a brief look, I resolutely signed it. At this time, I really gave myself to God to see how God arranged my future destiny.
Enter the operating room at 9: 00 in the morning and be under general anesthesia. The whole operation took 16 hours. Among them, I was bleeding heavily for four hours, and I couldn't find the blood source. Blood poured out and I had to be transfused. It really came true. I have a mass annihilation. Director Yang also works hard. She knelt down and had an operation for more than ten hours. The operation was finally a great success! However, a very big medical accident happened. I sat on the shelf where the baby was born and operated. During the operation, they didn't lock my left leg shelf, and the shelf ran away and slipped on the muscles of my calf, blocking the passage of downward blood circulation, and the blood stopped circulating and the muscles were highly convulsed. My leg was covered, but the nurse 16 hours didn't check whether my leg temperature was normal and my calf was broken. 16 hours later, I was still observing in the operating room. When I woke up, I saw that my left leg was swollen thicker than my thigh, and my five toenails were covered into five small spots, which were deeply immersed in the swollen meat.
From this time on, my left calf has been numb for two years. Seeing this situation, my first thought was: "I'm going to jump off a building." I didn't think about how painful my wound was. I thought my leg was ruined. But I can't move. I'm tied up and can't get up. The observation period passed and I was sent back to my room. At this time, all the doctors came to look at my leg. I asked the doctor, "What happened to my leg?" The doctor found that it was a medical accident after examination.
The next day, my legs were swollen like a mirror, and my skin was swollen. If I prick it with a needle, I will feel an explosion. Director Yang called the doctors in neurology and sports department for consultation, and then went to the office next door for a meeting. My mother also attended the meeting. Diagnosis: calf muscles and toe fingertip nerves are all necrotic, and it is difficult to recover. Even if he recovers, he is still a basket case.
After hearing the diagnosis, my mother cried like a crybaby. Mother cried and said, "Venus is not a good dancer. She dances very well. Dance is her life. How can she stand such a blow? "
Director Yang felt very guilty about this unfortunate medical accident and sighed, "I have committed iniquity! I have committed a crime! I ruined an excellent dancer! " In fact, this is not the responsibility of Director Yang, but the responsibility of nurses. Lying in bed, I can hear the sound of a meeting next door. I thought: why is this? Did I make the wrong choice? No, if the choice is wrong, it should bring some trouble to the later operation. But the following operations were successful. Why is my leg like this? Don't let me dance? No, maybe it's troublesome. God may be testing me to see if I can stand up.
At this time, many friends came to see me. They all heard that my leg was broken, I had a medical accident and ruined a dancer. In a week, Director Yang lost seven or eight pounds. She brings me food from home every day, always apologizing and feeling guilty. I can't see the past either. Although this is not the responsibility of Director Yang, Director Yang is responsible for this operation, and it is her responsibility to get the instructions from the hospital. I feel wronged for Director Yang. The imperfect medical system has harmed us. I know that the attitude of the nurse during the operation at that time should be attributed to the nurse.
My best sister in new york, Wang Yanyan, is back. She came to see me in the hospital. On entering the door, she saw the scene in front of her eyes and burst into tears. Wang Yanyan said, "Venus, what's wrong with you?"
My physical condition is really weak after the operation. Hemorrhage, weakness, weight reduced from 120 kg to 96 kg. I was very thin when I was lying in bed, and the quilt lay flat on me. Wang Yanyan looked at my leg, called all the doctors and said loudly, "Do you know? You ruined a dance genius! " The doctor explained, but Wang Yanyan wouldn't listen. She said she would go to court! You have to pay for this! After returning to Beijing, Wang Yanyan called and invited her best American lawyer friend. I suggested that Wang Yanyan said, "Don't go to court. This is not the responsibility of Director Yang. " Wang Yanyan said, "Venus, you are disabled and can't dance. If you don't go to court, you will never be balanced in the future. " If you win the lawsuit, you will have some money to ensure that you can rely on it for the rest of your life. "
I said, "Well, then go to court!" "My trouser leg suit asking price10 million yuan. Think about it,10 million, then sell the whole hospital. How can you lose 10 million? Ten million yuan is just a matter of numbers. If this lawsuit breaks out, Director Yang's doctorate, postdoctoral tutor and all honors will be lost. Therefore, I am particularly hesitant. If you don't go to court, your heart is really unbalanced; Litigation, and I'm sorry for Professor Yang. Because it's not Professor Yang's responsibility.
In this process, I experienced half a month's thinking. At that time, I had been lying in bed suffering. My leg hurts. I felt thousands of needles stuck in my calf, so I had to ask the nurse to give me Demerol to relieve the pain. You can sleep all day after playing Demerol. I called for two days in a row. On the third day, I asked to continue to call, and the nurse refused my request.
The nurse said, "What should I do if I am addicted to Demerol every day?" If you continue to fight, you will become an addict if you are cured. "
I have no choice but to ask the nurse to give me another injection.
The nurse said, "OK, I'll give you another injection."
The nurse is lying to me this time. She gave me an injection of distilled water. Due to psychological effects, I felt much more comfortable at that time and fell asleep slowly.
Later, the nurse tricked me into drinking distilled water every day, but I was still kept in the dark and thought it was Demerol.
One day, I looked at my left foot and sighed. I asked myself: Why? Why is this? Is this really the end? Can't my foot get better? I stared at the middle finger of my left foot with my mind for a long time and saw it move slightly. I am very excited! I thought there was still hope. I want to wake up the nerves in my calf slowly. This is a long process, but as long as I have confidence, I can stick to this process and restore the function of my calf. So I immediately called my lawyer to drop the charges.