For fifty years, my grandmother who lived in front of me has always been hard and bright, and even her weight has fluctuated by only two pounds all her life. How can a healthy grandmother, a grandmother with a mouthful of blood, stop breathing? I dare not face my dying grandmother, nor dare I see her with my last breath.

I have a hunch that if I dare not go again, I'm afraid I won't have a chance.

I didn't say hello to anyone that day, so I got up at seven o'clock and went to Weihai. After leaving Yantai Airport, take a taxi to the best hospital in Weihai, 320 yuan.

It's been 50 years, and this is the first time grandma and I met in the hospital. Whether she or I, how healthy and strong we are. Two women who dare not trouble others all their lives have never had a serious illness or seen a minor illness. They are quite tough and bite their teeth. This last time turned out to be in the hospital.

In the senior hospital bed, there is an old woman with various tubes inserted. The grandmother who loved beauty, cleanliness and face-saving all her life was turned naked by doctors and nurses.

I've been with my grandmother for fifty years, and I haven't bathed her or manicured her nails. Strong grandmother, 97 years old, still insists on taking a bath by herself. The bathroom door must be closed, and the family can only "take care of" her and "help" her through the crack of the door.

A person who has been afraid to trouble others all his life will trouble others to the fullest in his last days. Three aunts and an aunt are guarding grandma day and night in the ward. When I arrived at the hospital, I knew at the first sight that no matter who was there, no matter what the most modern medical means were used, my grandmother's soul was gone, and everything that happened in front of me had nothing to do with her.

It was getting dark

The doctor discussed whether to go on a ventilator. A cold leads to hydrops in the lungs and difficulty breathing.

I asked how long I would live by breathing, and the doctor said frankly, "It's hard to say. After all, at this age, all organs in my body have failed."

"I can't."

If you want to cut your throat, you have to open your mouth and fight against life with instruments until you finish your final effort. Does grandma still have strength? Save grandma or appease us, her relatives? I put myself on grandma's scale in an instant.

For fifty years, grandma and I have talked about death countless times. If you can't stand it, fall down.

Grandma, didn't you say that? "It's getting dark, who can stop the sun from setting? You must lie down. Children, don't be afraid. At the end of a dark day, it will be bright. "

Grandma, when will it be light? Will it be dark forever this time?

That day, from entering the ward to leaving, for eight hours, I didn't sit down for a minute and stood all the time. Do you want to stand up for grandma, or are you afraid that your soul will fall? My aunts carried stools and shouted "sit down" countless times. My eyes never leave my grandmother. I am looking forward to her opening her eyes: "Son, grandma can't die."

Grandma, didn't you say that? "Looking forward to it, hopefully, looking forward to it."

I left the ward hopefully. When the elevator door closed, I was in tears and desperate. Grandma, hope is drowned by despair.

Eight hours later, I spent more than 300 yuan to return to Yantai Airport and flew back to the flight crew on the same day. On the second day of filming, the director saw the picture from the monitor and suggested that I take a day off. I have no soul in my swollen eyes.

Lost my soul.

Strange or not, it rained heavily all the way from the ward to the airport. I have walked this road countless times since I was a child, but now I can't see the direction of this road. The last time I saw grandma was like a dream.

In fact, grandma was critically ill once five years ago.

The pink cotton velvet shroud has been prepared by herself for a long time, and several times she asked us to take it out and put it on the bedside.

"When you are asleep, put it on for me quickly, so as not to put it on hard."

I laughed at her as if she were dead. "How do you know it's difficult?" ?

"My mother just sat sleeping and invited her to dinner at noon. Ah, people were so hard that she couldn't even put on a dress at last."

Grandma regretted it all her life. The pink dress worn by her old mother when she left became the most beautiful shroud for women.

Grandma who is leaving doesn't eat or drink, so I am anxious day and night. Everything is ready, but grandma still carries half a bowl of soup and half a bowl of soup.

Grandma said, "I dreamed of your little brother every day these days (my little brother died in the line of duty more than 40 years ago), and your little brother dragged me away."

Grandma's words inspired me. "Grandma, I know a man of god in the northeast. The elder sister had a car accident a few years ago and became an all-around doctor after coming back to life. I called her and asked her how long you can live. "

Grandma closed her eyes for several days and suddenly opened them, but she said, "Where is God? God is man and man is God. "

I believe grandma won't die this time, and her mind is still so clear. So I quickly called "God Man" in front of my grandmother.

That "God Man" is my cousin, waiting for my "long distance love" in the next room.

"What? Are you sure? Five years? Five years to live? Is it this year? Belongs to a dog. Be born in the morning or at night, ask her yourself. " I handed my mobile phone to grandma.

The "God Man" asked grandma's birth time and place on the phone.

Grandma is a little deaf, and she can't recognize her granddaughter who has changed her voice. The performance was successful.

Put down the phone, grandma said, "Cook a bowl of millet to drink."

……

Five years have passed, and this time I know that boiling a pot of millet can't save grandma. God is herself.

She didn't insist, and there was nothing anyone could do.

But how much grandma wants to live, and how much grandma loves her poor days and rich days now. Grandma always praises the good life today: "Is this enough?"

Grandma who doesn't love money and is not greedy all her life is greedy for life. Life also generously rewarded her, ninety-nine.

Does everyone have a next life?

Grandma, it's almost dawn!