It's hard, and I'm not very happy.
I have reflected on the reason why my weight is out of control: very simply, my desire is the fiercest and most satisfying of all desires.
What do you lose weight for? To look good, of course.
A friend comforted me by saying that "weight change does not affect face value". Although she is sincere, I really only dare to comfort myself.
A few days ago, "Yang Tianzhen's first letter to plus-size girls" went on a hot search. Yang Tianzhen and five fat girls selected by himself made a group of magazine blockbusters to endorse the plus-size girls.
The girls in the photo all look fat, but they are confident and beautiful. Everyone is also saying that "every character deserves to be respected."
Indeed, after all kinds of appearance anxiety, physical anxiety has become a new emotional problem.
I'm a little anxious now, and I've been teased and a little fat recently, but nothing bad has happened to me.
The reason why I am anxious is that it is really ugly to wear my favorite clothes now, so most of my anxiety is imposed on myself.
A colleague in the office took a few months off some time ago and went to a weight-loss training camp to lose weight. From more than 200 to around 160 now, I am still insisting. Someone joked that "women like themselves". Did she fall in love and suddenly decide to lose weight? The customer said it was purely because she liked wearing shirts, but when she was shopping, she saw a shirt that she liked very much but couldn't wear herself. However, after losing so much weight, she really looks better and is in better shape than before.
In fact, in the eyes of many people, my body is not fat now, but I am not thin. I just can't get past myself.
I have always been a person who advocates "eating, drinking and having fun", so it is just a joke to comfort myself with the happiness after losing weight successfully.
But I still want to stick to it. After all, I look really good after losing weight.