1.

Once, I hated myself.

Dislike your eyes, they are small and fleshy, and when you smile, there is only a curved arc. Those kind words of "bright eyes in autumn" and "look around" have little to do with me.

I don't like being fat. The word "thin" has been with me since I was born. When you are thinnest, you can't meet the requirements of thinness, especially after having a baby. Looking at my thick shoulders and the swimming ring on my stomach, I have a heart that wants to dig a piece with a knife.

If this is all external, what about internal?

Arbitrary personality, a little neurotic, often self-righteous, hit the south wall, will tear down the south wall and continue to walk. I'm really annoyed by this.

Therefore, it is common to give up on yourself.

2.

When I was a child, I always fantasized that I would change the world one day.

When I grow up, I know that the world will change itself.

When I was a child, my dream was to be a designer, writer and painter. I imagined standing in the center of a shining stage, and a group of people cheered and joined me.

However, the major in college is mechanical design. Although it is also a design, why not graphic design, interior design or clothing design? I really can't figure out what my father thinks. Maybe he thinks I'm a weak girl, wearing work clothes, which must be a clean stream in the CNC workshop. Are you afraid I can't find someone?

Because of this major problem, I couldn't find a job for a long time after graduation. I have been interviewed many times, and basically I am in a state of self-abandonment. It's a good thing I don't have depression.

I rent in a shabby rental house, eat instant noodles and pickles, feel in a trance all day, complain about social injustice and be cynical every day. Now that I think about it, I am lucky not to be abandoned by my boyfriend.

Until one day, I called my parents and wanted them to buy me a computer. My mother said that the crops at home have not been sold out, so you can borrow some first and then call me. My hand holding the mobile phone began to tremble, and my parents raised me until I graduated from college. Are you going to take care of me forever? Shouldn't we work hard to make money and give back to our parents?

People may wake up in an instant, at that moment, suddenly mature, I put aside melodramatic and blx. I signed up for the financial training class, studied page by page, got to the classroom as early as possible every day, and finished the homework assigned by the teacher as quickly as possible. I know this is my last chance.

Fortunately, I learned the skills to survive. After many years, I stopped being half-hearted and still worked as a small accountant. I still haven't made a fortune, but I have the ability to stand on my own feet.

The major in the university, though never used, has brought me rational thinking and many benefits.

When I was young and frivolous, I thought I was a very powerful person. I wanted to be different, unique and outstanding. But one day, I finally admitted that I was an ordinary person, and I didn't have the ability to cross the sky or the courage to burn my bridges.

But no matter how ordinary, no matter how small, it will radiate its own light, shining and dazzling.

3.

Once, I hated my figure, especially after giving birth to a baby. The whole person is swollen. I don't take pictures anymore, I don't want to take pictures, and I even go shopping to buy clothes.

Look how much I hate myself.

So, I began to confront her, such as apple yogurt method, egg cucumber method, seven-day slimming soup and so on. As long as I hear that a prescription is effective, I am willing to give it a try. Of course, there are also successful cases. Last year, I lost 20 pounds without eating for three months. It's good to lose weight. Pinch your waist every morning, and when it gets a little smaller, you get excited. I think it's worth starving.

Thin is thin, but other problems come one after another, such as hypoglycemia, palpitation, shortness of breath and menstrual disorder. Once, after climbing several floors, I was sweating and almost fainted. After that, I understood that health is the most important thing.

In fact, it is not so exaggerated and slightly fat to observe your figure carefully, but you should choose some styles that suit you when buying clothes. The chubby face looks like a baby's fat and looks a few years younger.

Moreover, in windy days, you don't have to grab the telephone poles with those hemp girls, and you can't walk away after blowing. It's much simpler.

4.

In the first few years after graduation, I was particularly self-righteous and sarcastic. I always try to argue with others. No matter whether I am right or wrong, I always obey what the other party says.

I remember a colleague complained in the office that her husband often didn't do housework and played games every day. I can't stand my nosy and pretentious personality, so I warned her that such a man can't have it, just want to enjoy success and don't care about his wife and so on. I am an unmarried girl, talking about other people's housework.

The next day, my eldest sister came to work with swollen eyes, and I realized that my remarks had hurt others.

There are too many such examples. Actually, I have many shortcomings. I am moody and easily mixed with sadness and joy. Can't jump rope, can't ride a bike; Every time my friend asks me, I won't admit that I killed her. I have to argue with her. Good party is also because I broke up.

Later, I figured it out. It's totally unnecessary.

It is normal for people to be long and short, but it is not perfect.

Now, if my colleagues complain about family affairs, I won't interrupt them easily. If I have to ask for my advice, I will try to analyze it from many angles and stop slapping my face.

So someone asked me why you didn't come to work by bike. I always tell her calmly that I can't ride a bike and have traffic phobia. Even if she looks puzzled, you can't ride a bike?

That's right. number

It's not that hard to admit your shortcomings.

5.

I accepted my ordinary appearance, ordinary qualifications, my shortcomings, and finally, I no longer dislike myself. Strangely, after that, I feel happy and happy more easily.

I no longer force myself to lose weight, but study healthy recipes and bring new taste buds to my family; It is no longer aggression, but empathy when communicating with people. Love yourself, at least accept yourself first.

From now on, from the heart, no longer give up on yourself. It is our own mind that has always been with us. Only by opening your heart and accepting yourself can you embrace yourself and move forward happily in the long road.