I really feel a lot older recently. Don't talk to friends, quit discos at night, stay up late, and don't look forward to love. If I get too comfortable, I will panic.

What's wrong with yourself?

For socializing, there is no urgency and importunity, and the circle is still a few friends who can talk. There is no intrigue, but more ease and calm.

Anyway, I used to be a disco master. The high-spirited appearance in the night show was once considered as the public enemy of women. Now, my friend asked me at 6: 30, 10:00, and I was still at home. I want to stay at home 10:30. The sudden change is probably the realization that staying at the night show is also a waste of time. There are no real friends, no love, and how many fair-weather friends can help me push a cup for a change. I am an old player, too. I have seen too many plays and I know too many faces. I used to be young and ignorant, but I also wanted to find a Gao Fushuai to live in the night show, but I thought that there could be several Gao Fushuai in the night show, most of them were big pig feet who did odd jobs on the surface. If you realize this, you won't miss the evening show again.

I once struggled with myself because I was young and full of collagen. When you are drunk, you put on makeup and sleep. When you are happy, you will talk with your friends all night. If you think it's cool, you won't leave your hand. Now, self-discipline has become a habit, and the alarm clock is 1 1:30 (to remind yourself to sleep, not to get up). Finally, look at the face of the years, take good care of your skin, keep fit, quit smoking and drinking, and don't stay up late. Alas, now I always bring my own cup with lemon honey water when I go out, and I have changed from a disco master to a healthy girl.

Some time ago, my best friend sent me a message: "Do you know what survival of the fittest means? Excellent girls become leftover women, and inferior girls marry others as wives. " This sister, like me, has been single for many years, so I have to give myself some comfort. It's really hard to like someone easily when you are old. Sudden affection is not without, but it is not a little girl. I don't expect a man to say anything, and I don't think we will be together if we like each other. It depends on whether it is suitable or not. Will compromise but will not accommodate, will respect but will not humble, will be moved but will not please, perhaps this is our current state, and this state seems to be what everyone says: "Single by ability."

Gradually, I have reached the stage of drifting away from my family. I don't care about my family, but I love my family too much, so I choose a long-distance relationship to get along well. Last winter, I chose to move out and live by myself. Contact the intermediary to see the house every day. I crowded to IKEA to buy furniture, and I personally added a touch of home to the rental house. It is still closely related to family members, and a weekly family dinner is essential. Although the distance is far, the relationship is much closer. Not long ago, the second tattoo was tattooed on the more conspicuous left arm. My family thought it was my first tattoo and couldn't help cursing me. I sat at the dinner table without answering back, and finally said, "Don't I have the right to decide my own affairs?" Since you choose independence, you have to take responsibility, and you have the right to choose your own life, no matter how good or bad it is.

Finally, I dare not live too comfortably. Once I am free, I have a lot of bad ideas, and my brain is not good. Moreover, after saying goodbye to the night show and going to bed early and getting up early, I don't know how to spend the morning. So I insist on exercising for two hours every day. I must read a book before going to bed. I must not put off writing an article. I also signed up for ballet classes on weekends to regain my previous hobbies.

Although I will be 19 years old in an instant, I feel much older in my mind, but I will be old when I am old. Bowing to the years adds a little charm to me.