My skin is getting slack, I have no money to buy expensive cosmetics, I have no time to go to the gym to exercise, and I agree to go to bed early and get up early. As a result, because I played a few more games, my promise fell through, and I went to work with bags under my eyes and dark circles the next day. I feel really useless.
In public places, people are smoking, talking loudly and littering nearby. Their tired minds are about to explode and they have no courage to discourage them.
After working overtime for several days, I gave up gathering with friends, chatting with my family and dating my lover. The plan I made was rejected by the leader. I stood at the door of the office with several stacks of A4 paper, and my nose was particularly blocked.
After all, it is not a matter of principle to make an agreement with relatives never to quarrel or argue over trivial matters again. You can muddle along happily, but when such a thing happens, the first second reaction is to lose your temper, so you are willing to say something hurtful.
I've been shouting for months to lose weight, but I still can't restrain my instinct to eat and drink. Looking at the swimming rings that are getting richer every day, I simply can't lift my head.
Going to a big shopping mall and looking at exquisite goods and their amazing prices, my hands can't help shaking. I have graduated for several years and have no savings. I can do whatever I like. It's really hard to say
Relatives are sick, so they just cry and cry in a flurry. They used to fantasize about giving them the best things, but the reality is always pale and powerless. People in the hospital are so cold and sad. When they see the medical bills, they hate themselves for indulging themselves and can't bear hardships.
At the reunion, some children got married, some husbands got rich, and some people prospered. They look at themselves reflexively, as if a few years after graduation, they have nothing but an empty mind.
The landlord came to urge the rent. There is nothing wrong with an empty house, but I have no money to pay the down payment at all, and I have to watch the house price soar. My dream of a house is getting farther and farther away, and maybe one day it will burst like a bubble.
The uncles and aunts in the company are very curious. Why aren't you married? You have met many blind dates, either others are picky or you are picky. When can your parents attend your wedding every day? You know that choosing not to get married in this life will be much happier, but you don't have the courage to resist.
The most terrible thing is that there is no goal. Wandering in the busy street every day, on the way from car to car, on the line between rental house and unit, you hate everything around you, but dare not cut off this line. It's hard to think about next month's utilities, living expenses and rent.
But even so, I still have hope for this world, because maybe a small flower can make me happy, maybe a smile can make me jump for joy. I love this cold and realistic world, and I love myself more.