? -This article is only for mourning menstruation.
? "Rui, you're here. Look at this list and see what's going on. Your brother-in-law (Fu) can't understand it. "
? "Rui, why are you here? I'm fine. Light should (may) take off and be afraid, so I call you. " ...
? "Rui, you have to go! Be careful on the way back after dark, I'll let Tengfei see you off. " ...
? "Take off, I have milk under the bed. I brought you a box of Reggie. It's time to be thirsty. " ...
? "TengFei, find a bag. I can't finish this milk by myself. I'll bring you some boxes of Ruijie. " ...
What keeps popping up in my mind is your voice and smile, your nose is a little sour and your eyes are a little astringent. I looked up with tears in my eyes and listened to "my aunt, my girl, my aunt, my aunt" around me ... On the way to pick up your mother's family, I let out a cry. Even I feel a little cold-blooded. In this scene, my performance may be a little inappropriate However, at that moment, what was on my mind? Hatred of the hospital? Disdain? Not satisfied? Or some kind of complicated emotion? I don't know! Perhaps, nothing, ethereal. ...
? I thought I was a maverick. I thought I would change everything with my hands. I was thinking about how to make you feel more at ease, how to prevent your experience from being repeated by others ... My mind was full of twists and turns all the way, but as soon as I entered the house, I heard the heartbreaking sound of Tengfei Tengkun and his two brothers, and tears flowed down uncontrollably. I can't seem to do anything, nothing! Chen Fan said: If you don't sweep a house, how can you sweep the world? What you saw and heard in the hospital and even your personal experience can't be solved by me. Why should I think about how to change the world? I have no money, no power and no ability. Why should I? I am one in ten million college students? Or do I think about life all day but grow slowly?
Even give you a chance to see a doctor normally! I didn't hear what you told me. In fact, from the time I got home at 3: 30 to the time you left this world at 7: 30, I never heard from you again. What I saw was you reaching out from under the covers and slapping the air unconsciously. According to the villagers, this is the burning process of your internal organs, and you are too hot. What I saw was a room full of people who were in a hurry when changing oxygen, holding wrenches and oxygen bags, and everyone shouted hurry up; What I saw was Tengfei Tengkun feeding you water with needles, and my uncle feeding you soup with needles. . . While being moved by the concern of my two younger brothers and uncles, I was wondering, if you were in the hospital, would it be better to connect when changing oxygen? If you are in a hospital, can you still have some medicine and some infusion bottles to relieve the pain, instead of just relying on physical cooling? But I know that going home is your wish and your best choice!
? The last time I saw you in the hospital was Saturday, when you looked fine. At 2 o'clock on Sunday afternoon, you were sent to the intensive care unit, and you stayed in this room with 10 thousand yuan a day for less than three days. At 9 o'clock on Tuesday night, I got a message from my brother that you came home from the hospital. I thought the hospital couldn't cure you until I knew the truth: your hospital really couldn't cure you, and there was no better way except chemotherapy, and the serious reaction and various complications after the first chemotherapy also led to this incurable disease; But this disease is difficult to treat. As long as you are here, my uncle will treat you well no matter how hard you suffer. Even if I live two more years, my uncle and Tengfei Tengkun will have something to rely on when they go home. ...
You chose to go home. When relatives can visit, you leave your nephew with you and have to leave the hospital and go home! I heard from the aunt in the village that she called you before and asked if she could come back to town or county for an injection for the New Year. And you said it shouldn't work. Zhengzhou's family has no conditions and can't come back! That sentence is full of longing for life; In the blink of an eye, you came back. After two or three days, you said that if you were still alive in the hospital, the patient with you in the intensive care unit was an old man. The nurse didn't give him water for three days, and the old man wanted to drink water. The nurse slapped him twice in the backhand. You said my uncle brought you milk, and you asked the nurse to heat it for you. Do you believe the threat that you can really intubate you again? Aunt, I know, you are afraid! Who is in a strange environment, life is in the hands of others, and will not be afraid of such threats? You have been kind all your life, where have you seen such a scene, and where can you rest easy?
Aunt, frankly speaking, I don't have many opportunities to associate with you. . . I grew up with my grandmother and parents, and you work outside with my uncle all the year round, so there are only a handful of times I can see you every year; Most of the pictures you left in my mind were of you being ill in Zhengzhou for more than a month and I went to the hospital to see you. No matter how many times, that is, when I was a child, I happily received your lucky money. Year after year, from five purple pieces to ten gray pieces, sometimes you secretly give me and my brother fifty pieces, telling us: quietly, the only two in our family are still at school, and we have to give the lucky money; In other words, every year you cook a meal at home and leave me and my brother to eat at your home. Sometimes we will live in your house, and sometimes we will run home to find our parents. At that time, in our eyes, it was very comfortable to be with you for no reason. Although we only meet once a year, this is probably blood relationship! Aunt, you really didn't leave me too many memories, but more of a feeling, a feeling worthy of being close, which is a kindness! Your funeral, relatives coming and going, uncles and aunts in the village all spoke highly of you! It's true, aunt. You deserve to be a man with such a reputation.
Aunt, I know you will die unsatisfied: Tengfei hasn't found a partner yet, and Tengkun's child should be born in two months. My uncle usually works and goes home to cook. You must be reluctant to part with it. Aunt, you are worried about them, I know! I remember when you first went to college, you said, Rui, this college student is dead. Work hard and see if you can take Teng Kun with you when you have the chance. I laughed it off at that time. Only I know how fucking worthless college students are, but I can also give you a promise that if there is a job suitable for my brother around me, I will take the time to pick it up! It's a bit ridiculous to say this at this time. After all, I'm just a speck of dust, and I don't even have a place to stay! But aunt, your niece can only do this, and nothing else can! ! !
? Aunt, after you left, my uncle was haggard a lot, which made people feel distressed. Yes, you are all young. You are only 42 years old. My uncle lost his wife in middle age. His only hope now is to marry for Tengfei, let the two brothers live a good life, and then pay off their debts slowly. . . My uncle is under a lot of pressure. When you left, my uncle arranged life for Tengkun verbatim: say something unpleasant. . . I know, my uncle is telling the truth, but it is also the truth, which makes people feel distressed! Aunt, if there is really a soul in this world, if people will stay in that environment for three days after leaving the soul, then you must have seen my uncle and your heartbreaking and helpless pain; It must be full of worries! I felt terrible for a while after you left, but after about fifteen minutes, I no longer felt bad, and my parents felt the same way. My dad said, you are looking at us! It's that you don't want us to feel uncomfortable. You feel uncomfortable watching us take off, and Teng Kun is helpless. . .
? Aunt, you have a son and no daughter all your life! My mother said: You are a good man. You said you wanted me to be your daughter. I didn't expect you to leave before I could say this. . . Aunt, according to our custom, I won't cry at the funeral. I didn't shout after you left; But I knelt in front of your coffin and talked to you. Did you hear that? I know you are reluctant to take off Teng Kun, and you are not at ease. I dare not give you any promises about your niece's present situation and future. But my uncle, I hurt as much as my father!
? Aunt, your niece is in a daze and doesn't know what she said, but it's all from the heart! Have a nice trip.
? May there be no more pain in heaven; There is no ugliness in the world!
? Aunt, there is light in heaven. Have a nice trip! ! !