No matter what kind of person she is, at least you have a crush on her. Everyone is like this. As long as you feel that way, even if you want it to disappear, it won't leave your sight so easily.
If a person has a good impression on another person, then he (she) will impose many benefits on him (her). This is the strong reaction encountered in feelings, which often leads people to make wrong decisions. After two people get along for a period of time, they will gradually find that each other is not so good. So some people often regret it after they get it in their feelings.
You and I are the same, Maman. No one knows what kind of world tomorrow will be, so don't pin all your hopes on today. Maybe what you meet tomorrow is called happiness. Or another person will come into your world tomorrow, or she is the one in your life.
Don't be too attached to feelings, do what you should do now! Put your happiness on tomorrow!
One's life is not without choice, but without choice, because choice is often only once. Once a decision is made, there is no room for regret. So we should be more cautious.
There is such a story: "There was an old gentleman who took three disciples to the wheat field. Let his three apprentices walk from one end of the wheat field to the other and pick one they are satisfied with, only once. As soon as the first disciple walked into the wheat field, he saw a big one and took it off. As he walked through the wheat field, he found many bigger grains, but he couldn't pick them, so he couldn't catch them. The second disciple walked into the wheat field and saw a barley grain. He wanted to pick it, but he was afraid there would be more behind, so he had to give it up. When he was about to walk through the wheat field, he never saw a barley grain again, so he had to pick one at random. He also regrets it very much. After the third son walked into the wheat field, he began to observe the wheat grains carefully. Walking halfway through the wheat field, he probably understood the size of the wheat grain in the wheat field, so in the second half of the wheat field, he saw a barley grain and picked it. He smiled after walking in the wheat field. "
Maybe this story is familiar to you. I'm just wasting my breath saying it. However, you should learn from the method of the third disciple in the story and live your life in his way.
No matter how you feel about her, imagine her as a big grain of wheat you saw when you first walked into the wheat field. After all, your wheat field is not half finished. So you should study hard. If you can't forget her, don't try to forget her. Let nature take its course, and when you do show up one day, she will naturally leave. Maybe one day, when the time is right, she will still be you.
I wish you progress in your study and get out of the emotional whirlpool as soon as possible!