"Xiao Qi, do you think that a girl who is not beautiful, not tall or thin has no right to be loved and will die alone?"

Xiao Xin asked me with a depressed face, her right hand kept stirring the coffee. The jingle of the spoon hitting the cup wall caused dissatisfaction among the people around her. I quickly took her right hand and smiled apologetically at the people around me.

"Who said that? We can't deny ourselves because of the eyes of others! Look at Jane Eyre. She is neither rich nor beautiful, but she has a beautiful face, but didn't she win Rochester's love in the end? " I said.

"But that's a novel, and it's not reality ..." I didn't know what to say when I looked at Xiao Xin depressed at his desk. Perhaps silent company is the best comfort.

A few days ago, my family introduced Xiaoxin to a blind date, Su Mo, who looks gentle and delicate, wears a pair of glasses, is clean and introverted, and vaguely has a bookish look. This is the only boy who has let Xiao Xin's inner deer bump into each other in countless blind dates.

When they first met, they talked about international current affairs from their hobbies. Su Mo has a broad vision and talks humorously. When eating, Xiao Xin carefully put away the image of a woman man at ordinary times, with gentle manners and dignified manners. Su Mo is also a gentleman, which makes Xiao Xin feel better.

At that time, the bookstore owner in Xiao Xin was preparing to transfer the store. Xiao Xin is facing unemployment, and her cousin who runs a bar asks Xiao Xin to help in the shop. Xiao Xin had planned to stay in the bar for a while, which just solved the economic problem. The thought that if Sumo knew that she worked in a bar, she would definitely think that she was not a good girl. In order to keep a good image in Su Mo's mind, she decided to give up her job in a bar.

Su Mo is so clean and beautiful, Xiao Xin doesn't want Sumo to have any prejudice against her.

After that meeting, Xiao Xin often sent messages to sumo on WeChat. She was the first to share anything interesting with sumo, but she would reply one by one at the beginning, and it would take a long time to reply every other day and a half. Xiao Xin had to tell himself that he must be too busy, so he didn't reply until late.

Su Mo continues to maintain a lukewarm attitude, and Xiao Xin's mood is also complicated. He is hot and she is happy; He was cold and she was sad. One day, Xiao Xin finally couldn't stand Su Mo's attitude, so she made an appointment with Su Mo and decided to talk openly.

At the appointed place, Xiao Xin waited for half an hour, and Su Mo was late. Su Mo pulled up a chair and sat down. He said apologetically to Xiao Xin, "I'm really sorry, the traffic on the way to work is too heavy, which has kept you waiting." For the person you like, even if you wait for him for a long time, all the gas in your heart will disappear at the moment you see him.

"Sumo, do you like me or not?" Xiao Xin asked.

In the face of Xiao Xin's sudden and direct problems, Su Mo was a little embarrassed. "So long, do you like me or not? I don't want to guess every day, just tell me directly! " Xiao Xin continued.

Su Mo was silent for a few seconds and said, "It's very comfortable to chat with you. If we are friends, I will. If we are lovers, there will always be something between us. " With that, Su Mo left in a hurry.

I have always found it difficult to meet someone I can talk to, and I can not only talk to Su Mo, but also have a layer of affection I like. Su Mo's euphemistic refusal instantly doused the faint flame of love in Xiao Xin's heart.

When we are young, we will feel sorry for a person's youth, thinking that without that person, we will never feel too fond of it again. However, when she met Su Mo, Xiao Xin's barren heart gradually grew into a small seedling of love, and grew stronger and stronger.

Since last year, the family has arranged blind dates for Xiao Xin, including rich second generation of the same age and middle-aged uncle around 30. Basically, after meeting in a hurry, there was no news. A 28-year-old eldest brother met Xiao Xin and said, How old are you this year? Such a small family let you go out on a blind date?

I have known Xiao Xin for so many years. She always has big eyes, neat bangs, low-fat appearance, jeans and sneakers, and has never changed her dress. If I hadn't known that she was the same age as me, I would have thought she was a junior high school student!

So many blind dates ended in vain. This time, Su Mo's euphemistic refusal made Xiao Xin even more sad. Maybe a person Su Like deserves a girl as good as him! Just like everyone loves Song Joong Ki Ouba, but Ouba doesn't have special respect for a fat man who is neither beautiful nor thin nor white. He must like Mu-Yeon Kang, who has a gentle and charming smile and can be evenly matched with him.

Later, Xiao Xin began to teach herself Duoyan Zheng weight-loss exercises online, doing 40 minutes before going to bed every night and going to the gym twice a week. I began to pay attention to skin care and makeup artist. In order to lose weight, I deliberately ate fruit instead of eating at night. Learn dressing skills and try to wear skirts and high heels.

Xiao Xin has been interested in drawing illustrations since he was a child. In order to improve her painting level, she once enrolled in a Korean class to learn Korean and went to Korea to study painting for three months. After returning home, this only hobby ran aground for various reasons. Now, Xiao Xin studies Korean, practices painting and writes for various magazines after work.

Once, Xiao Xin posted a photo of her in the gym on WeChat. In the photo, she is much thinner than before, and her waistline is much more obvious, and her slightly pointed chin can be faintly seen. I was very surprised when I saw the photo. No one expected that the fat girl lost a little weight in just one month.

"Xiao Xin, a little thinner, you can win China Kioba in minutes." I asked, "You are trying so hard to lose weight, not because of Sumo, right?"

"Not exactly!" Xiao Xin made a naughty expression and said, "I sat there thinking for a long time after Su Mo left that day. Thinking that my eldest brother said I was a junior high school student before, I wondered why I kissed him so many times without any result. I always find myself not good enough, not good enough, not beautiful enough. The most important thing is that I didn't realize this problem before. Later I thought, maybe if I change a little, will my life be better? "

Gradually, Xiao Xin grew long hair, combed her bangs, put on light makeup, put on a dress and stood there in stilettos. Once upon a time, that chubby girl seemed to be reborn and turned into a slim girl.

It's hard to imagine a girl who has hardly worn a skirt and used decent cosmetics for 24 years and has been living a messy life. Standing in the crowd, she is always at a loss. She always hides in the corner, doing her own thing quietly, without quarreling, robbing or complaining. Although kind, but not beautiful and dazzling, lonely but inferior, even if you meet someone you like, you will be rejected for various reasons. However, her heart has always been beautiful and full of expectations for the future.

When she encounters setbacks, she will be hit hard. She will also face up to the root of the problem, actively solve the problem in the face of difficulties and change her current situation, instead of complaining about the injustice of the world and giving up on herself. She will work hard to make herself more dazzling step by step. She will want to make herself better for the person she likes, not just pay lip service.

One night, while listening to songs, I brushed my circle of friends. When I turned to Xiaoxin's story, I was really shocked by this little girl. In the photo, Xiaoxin is dressed in a light blue dress with long hair rolled up high, standing on the podium, holding a trophy in one hand and a certificate in the other, smiling like a flower. The certificate says "First Prize of XX Youth Literature Illustrator Competition".

If you are in full bloom, butterflies will come. Yes, only when you get better can you stand beside the person you like and deserve his love for you.

The title of this dynamic photo is "so that I can be closer to you."