Physically, I didn't like sports before, and I had almost no exercise habits. I don't have anything to play well in sports, and my physical coordination is poor. Now, my physical coordination is still very poor, and I still can't play ball games, but I have developed my own exercise habits since the early days of abstinence. Dozens of sit-ups and push-ups are essential every day. In particular, I fell in love with a good exercise method, that is, climbing mountains. One advantage of this city is its mountains. As long as I have time, I will climb mountains, breathe fresh air to exercise my vital capacity, exercise my endurance and enhance my perseverance. Anyway, that feeling is really good. Recently, another sport has been added: fun running, that is, running N kilometers every night (in fact, it seems to be 3-4 kilometers). This is mainly inspired by my classmates who have stayed for a long time. After running for a long time every night, I broke out in a sweat and took a bath, which was particularly comfortable and my sleep was obviously further improved. And what I want to emphasize in particular is that the first few days of long-distance running are very painful and I feel extra burden every day. After I persisted for more than a week, I got used to it and even became a demand and expectation. If I don't succeed because of the weather, I will feel bad. From this incident, I further understand that everything is difficult at the beginning. As long as you persist in the painful period, you are half successful. Recently, I had a new idea. I used to practice Taekwondo, but later I gave it up. After watching the Olympic Games, I want to practice again now, just for fun. It will take six months to a year to see if I can practice my cross kick and front kick well. This must be more difficult. It will be painful to be flexible at my age, but I still want to try. Obviously, I am much more active and energetic now than before.
In terms of work and study, after a period of passionate investment in work, it seems that there is not much improvement for the time being, and it is basically standing still. This is quite shameful. In terms of study, I secretly took an IELTS test behind my back some time ago, and I dare not take up review time at work. I just make up for an hour or two before going to bed every night, and sometimes I stay up all night. I didn't have to go abroad to take this exam, but I still have a lot of concerns. I signed up with the idea of getting a grade first, and actually entered the formal review, which is one month before the exam. My basic English is average, and I got 60 points in CET-4 and CET-6. Besides, I haven't touched it well after work. IELTS listening, speaking, reading and writing will be tested in two years. I hardly know how to review and prepare for oral English and writing, but the final score came out, with a total score of 6, just enough to reach the application score of that school. For people with good English, this score can only be considered very average, but for me, it is very unexpected and very happy. In short, it is a hard work and a harvest.
These are some changes and gains during my abstinence. If you get something, you will lose it. In fact, abstinence has nothing to lose. What I want to say is some regrets about abstinence. The main regret is not making good use of time. If I do a good job from the beginning of abstinence, I will certainly get more gains in my work, study and physical exercise. Unfortunately, I will know how many days I will remember at first. Many friends in the forum have this idea, which is simply: give up prostitution first, and then struggle. Specifically, I feel that my body has deteriorated a lot in intelligence and physique because of years of bad habits. I should give up first and do other things when I recover. So some people just do nothing all day, just stop, endure and hold back. They come to the forum from time to time to pull two meaningless slogans, just to wait for their physical recovery, intellectual recovery, and even better luck. And from time to time, I will come up and complain why I haven't had luck yet, so wait and see. Don't you think about what useful things you have done besides not committing adultery? It's like a football match. A team that insists on its own opinions and does not take the initiative to attack is not only an ugly team, but also a team with no future. For those who want to make progress and succeed, it is essential to abstain from prostitution, and it is also essential to make simultaneous efforts in other aspects such as work, study and physical exercise. Moreover, during the withdrawal period, putting more energy into work, study and exercise can obviously reduce the pressure of withdrawal. I think high-level abstinence means "you forget that you are abstaining from prostitution", because you have devoted yourself to what you should do. And many brothers just quit for a long time, no longer adhere to long-term exercise habits or study habits, and then quit soon.
The above is my 200-day speech, sharing and encouraging myself.
The second 200-day speech of Xinhui
I always felt that something should be done, so I decided to make up for this 200-day speech. .
It's already the second 200 days, so I'm thinking, what experience was not available for the first time? I thought about it and found that there is still such a difference. I realized that abstinence is not persistence, but sailing against the current. .
This sounds contradictory. What should I say? Persistence is an inertia mentality. When I feel good about myself, I will have the mentality of maintaining the status quo. Maybe that's why I failed last time. . . I thought, this state is very good, and it is right to keep it up. Then, under the interference of various other factors, the level of this baseline decreased bit by bit, which led to the decline of my judgment standard. . .
However, sailing against the current is a mentality of not advancing or retreating. There is no static state and no critical point. As long as you don't move forward, you will definitely retreat. . . I believe that comrades who abstain from prostitution will have this experience. With the increase of abstinence days, our state is also improving. When we recover to a certain extent, we will have a good feeling. . . However, it is this feeling that prevents us from moving forward. We always try to keep this good state, but we never thought that we would get more from further progress? This often becomes the starting point for the beginning of depravity. . I'm like this myself. .
This time, I chose the attitude of sailing against the current. When my body is adjusted, I try to do more exercise. When I achieve an achievement, I try to challenge a higher difficulty; When I can avoid looking at any SQ website, I try to get rid of the habit of browsing news web pages; When I finish a task, I wonder if I can finish a more difficult task. . . Gradually, I found that my ability was improving, and I accomplished many things that I didn't even dare to think about at first. . . At this time, good feelings came again. Should I keep this state or move on? The answer should be forwarding! !
In fact, most comrades who return to the road after breaking the precepts quit with the attitude of sailing against the current, but when the situation improves, they will have an attitude of "persistence" or "maintenance". . . At this time, only by advancing can we keep the victory and leave the devil far behind, instead of drawing a static line, it will cross this line to find us sooner or later. . .
I don't know if I made it clear, but this is what I want to say in my second 200-day speech. Come on, everybody !