At the worst time, I tried to commit suicide at 20 10. At that time, his body was already severely obese, and everyone's ridicule, regret and ridicule made his condition worse again and again. It can be said that he didn't have a job after he escaped from prison, because he has been fighting depression. His obesity was also caused by food at that time. I think it doesn't matter whether it is hot or not for Wen. After all, I have experienced many inconveniences brought by fame, such as people's curiosity about private life and taking photos everywhere.
Now that his depression has been relieved, he takes care of himself every day and shares his experiences with you on facebook, hoping to help people who also suffer from depression.
Because of depression, his living space has become narrow. He once wrote: In my later life, I also encountered many setbacks. Among them, the most troublesome are interpersonal and social relations. I'm not good at it, and I'm embarrassed to learn relationships that others can easily solve in many cases.
He wrote on Facebook:
Today, I once again found myself a popular spoof object on the Internet. Although this is not the first time.
But this time, unlike before, it really poked me.
It was 20 10, and I was semi-retired.
First of all, I want to kill myself.
On this topic, I have written articles, given speeches and shared them publicly.
But at that time, I silently endured it. Like many people. Only a few people knew how struggling I was.
I feel ashamed and miserable, and I feel ruined. The voice in my head drives me to self-destruction. This is not the first time.
I have been troubled by depression since I was a child. Fighting against it consumes my time, opportunities and emotional relationships, and keeps me awake for thousands of nights.
20 10 is the lowest point in my adult life, and I look for relief/comfort/recreation everywhere. So I fell in love with delicious food. In fact, it may be other options, drugs, alcohol, sex. But eating has become the only thing that can give me hope and help me tide over the difficulties. Sometimes, the happiest time of my week is to enjoy a delicious meal and watch an episode of master chef. Sometimes this is enough, and sometimes it has to be.
So I gained weight. What's the big deal?
Actually, I am very happy.
Because now, every time I see this photo with a rare smile in a red Tee, I will think of that struggle. In the face of internal and external demons, I am tough and strong.
Like a dandelion drilling in a crack in the sidewalk, I insist on standing upright.
But in short, despite this,
The first time I saw this group of popular spoof pictures on my social network, I must admit that I even felt the pain of breathing. But like everything in life, I have to decide what it means to me. And the meaning I give to this/my photo is "strong", "healing" and "forgiveness".
Forgive yourself and forgive others.
One day, my friends and I were hiking in Los Angeles and met a reality show. I didn't know there were paparazzi around. They took photos of me, compared them with photos of my other acting career, and released them together. The title party wrote "handsome guy becomes fat" and "good figure is out of shape" and so on.
My mother has such a "friend" who always brings her bad news at the first time. They cut out a piece of such news from a big popular magazine in China and sent it to my mother. She called me anxiously.
20 10, I am fighting for my mental health, which is the last thing I need.
To make a long story short, I survived.
Those photos stayed.
But to me, he is still the man with a deep sea in his eyes.
For himself, I don't think fire should never be within his concern, and so on.