We are father and daughter, and we are doomed to feel bad in this life.
Dear mom and dad, what's life like after I left home? Dad still drinks a lot! On the phone, you kept reminding me that it is inevitable to have social intercourse at work, but try to drink less. Girls should always stay awake so as not to be bullied. You also said that drinking too much would harm their health. But why did you stop drinking for so many years and drink more and more frequently recently? Although you have never said love to your daughter, I know you are worried about me again. I know your stubbornness always makes you drown your sorrows in wine. Growing up, you never hugged your daughter, but you propped up a windless and rainless sky for me with your thin spine. Now, the little girl who is always angry with you has grown up. Let me do something for you in the future. No matter how hard I try, it's not as good as one tenth of what you pay for me. Is mom still used to standing at the door and looking around? You often say that your daughter is like a kite in your hand. When I was a child, you held it in your hand and waited for me to take it off. Later, although I was studying outside, I flew away at the height you could see. I have been flying farther and farther since I worked. You're still holding the kite string. You said that if one day I got lost or couldn't fly, you would take me home with a string. I'm sorry, dear mother, my daughter is unfilial because she can't be with your parents. On the phone, I always say that you nag and that you care too much. In fact, I don't understand your thoughts and worry day and night. As far as I can remember, you rarely bought yourself new clothes when you were growing up. Until today, I don't know what color you like. What about me? No matter how unreasonable your request is, you have met it. Since being with you, you have only done one thing, and that is to make me happy. Now that my daughter is mature, she will live for herself in the future! Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I have done too little for your parents for so many years. It's cold, remember to add a dress? That's what you keep reminding me. Don't take it seriously when you are sick. When you were a child, it was just a small cold, and you were extremely anxious. Now you need two gray-haired old people to check your injection. Sorry, forgive my selfish obsession with dreams. I've been trying to say my deep love in front of you for so many years, but I didn't say it on my lips after all. At this moment, I want to say "Mom and Dad, I love you" loudly. Did you hear that? Being your daughter is really happy. Be my son and daughter in my next life. Let me put it in my hand and hurt me with my life, just like you did me.
We are brothers whose blood is thicker than water, and only missing is left in this life.
I miss you, my little lover. I miss you all the time. How are you now? Ten years have passed since that blink of an eye. Forgive me for not guessing your appearance, your smile, your kindness, your unreasonable troubles and your vague tears have been deeply engraved in the softest place in my heart. Do you know that every time I miss you, the scar gets deeper? Later, my heart was empty, which just contained countless tears in my eyes that I couldn't swallow for you. Drop by drop, I gathered into streams, rivers and lakes until Wang Yang rolled with huge waves. I really miss you, my little lover. Ten years later, I am no longer me, you are still you, forever frozen in that yellow photo. The more people grow up, the more lonely they feel. It's okay, you don't have to go through the ups and downs of this world. Do you still remember me I am the person who competes with you for lucky money, snatches snacks with you, tears your exercise book, helps others bully you, that ... but that's me, who can't breathe in pain day and night after you left; That's me, waiting for you at the door every day, eating my own cooking; That is me. Every year during the Spring Festival, I will sit at your grave and speak my mind. I dropped out of school, my parents lost weight, your friends often mentioned you, I went back to school, I was in high school, my relatives died, I went to college, my parents were old, I worked, your other half got married, I should have a home of my own, but they said I already had a little lover in my heart. Yes! I love you so much that I want to leave. I have never been an incompetent sister. I want to hear you call me elder sister again, but you never give me a chance again. I want to tell you that I regret it. Will you forgive me for not cherishing me? Please let me have a dream, ok? Just once, I really want to know how you are doing and tell you that I am heartbroken. Have you grown taller? It should be a handsome boy! Tell me how far is heaven and how to trudge to the smoke cloud where you stay? I miss you bit by bit, but I can't find your face outside my dream. I miss you at midnight. If there is an afterlife to be my child, I will never have a chance to make up for it.
We are friends in the same trade who share weal and woe, and encourage growth all the way.
Fortunately, there are still so many people in my life. It is your comfort that makes me brave. My dear friends, thank you for staying with me. Without youth, we will not leave. Although we didn't see each other many years later, that friendship was not cut off. It's good to meet different people when I was a student, such as the deskmate who drew boundaries on the desk together, the partner who handed notes in class, and the lazy cat who slept in my upper bunk. Although we haven't been in touch for a long time now, although many people don't know where they are now, they miss you all the time. Stepping into society, taking part in work, bored, tired, confused and helpless, there are always some people who are willing to be my trash can, listen to my words and vent with me. They are friends, and we can tell them secrets that our family and colleagues can't tell without scruple. My intimate friends, thank you for growing up with me over the years, which makes me feel that life is not so lonely. Please take care of yourself. No matter where you live today, I will always remember you.
We are the lovers who hold your hand and grow old with your son, and know each other forever.
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There are so many encounters in life that when we become "us", we are destined to be connected with the joys and sorrows of this life. Take good care of everyone around you, and slip away if you miss a day.
May "we" be happy. How lucky I am to meet you.