If there is a so-called past life, let's continue our relationship in the next life!

-I want to use this article to cherish the memory of the good years we spent together.

After all, I liked someone else, although she didn't like me, I know that. She doesn't like me, but because of the face of her colleagues, it's hard to tear her face. Of course it's not an office romance, it's just an affair at best.

After a long time, I finally understood that I was not the only thrill for her. Only when you leave and can't see her, can you forget her slowly. However, after all, she is an episode in my life. So I can miss this story in the form of words. It has no beginning, let alone an end.

I know Yi Lina, 1984, from Zhuzhou, Hunan. I remember that she graduated from Youxian County. I don't know which middle school she graduated from, and I didn't ask, so I know now. I only know that she graduated from a forestry university in Changsha, Hunan Province in June 2007. What is her major, like information science and technology. Anyone who wants to peep can search for human flesh. I don't want to be hot, and I don't want to get involved in her real life.

Writing here, I found that I was still a little unwilling, so I continued to write.

Long time no see. I can still think of this girl who used to haunt me when I sleep at night, in fact. In the first 23 years of her life, I didn't know there was such a cheerful and lively girl in the world.

What did I do in the first 23 years of my life?

Born, grew up, studied, graduated from work, and now unemployed. If life could be simpler, it would be such a state for most people in China.

Although this article is about Yi Lina I know, according to a good friend, I shouldn't write about her, but later he thought it was okay for me to write it. Anyway, it's all over. Love or like, there is no right or wrong, only suitable or unsuitable. In fact, suitability and unsuitability are not absolute, because no one can guarantee whether suitable conditions can be preserved for a long time.

The first 24 years of my life did not intersect with Elena. She is in Youxian Town, Hunan Province, Zhuzhou, Hunan Province, and Changsha, Hunan Province, studying in primary schools, middle schools and universities. What about me? I went to primary school and middle school in a county town in northern Anhui, my hometown, and later went to college in Nanchang, Jiangxi. Our lives could not have crossed, but both Hunan and Jiangxi depend on Guangdong, so college students who graduated from these two places may meet if they go to work in Guangdong. This probability is still quite large.

I met her when I was 24 years old, Yi Lina, and then I felt that my life was different.

She and I are still at the level of understanding. If we were not colleagues, there might be no reason to meet again. This is the case now. I confirmed from my former colleague that she went to Shanghai. I know she won't leave me a new phone number, which means she doesn't want to contact me anymore, but if I change my number, I will definitely tell her. Even if I can't tell her through my mobile phone number, I can leave a message for her through QQ, even if she doesn't add me as a Q friend. Writing here, I thought I would be very angry, but the reality is that I am not. My mood is very calm, without any anxiety or anything else, just very calm.

It seems that everything has really passed, as if it never happened.

I said that I didn't have her for the first 24 years of my life, and then she appeared in my sight because of my work.

In the autumn of 2007, I have worked in XXC's company for nearly half a year. I remember it was 10 year122 October, when a girl reported to the quality department. That's her, Irina. I remember David recruited me as an assistant system engineer and translator. She passed CET-6, and her English level was actually quite good, so we met. Because there were not many girls in our department at that time, and I just came here, in fact, it was only five months. Because everyone is about the same age and the topic is similar, it is quite easy to talk.

About two months later, at the end of 2007. I had a bad relationship with my roommate and was going to move out. Looking for a house everywhere, she heard that I was looking for a house and promised to help me find it. I am very happy and grateful. That's it. I'm starting to like her. Some people argue that there is no reason to like it! I said no, and then I liked her for a reason, just like you liked me at the beginning. Would you like me if I didn't help you find a house and clean your room? I can't answer this question.

When you really like someone, your life begins to be colorful!

I vaguely remember the night of 65438+200810.8. After work, she told me that she wanted to see me. I said, what is it? You'll know when she says it. Anyway, she turned me down in front of her classmates, saying that I already have someone I like. Don't like me anymore, or you will be miserable in the future. Wait, I remember there was another paragraph before. It should be like this. She asked me if you liked me. I was puzzled at that time. I didn't expect her to ask me like this, which caught me off guard. I said, yes, I kind of like you. Being exposed for the first time. Such a man has no face. And what's embarrassing is that the person you like exposed you! ! ! Now that I think about it, I'm still a little embarrassed.

The whole conversation began and ended in an unfriendly state.

So I know for the first time that she doesn't like me, but I still like her like a stubborn donkey, and I have unrequited love. Now that I think about it, it was really stupid at that time!

The days of liking her passed quickly. In May 2008, the boy she said she liked came to Shenzhen to see her. I didn't know it until very late. When I learned about it, my heart was like knocking over a five-flavored bottle, which was very uncomfortable. But I can't change this state, I can only bear it slowly.

A few days after May 2008, every weekend. On holidays, whenever she is free, I will invite her out for dinner and then go shopping. Christmas, her birthday, I remember to buy her a present. When she goes out alone, I always text her and call her in case she is in danger. You know, it's not always safe outside Shenzhen. Friends who have been to Shenzhen should know this.

It was not until the Spring Festival in 2009 that I finally decided that 2009 should be the time for me to end this fruitless so-called unrequited love. I still work in the company honestly, and I will communicate with her by phone and text message after school. Finally, I decided to leave XXC and Shenzhen. Arguably, I had no good reason to leave Shenzhen, but at that time, I was founded because of blind optimism.

Back in the mainland, I began to work hard. Later, I found out that I didn't have the right time, the right place and the right person. According to one of my classmates, I don't have any core competitiveness. I admit that this step is wrong. This is another question.

At the end of September 2009, I officially left my post, leaving XXC, Shenzhen and the city where she lived. Just a few days before I left Shenzhen, I made an appointment with Yi Lina alone and invited her to have the last meal at a "Lisa" tea restaurant in Nanshan, Shenzhen. I'm leaving, so I have something to say to her. I told her, Yi Lina, you know I like you, but I still don't know why I like you (at dinner), so I can't say it. I know it's time for me to write this article, and I find that I finally understand. Perhaps because of gratitude, because of loneliness, at this time, you appeared, you are my lifeline. I clung to it, and after a long time, I began to like it. This is the only reason I can explain. According to what she once told me, I like this feeling, but it doesn't matter who I like. In other words, at that time, if another girl appeared, I would also like it. Irina can be replaced, maybe Wang Lina, Li Lina, Zhang Lina and so on.

I am depressed by this conclusion. It seems that rational I have the upper hand now. In that case, I should be ahead emotionally. I liked her at that time. It was a little crazy. When I was with her, it was good at first, although I knew it wouldn't last long. But I still know feelings.

When I wrote these words, I already knew that she had gone to Shanghai to find her boyfriend. What can I do at this time? I wish them happiness until they get divorced. ......

Like or love is the only thing I can give you. I can't give anything else, including marriage and family.

Goodbye, the girl I once liked.

If there is a so-called past life, let's continue our relationship in the next life!

This is the end of my story with Elena.

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