Zou Jiang Yi

introduce

At 4: 46 on July 23rd, 20 19, our daughter died of illness, leaving us with endless thoughts and reverie.

Our daughter's voice and smile are deeply imprinted in our minds, leaving us unforgettable memories for a lifetime.

Eleven years of anti-cancer road, eleven years of tenacious persistence, eleven years of hardships, one by one, looking back, leaving us with a mixed time of sadness and joy.

It's time to go back

That was February 26th, 2008, 65438. My daughter was pushed into the operating room of the hospital because of minor operation on breast fibroma. The doctor had an operation and felt that the situation was not good. She took off the living body and immediately tested it. If there is a problem, she will sew up the wound and let us go home and wait for the result.

The next day, the hospital informed us that the tumor was positive after examination. At that time, it was like a bolt from the blue, and the sky fell apart. We don't believe it. Take it to a big hospital for re-examination. The result is the same.

At that time, the doctor said to me: it's too young, what a pity. Hearing what the doctor said to me, my eyes filled with tears and I was speechless.

When I got home, I told my daughter that it was positive. At that time, she calmly replied: Oh, actually, we are very sad. Tears flow into our hearts out of control. Our daughter is calm on the surface, but she is in great pain. She sat in a chair all night and couldn't sleep. It is also difficult for us to sleep. What should we do?

The next day she told the news to her classmates or colleagues. That's how to face it calmly.

I didn't believe I had this disease for years. From then on, the road to fighting the disease began for eleven years.

Fight disease

June 5438+October 2009 10, my daughter bravely walked into the hospital like a soldier and received surgery.

Before entering the operation, we said to her: Don't be afraid, your parents will accompany you, no matter how difficult it is, we are your strong backing.

Our daughter comforted us and said, don't worry, I'm not afraid. It's gonna be okay. Seeing our daughter walk into the operating room, our hearts are very nervous. Silently pray that the operation will succeed.

After more than three hours of operation, the operation was successful and I returned to the ward.

Since then, more painful and longer-term treatments, such as chemotherapy, have been started. In the past eleven years, after sixteen times of chemotherapy and four operations, her physical function was seriously damaged, but her daughter was still so calm and never snorted. Every time after chemotherapy, she vomited, was nauseous, didn't want to eat, was weak, was too uncomfortable, and suffered great harm. There is an unspeakable pain.

Seeing her in such pain, we can only look at her with impatience, and feel as uncomfortable as our daughter. Sometimes I run to a place where no one is there, and my tears are like rain, and my heart ached. I looked up at the sky and prayed for her with longing, hoping that God would protect her and let her get rid of her pain.

Looking at our daughter's painful appearance, we parents are only impatient and at a loss. I can't wait to exchange our healthy body for her morbid body. And pretend that nothing happened, face her and tolerate her.

As long as there is a way, we will fight for it.

After each chemotherapy, my daughter's red blood cells are very low. I saw on TV that Wu Hong decoction can raise red blood cells. (brown sugar, medlar, red dates, red beans, safflower raw) steamed and given to her every day, it still has a certain effect.

Then I read in the book that fruit therapy is combined with treatment, so I use tomatoes, apples, carrots, pears, peaches, kiwis and other fruits to make juice and give it to her every day. I've been holding on for years.

After being treated in the hospital for more than half a year, the effect is good and basically recovered, but the medicine should be taken continuously for 5 years.

The next five years will be my daughter's happiest five years. It is also our happiest and happiest five years.

She likes yoga, is a yoga instructor, likes outdoor sports, and likes nature. The scenery around Yichang is where they often go.

During the break, make a wish in Tibet, Potala Palace and Namtso Lake, visit the Himalayas and enjoy the happiness brought by the plateau scenery. I have been to Aden, the last pure land in the world, to experience the test of primitive and high altitude, to the Inner Mongolia prairie, to ride a horse, to enjoy the blue sky and white clouds, and to feel the beautiful mood and vision brought by the vast grassland.

Every day after work, I go to the gym to teach yoga. Seeing her daughter's busy green figure, I can't see that she is a cancer person at all.

On March 20 16 15, I went to the hospital and found that the cancer cells had bone metastasis again.

When I heard the news at night, my eyes were black and sweaty, and I was too scared to know anything. Close to shock. In the evening, we stayed up all night and felt very sad.

In April, my daughter found that it had metastasized to the liver. Then perform minimally invasive surgery for liver ablation. She is still so strong that we feel distressed when we see her. After the operation, the tumor has been eliminated by examination. We got a little comfort in our hearts. However, there is no way for bone metastasis, only an injection, one injection every month, and medical insurance cannot be reimbursed, so you must bear it yourself.

Every month, I need an injection to treat the secret imported medicine of internal powder, which costs several thousand yuan. I have to bear part of the medical insurance reimbursement.

In this case, my daughter still insists on exercising.

From August 2065438 to August 2007, my daughter and colleagues from the company went to Wuhan to participate in the Taiji and Yoga Competition organized by Provincial Mobile Company, and won the first prize.

In the second half of 20 18, my daughter felt a little pain in her back and her condition got worse.

In September, our family also went to Dalaoling. This is my daughter's last trip abroad.

My daughter feels a little tired, but she is very happy. In the virgin forest, she breathed fresh air, forgot everything, enjoyed the beautiful scenery brought by nature, took many photos and left precious photos.

It is especially quiet to walk through the virgin forest. After the fallen tree decays, it sends out new branches and stubbornly grows new life.

The stream gurgles, natural stone bridges pass by, and waterfalls fall from the sky. Boom and birds singing in the trees are intertwined, which is so harmonious and natural.

All these are places that my daughter yearns for. But it has become the past, just let us remember.

20 18 12 found that there was something wrong with the liver, and the doctor gave her another minimally invasive liver ablation operation, but unfortunately it could not be completely eliminated, because there was a lesion near the venous blood vessels, fearing that the blood vessels would rupture and bleed heavily.

From October 20 19 10 to March 2065 438+09, in order to control her illness, her daughter underwent four times of chemotherapy. She really can't stand it. Her body completely collapsed, her hemoglobin was not up to standard, and she couldn't stand up. At this critical moment, my cousin gave her a hand and donated 400cc blood to her daughter. The next day, she was a little better. At this most difficult and critical moment.

I feel better and go to work again. At the end of March, I went to visit Sixi in Zigui with my unit. I smiled happily when I saw the photos taken by her and her colleagues. In fact, our hearts are extremely sad, because the disease is eroding our daughter's body step by step.

This is also the last time my daughter participated in the activities organized by the unit.

On April 24th, I heard that there was an old doctor in Shijiazhuang who had a good way to treat cancer. My mother took her daughter to Shijiazhuang for medical treatment.

It was difficult for my daughter to walk at that time. We were worried about getting on and off the bus, getting in and out of the station, and whether she could insist on going back and forth for three days, but she insisted. The road of life, she has been insisting.

Our daughter is so strong and brave, full of hopes and dreams.

On the morning of April 28th, my daughter was sent to work by her son-in-law on a motorcycle. (My daughter only needs 10 minutes to walk from home to work, but she can't walk because of back pain. The son-in-law took her to work by motorcycle every day for six months. The day I went to work was also the last time my daughter went to work in my life, and it was also the deepest memory for her.

At noon, my daughter called and said that she was in pain and couldn't walk. My son-in-law immediately picked her up and went home. The pain is unbearable. When we heard about it, we rushed to her house and told her to go to the hospital. The daughter said, let's take a look at the situation first and go tomorrow.

The next day, I went to the hospital for examination and found two pathological fractures of ribs, which were originally painful, but now they are broken, which is really worse.

Since then, for more than two months, sleeping has become a problem. In the first half of the month, I can only sleep on a reclining chair that can be lifted and lowered. I can't lie flat, I can only lie on my back. Suffering from illness, I can't sleep at night, which is very uncomfortable.

The days after that were even worse. Sleeping and getting up is a very painful process. I helped her to the bed and slowly put her legs on the bed. At this time, it is already asthma, so I have to rest on my mother, just like a child lying in my mother's arms. It will be sad to see it again.

Sometimes I stand by and look at him, and she says, what are you doing standing here looking at me? That means she doesn't want me to see her sick, so as not to make me sick.

Thinking about us everywhere.

Having a rest, my mother wants to put one hand on her waist, hold her head with the other hand and put it down slowly. The pain is getting worse and worse in an instant, unbearable, and the heart beats faster. We stood beside our daughter, and tears could only flow into our hearts. There is really an unspeakable pain. I am willing to bear all this for my daughter.

This situation is repeated several times in the evening, and our son-in-law is in charge.

Watching her daughter lose weight day by day, her body is deformed, and she eats less and less. Fruit can only be made into juice for her to drink.

We feel bad, but there is nothing we can do. Our daughter can't eat.

Coupled with the increased pain, our hearts are even more uncomfortable.

On June 14, my daughter began to have pain in her right thigh. Daughter 13 is still walking around the room, and can't walk today, but she still insists that we walk slowly with our hands and hold mom's hand like a child. Seeing her so difficult, she wanted to help her, but she insisted on going by herself. Just like a ship floating on the water when it encounters wind and waves, it is not afraid of risks and still moves forward.

July 4th, 20 19 is a day that we will never forget. My daughter wrote her will and sent it to us on WeChat.

We couldn't sleep at night when we saw our daughter's will. The daughter wrote that the cemetery chooses grandpa and chooses a beautiful photo. There is no mourning hall, no rescue, no ICU and other related affairs, including who to look for.

Mom asked her, daughter, the doctor is also treating you. We feel very sad that you wrote this letter to me so early. My daughter said, speak better while I am awake, lest I have no chance to speak later.

My daughter is so strong in the face of death. She told her friends that she was not afraid of death, but she couldn't let go of her relatives. We can't let you go either. She felt uncomfortable there and never told us. The circle of friends shut us out.

In the last month of life, the pain worsened and it was difficult to breathe. My heartbeat is often around 120, and I have jumped more than 200 times several times, so the doctor feels very dangerous and says that if the old man is dying. My leg is swollen, my mouth and chin are numb, and there are some bad signs.

For the pain, the doctor kept telling her to take painkillers, but she insisted on not taking them. Persuaded by her mother, she agreed. Sometimes she vomits after taking painkillers during the day and gradually gets used to it. Later, I ate it once every night before going to bed, and I could only manage it for 6 hours.

In order to encourage her, I wrote a true story about an old man in his eighties who insisted on swimming. She said, I must insist.

On the morning of July 22nd, we did everything as our daughter said. When we returned to the hospital on 10 in the morning, our daughter was already asleep. The son-in-law hugged her and cried bitterly, saying that we agreed to wait until I came back in the morning. Why didn't you answer? Mother hugged her sadly and said, Be good, talk, eat some eggs this morning and say goodbye to Aunt Xiao. Why don't you talk? The sad scene will never be forgotten.

At 4: 46 am on July 23, my daughter's life was frozen.

At this point, we all cried for this scene.

Endless love

The daughter left, and the love her parents gave her was selfless. We will never forget her love for her parents, but most importantly, her husband's love for her is eternal.

At first, his daughter was ill and had an operation. He chats with her in the hospital every day. Later, he married her, gave her a warm home and extended her life.

There is no promise that the seas run dry and the rocks crumble, but there is a life of loving each other. The ends of the earth have no romantic words, but they are accompanied by life.

At home, he undertakes all the housework. I have never cooked before, so I learned it in books and online, and tried my best to cook it for my daughter. Especially when his daughter is hospitalized, he always stays with her and talks with her. We are glad to see them happy together.

It is difficult to meet a bosom friend in life, and I will always be with him when I meet him.

Before leaving, my daughter told him that you should take care of my parents for life, and he promised to take care of them for life. We regard him as our son.

Living together and taking care of each other is our family's promise.

My daughter loves her work and regards it as her life. She went to work the next day after being hospitalized for chemotherapy, and sometimes advised her to rest, but she still insisted on going to work. He has won the title of advanced individual in the unit for many times and won many awards in provincial and municipal business competitions, especially 20 16.

In the last month of her life, she came home from the hospital, sat in a wheelchair and finished her work in front of the computer. I asked her if she could, and my daughter said, just finish the work.

Looking at my daughter's obsession with work is so strong and persistent. We praise her spirit, which is worth learning.

My daughter is a diligent housekeeper, filial to her parents and caring for others. She is recognized as a good girl.

She never spends a penny indiscriminately, and all the clothes she wears are bought at a discount from the Internet or the shopping mall.

She always said that as long as the style is good, it will do. Generous to parents, relatives and friends. Because she knows that treating diseases needs money.

For more than ten years, the money spent on seeing a doctor has been solved by myself. Sometimes, when we ask her to give us money, if she needs it, she will say, "Don't worry. In fact, as long as she needs it, we will give it to her even if we are afraid of selling iron. " . Because she is our daughter.

My daughter has tasted all the pains in the world. My short life has left me with endless spiritual wealth.

Our daughter is considerate, filial to her parents, caring for her husband and loving her work, life, family and friends. She is an example for us to learn and a hero in our hearts.

The spiritual and material wealth you left us will last forever. We will never forget it.

I am grateful to the leaders of my daughter's company for their tolerance and generosity over the years, which has provided a lot of help for my daughter's treatment.

Thanks to the care and help of the trade union of my daughter's company.

Thanks to the leaders and colleagues of the daughter department for their spring-like warmth and care.

Thank my daughter's colleagues, my daughter's classmates, friends, relatives and friends for their concern and visit every time they are hospitalized.

Thanks to the doctor who treated her and the nursing team for everything they did for her.

I can't forget that when my sister was in surgery, she came back from hundreds of miles away in the morning to accompany you and went back to work in the afternoon.

Don't forget, menstruation came all the way back just to see you.

Don't forget, my cousin gave you blood when you needed it and extended your life.

My daughter's short life has left too many stories to tell all her life. Let's remember and imagine slowly.

20 19 on the morning of July 23rd.

A poem for my daughter

Daughter, you are the song in your parents' hearts.

Zou Jiang Yi

In the distance, there is a song,

There is a river in the blue sky.

You are the brightest star in the night sky,

Deeply engraved in our hearts.

In my heart, there is a kind of love,

In your dream, there is a feeling.

You are the only one in our hearts.

It's hard for us to give up.

You are an angel, the pride of your parents,

You travel without direction.

Only the twinkling stars make us admire, and the moonlight plays with love and leaves Long song behind.

White clouds are floating, blowing in the wind,

The song of missing separates me.

The vast sky is your stage,

Your love is a long river in our hearts.

There is a song called Daughter Love,

There is a love as deep as the sea.

You are an unknown grass, but you are an unforgettable song in your parents' hearts.

20 19 July 3 1 night

Xinyu

Zou Jiang Yi

Quietly, quietly taste,

Like a bird, Yongchang.

Your road is too long, too long,

Like the mountains and cliffs ahead,

Difficult to climb.

Life is hard and sad,

So bleak.

When to realize your dream.

Your breathing is weak,

Blow the horn of progress.

You fly south like a brave leading goose,

You are like a boat floating in the river.

The wind blew the boat back to the shore,

The river rolled and continued to sing.

White clouds chase rosy clouds,

Resolve the melancholy in my heart.

With your blue sky and broad mind,

The broad heart of the mountain,

Walking on the road of dreams.

Longer feelings and brighter eyes.

The road is long, don't be sad.

Run away,

Flowers smell better on the way to love.

2065438+March 2, 20081Yue

Collected on 18/3/27

autumn wind

Zou Jiang Yi

Autumn is full of autumn,

A breeze soothed my heart.

Ladies wander on the edge of the sky,

The idea of love flooded my heart.

Autumn wind sends away sorrow and trouble,

Lotus fragrance floats with the wind.

I hope the clouds disappear,

Love stays in my heart.

August 8, 2065 438+09

Rainfall point

Zou Jiang Yi

Raindrops across the sky,

Moisten the vast land.

Although the raindrops are small and converge into rivers,

You are a miracle of life,

It's about quenching thirst.

You are pure and flawless,

But as warm as fire.

Raindrop, I love you,

You are the source of rivers and seas.

Raindrop, I hold you,

You are the long river of life.

Raindrops fall,

Dear Long song.

You're selfless,

But I didn't keep myself.

It will only bring infinite happiness to life.

August 20, 1965 438+07

Collected at1710/24,