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When I was about four or five years old, two neighbors next door to my hometown had an argument over digging ditches. Two aunts who are nearly sixty years old are clamoring and cursing. Neighbors near and far heard the news and surrounded dozens of people. Some people deliberately provoke each other, while others watch the game with curiosity. Grandma went to Indiana, and I dragged her clothes behind her. These unpleasant words poured in like the sea, and I often cried out with chills.
In the early winter, the coolness is already strong, and more and more people are watching. One of the aunts actually pulled out the thin cotton-padded coat on her upper body without even wearing a suspender vest. A pair of shriveled breasts are like balloons filled with water, hanging from the chest to the waist, shaking, matching her hands, waist and posture and arrogant words. The onlookers laughed, and the more she distributed it.
Grandma saw it and turned to take me away. But which fragment _ was accidentally recorded in my heart and became an extremely unbearable scene in my childhood memory.
For many years after that, I was puzzled from beginning to end. Since it is a quarrel and a story about love, why should we understand that our clothes are attractive? Why do many boys and girls try their best to cheat in excitement? When I grow up, when I read A Dream of Red Mansions, I often read Xia Jingui's sentence "Don't do it, don't stop, shout it out more and more loudly and say,' Don't be afraid of being laughed at! I can't even laugh when your aunt treats me like this? Or keep him and sell me! Who doesn't know that Xue Jiafu is rich, ok _ takes money to pad people; And good friends and relatives, holding others hostage! Don't you act as soon as possible and wait quietly? If you think I'm not good, why do you come to my house when everyone is blind and asks three questions and answers four questions? "Crying while knocking, I always think of that scene. In my mind, this aunt is the old version of Hedong.
During my college years, my classmates and I went shopping in the city by bus. Everyone chatted softly all the way, but never made any noise. A middle-aged woman in the car ran over and pointed at her classmates and scolded: "If you want to chat, you have to go to dance halls and nightclubs. Who do you think you are that everyone deserves to be a student? " The students were surprised and confused: "Why don't you talk?" That woman is even more rampant. She cursed savagely: "You think it is not easy to be young. I tell you, everyone has an old day! "
I was shocked by my unexpected accident, and when I came to my senses, she got off the bus and swore, still muttering, "No need, everyone will get old sooner or later"?
We two innocent girls became imaginary enemies who robbed her of her youth for no reason, as if her youth had been trampled on by everyone, and our memories were unfair to her. Everyone should grow old quickly in her curse and become a flower and a willow to relieve the hatred in their hearts and sigh.
(2)
In 2020, I often go for a walk in the city square around the community. I often meet my sister with a little granddaughter. Her skin is white and tender, her figure is slim and tall, and her ponytail is tied high. Although she has become a grandmother, she is not like a woman in her fifties. Big sister is very beautiful. Every time she wears a national dance slimming skirt with professional skills, she wears a colorful waist scarf around her waist to show her figure and basic skills. I envy her health and beauty so much that I almost couldn't help asking for maintenance tips several times.
Until now, I met the second-born mother in the same community in the small city square. The eldest son is six years old and playing by herself. She is only seven months pregnant with her second child. This beautiful elder sister is still watching her little granddaughter play on the slide while casually training the new posture of square dance. The boy was sprayed with bubble water all over his face, so he teased his sister's little granddaughter. The mother of the second child in her arms still had no time to dissuade her. The elder sister's eyes were round and her eyebrows stood up: "Why are you so incompetent! How to wipe it on the little girl! " The child's mother suddenly became embarrassed and quickly apologized. Then she held the penis in one hand and the boy in the other, and quickly left.
The eldest sister still didn't feel avenged and was insulted again: "How can a mother like you educate her children? It's rude! I don't know who in fish begins to stink at the head, Bian Xiao has no quality, no tutor, and has the face to have a second child. You are scum boys and children! "
I gasped. It's just that a naughty child's slapstick made her face twisted with anger, and she basically gnashed her teeth and uttered the most vicious curse. All the artistic beauty disappeared in an instant.
All I knew before was that women were afraid of getting old. Because luxury bags that look too delicate are also easy to consume in fall in price. Time flies, beauty is hard, and collagen is as long as the critical period and never looks back.
It's casual to stay young now. A few cans of hyaluronic acid and a few lamps can immediately return to 18 years old. And the ugliness and vulgarity in my heart are enough to make all the good things come to an end and return to dust.
In the fifty-ninth chapter of A Dream of Red Mansions, the little girl Chun Yan relayed Qingwen's words: "A little girl is a rare treasure without marriage. When she got married, she somehow caused a lot of bad problems. Although it is a string of pearls, it is colorful and a dead pearl; With the growth of age, it is not a bead, but a fisheye. Clear a person, how to change three things? "
No wonder Lu Xun said: the bleak fog is all over the forest, and those who breathe in and understand are just Qingwen.
In Qingwen's mind, women are divided into three parts: single, married and old. The girl in the boudoir is fresh and bright, like a priceless treasure, a bright pearl, and a married young woman is deeply immersed in trivial charm. Middle-aged women are reduced to ordinary life shrewdness, leaving only dead fish eyes.
Qingwen changed this relationship with men, so she sighed with emotion: "Strange, strange, how can these people get masculine as soon as they marry men? This is why animals are worse than _ _, and they can kill more than men." "
In fact, it is the triple realm of women's self-growth and practice. It has nothing to do with age, married life and men.
Some people are still as stubborn as beautiful girls after many years.
Someone walked into Kafka Castle, but turned older women into leftover women.
The fleeting youth is not the saddest thing at all. Audrey Hepburn's loose appearance and wrinkled face in her later years did no harm to her. She is recognized as the most beautiful lady in the world. She is not afraid of time and lives a beautiful life.
What is really sad is that these women who used to cry are more and more bitter, extreme, resentful, vulgar and contemptuous, and full of hostility.
(3)
Recession is a whole process of being taken away constantly, and it is also a whole process of being granted continuously.
They just lost their most beautiful years and flowery faces, but they can no longer get a mellow mood after tempering and perfecting. They are reduced to a bottle of moldy healthy drink in the delayed life, and they have never been alcoholized into a mellow wine by time.
They complain about others, cause trouble, complain about others, and treat their lovers badly. Treat people with a cold face, do things arbitrarily and unreasonably, roll in the actual mud, and stipulate that anyone must rush out of a knife-wheel hall covered with mud with menstruation and hate not to die of dust. The whole world must compromise for her female menopause.
Children's development, children's house full, children carrying the old, Sang Yu's evening scenery, the original happy old age, were resented by the living, and never appreciated the gift of time.
Therefore, this account, no matter how it is calculated, is a loss.
It is never time or recession that defeats them.
Lonely lovers are defeated by themselves, which is unbearable for them. It is a glacier that is difficult to cross, and it is difficult to cross. Hopeless mediocrity, vanity as a teacher, constant bitterness. They used up their old age and tried their best to turn themselves into picky hands and cultivate large garlic farmers.
Neither to preserve our sanity nor to help the world. You can't see dust, and you can't be considerate. Mean and deceitful to people, selfish to the heart.
Maybe they are beauties like Baodai, but their daily life has become Susan Wang's, Zhou Rui's and Aunt Zhao's. Accuse unfair and sophisticated cool thin, complain about the busyness of daily life and the harsh road of life, until he turns himself into the most complete and vulgar snob, with ugly appearance, vicious eyes and twisted heart. It is wrong to stir up trouble, gossip and treat people and things with opposition and conflict.
Everyone grew up under the traditional education of respecting the old and loving the young. Everyone always respects the elderly. But I just want to put an end to these cries of tearing clothes, being hostile to other people's youth, smiling at others, trampling on wild cats, giving you love that has been quietly, treating your own children as treasures, treating other people's children as grass, and instantly pulling off your mask like a painted skin.