In the fashion magazine Ruili in 2002, the cover figure is a girl with a strange appearance: high nose, big round eyes, arch eyebrows and oval face. It gathers Gao Yan's exquisite facial features.

In today's words, God has a good eye for his food.

Soon, in the national competition held by Ruili magazine, the girl won the "most photogenic award". At that time, she was only 16 years old, and the future of fancy age was bright.

The girl's name is Rayza. Why did you choose this name? Because her parents are Hashak.

In the 1970s, Rayza's parents came to Beijing from Xinjiang to attend university. After graduation, they settled in Beijing and worked as translators.

Although Rayza is a minority, she is a real Beijing girl. In Kazakh, Rayza means satisfaction.

Rayza, born in 1986, grew up in an intellectual family, and her parents gave her and her brother a careful education.

When I was a child, Rayza was a good boy at school. He doesn't make any noise, even a little timid and honest.

It stands to reason that a girl with such a personality is not suitable for the entertainment circle. How did she embark on this bumpy "star road"?

It all started with her enthusiastic Chinese teacher. ...

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At that time, in high school, Rayza had grown into an elegant and beautiful girl. At that time, the Chinese teacher was very partial to this quiet little girl.

One day after school, the Chinese teacher called her to the office to talk. The teacher said, "Zaza, I think you look like a Japanese graphic model named Reika Hashimoto."

The teacher pointed to the magazine in her hand and said.

At that time, Rayza was still an ignorant child and didn't understand the teacher's intention. Looking at Reika Hashimoto's photo, he nodded in agreement, then blinked his big eyes and looked at the teacher.

The Chinese teacher added, "This Ruili magazine is recruiting models now. I think you should try it."

Rayza's face turned pale because she was not interested in models at all.

Another point is that she is actually quite inferior, which is related to her childhood growth experience. She is particularly insecure and not good at expressing herself.

The Chinese teacher is very enthusiastic. In order to collect application forms, he not only generously bought four magazines,

Under the fierce operation of the Chinese teacher, Hot Clothes Tie, who was a sophomore at that time, was lucky to be selected.

When Rayza was a graphic model, she also met a friend who was a model like her, that is, Yang Mi.

Yang Mi is a child star. She has been in the cast since she was a child. When she grew up, she studied and worked as a model to earn pocket money.

Her confidence is much stronger than that of Rayza.

But at that time, their starting point was similar, because after Rayza became a Ruili model, she was attracted by Mina, Weiwei and other magazines. If she didn't want to be an actress in the film academy, she would have become famous through modeling.

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In 2004, Rayza, aged 65,438+08, was filled with joy and was admitted to the higher vocational class of Performance Department of Beijing Film Academy.

Who knows that after entering the school, new troubles appeared again, which troubled her whole youth.

Rayza's problem is that he looks strange, which makes it difficult to find his classmates.

Once, the instructor rehearsed a short play, and found a male classmate to play for Rayza. As a result, Rayza arrived at the rehearsal room on time the next day, but the male classmate waited for a long time and didn't come. Later, the male classmate sent a note saying that he couldn't come and asked for leave because of illness.

A pot of cold water poured down, and the heat made my heart fall into great disappointment. She feels that she is not liked by everyone. This negative emotion will haunt her for many years.

At that time, the instructor also said with a little ridicule: "There will probably be no big waves on your road to performing arts."

Obviously, people don't think highly of her as an actress.

At that time, Yang Mi appeared on the road of performing arts. Signing company director Li; It was also recommended to Zhang Jizhong to prepare for the casting of The Condor Heroes.

The fate of life is really hard to tell. Rayza, a pure natural beauty, was so unpopular at the beginning of her career.

People are unlucky, and drinking water will keep their teeth at bay.

When I graduated from Rayza University in 2006, I met Ceng Zhiwei's film "Spread Your Map".

Rayza was fortunate to be a guest actor in the cast. However, after the filming was completed, it failed to be released smoothly.

In those two years, she began to doubt herself and thought about quitting the circle to make money as a model, at least better than relying on her parents at home.

But the idea was reprimanded by her mother. Her mother severely criticized: "Quitting at an early age, my mother looks down on you!" " "Rayza was shocked by her mother's words and shed tears.

Then she gradually calmed down and played the role of a walk-on.

Finally, she came to Empresses in the Palace, and now she seems a little embarrassed. She got the chance by "lying".

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Rayza came to Empresses in the Palace six years after graduation. Before the audition, director Zheng Xiaolong asked her, "Zaza, can you ride a horse?" Because the director thinks that Rayza is a Kazakh, a necessary skill to ride a horse.

But Rayza is a native of Beijing. She has never lived on the grassland. In order not to lose the opportunity, Rayza replied: "I will!"

Before shooting in Empresses in the Palace, Rayza went to the suburbs of Beijing and practiced riding for a month in secret.

After the broadcast, the audience was surrounded by her role as Ning Guiren. A strong-willed woman distinguishes right from wrong in the palace and secretly helps the hostess Zhen Xuan. Everyone is full of praise for this role.

Rayza's role is finally "popular".

But what about her? Walking on the road, others recognized her and called her "Ning Guiren". Nobody knows what her real name is.

Empresses in the Palace failed to make her really red, and she gradually understood:

The road for an actress is harder than expected. The only thing she can do is to cherish every opportunity.

Including the opportunity to play a supporting role and walk-on, she will not give up.

20 17 once briefly appeared in "herding clouds at sea" and played a life-and-death play with Zhou Yiwei.

67 years later, until the longest day in Chang 'an, the word Rayza was finally known by everyone.

One year later, on February 4th, 2020, at 65438, she took a photo of her mother and daughter on the Weibo.

Finally comforted her persistence in these years.

However, an online violence carnival is approaching her and almost destroyed her.

Looking back now, it was really a thrilling experience.

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There are many people who are popular, and this old saying is perfect to describe the entertainment circle.

On July 3rd, 2065438, Kloc-0, Rayza was photographed at the airport in the scorching sun. She wore a yellow low-cut halter top, dark glasses and a ponytail, and walked with a smile on her face.

A photo that was originally normal, but it was too sexy and exposed, and instantly exploded on the Internet.

Before Rayza's plane landed, her photo went viral on the Internet and became the focus of national discussion.

A keyboard player called him a "slut" and he didn't know how to behave. There are also some people who support freedom of dress.

The two voices tore at each other and argued endlessly.

Angry at these comments, Rayza wrote an Weibo bluntly: If it weren't for acting, what would an actor be happy about? My friend said not to send it, which will affect my career, but I can leave this industry at any time.

In her own way, she resisted the voice of public opinion called "hype". Impulsively pushed himself into the filthy storm of public opinion and was in a dilemma.

Rayza's mother contacted her daughter at the first time. Mother asked her why she was dressed like this.

Mom was anxious: "But you are still sick now. How can you train yourself like this?"

At that time, Rayza was really ill. It was depression.

Shortly after August 23rd, Rayza sent Weibo to admit that he was suffering from severe depression. The doctor wrote in her diagnosis that the patient needs professional psychiatric treatment to prevent danger. At present, drug therapy has been started, which requires stable medication and follow-up.

Crazy netizens vented their violence and anger on Rayza. She chose "violence against violence".

10 10 14, Rayza forwarded an amateur Weibo who abused her, and the matter was picked up and continued to ferment. Soon attacked and cursed by fans, Rayza's identity information was completely exposed.

165438+10.2, forwarded by Rayza 189 Weibo, began to fight back in the way others treated her and continued to resist cyber violence.

When she was most depressed, she asked her family, "Am I really a bad person?"

At the same time, she told her family and friends about her past.

It turned out that all her classmates could isolate her when she was a child, because her parents told her children not to play with Xinjiang children, who were all bad.

This "prejudice" hurt Rayza's little mind. She has been an inferior child since she was a child. She doesn't know why everyone hates her.

The outbreak of adulthood is not accidental, but the accumulation of perennial emotions. She is ill and needs to vent.

This kind of cyber violence comes and goes quickly. For the next year, Rayza kept taking photos and stopped appearing in public.

One year later, on February 4th, 2020, at 65438, she took a photo of her mother and daughter on the Weibo.

In the year when she left the public eye, she experienced the identity change from a girl to a mother by getting married and having children.

She said that the child cured her every day. During the baby's birth, she stopped all antidepressants and was cured physically and mentally. Now she has recovered her health.

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In the 202 1 popular anti-poverty drama Ning Min Town, Rayza conquered the audience with his natural acting skills.

In the recently exposed shortlist of Magnolia Award, Rayza has become a hot spot for this award.

Debuted in 12, after several ups and downs, she is an actress Rayza.

Rayza contributed an optimistic and tearful performance, explaining the feelings of the village girl.

The audience forgot that she was "Ning Guiren" and "Tan Qi". Only this rural girl who knows how to ground gas is fighting against her fate.

She was in the variety show "Listen to My Sister". At that time, everyone was full of expectations for her to express her feelings about the "cyber violence" incident that year.

She laughed it off and said that the most important job in her life was her daughter.

The audience applauded.

Now, Rayza enjoys her career as a mother and actress. She was grateful to the staff of Ningmin Town for extending an olive branch to her when she was in adversity.

When she was still breastfeeding, the crew was willing to give her the opportunity to play and special care.

When people become powerful, those biased, contemptuous, indifferent and abusive voices will become insignificant.

As she said in the interview: "Those who can't kill me will eventually make me stronger."