Have you ever met someone who hates being thin? I am.

Every time I walk on the road, my eyes can't help looking at the French window on the side of the road. My figure reflected on the window is very thin.

Even though it is still winter, everyone is still wrapped in thick cotton-padded jackets, and I still look very thin in the window.

Facing so many girls who advocate slimming around me, I think I should be the envy of them.

At work, my colleague invited me to eat hot pot together. I sat opposite her, next to her and with her husband.

To tell the truth, the wattage of my light bulb is simply invincible.

But I don't mind, because we ordered a lot of meat, fat sheep rolls, fat beef rolls, tenderloin and all kinds of delicious meatballs.

I wolfed down the cooked meat in the bowl. I don't have a boyfriend, so I don't have to take into account other people's eyes at this time.

Colleagues watched me eat, and then they were envious. She said, Niu Niu, it's appetizing to see you munch on meat!

Niuniu is my nickname and my real name is Zhou. She is a real gourmet.

But I can't eat fat. In recent years, I only choose high-fat things to eat, such as meat, milk, candy, and my favorite sugar and oil cake. I never avoid eating, but my weight has never improved.

2

Actually, I wasn't so thin before I came to the airport. Three years ago, when I first entered the airport, I was still a chubby girl, weighing 100 Jin, with obvious baby fat on her face.

But now, my weight is only 79 kg, even less than 80 kg.

The boy I secretly love flew to Shenzhen some time ago. He came to the counter to find me and said to me, excuse me, beauty, is there a girl named Zhou here?

I looked at him. He is fatter than when he was a student, with a lot of vicissitudes on his face, less hair and a higher hairline. Isn't this a typical middle-aged greasy man?

At that moment, I suddenly regretted that I had secretly loved him before. Which is Hanamichi Sakuragi who attracted all the girls to scream for him on the basketball court when he was a student? !

I glanced at him with my eyes and then said that she didn't go to work today and went on a date.

Oh, tell her when she comes back that Mo Xiao Qiang came to see her.

All right.

Mo Xiao Qiang went to catch a plane. I watched him leave his back, dragging a suitcase full of mud and dregs in his hand. At first glance, he used it for many years and was reluctant to throw it away. His legs were shortened because he was fat, and his waist became the waist of a bucket. He walks with no temperament at all. The back is very vivid: middle-aged fat man.

I don't think I'll ever talk to Mo Xiao Qiang again, or chat online.

Later, I hacked Mo Xiao Qiang's QQ. It was not until he was hacked that he realized that it was his high school classmate Zhou who was talking to him at the airport counter that day.

Then I understood a truth: childhood memories are best not to be touched easily, otherwise it will make people desperate.

In fact, it is not only the memories of childhood that make people desperate, but also the memories of the present.

I looked at the string of numbers on my mobile phone that I knew by heart. It's a promise. It's been silent in my mobile phone for three years.

three

Three years ago, Xu said to me, silly girl, I will never part with you.

I said, but aren't you afraid that the more I eat, the fatter I get and eventually I will become a big fat man?

No, no matter how fat you are, I can carry you.

I laughed at his hypocrisy. Other men like thin, spineless beauties. You said you were so energetic!

I don't want Xu Jingtian to seriously say that you are stupid. Others are others, I am me! I just like watching you munch on delicious food, which is a state that only girls who love life can have.

I won't laugh at him again. You see, a boy who loves you really doesn't care whether you are fat or not, because he loves you, and he will love everything about you, your baby fat, your dullness and your careless attitude towards life.

But I love him, because I love him, and I want to be the best myself, so I still have an urgent desire to lose weight.

I don't want my boyfriend Xu to stand next to a chubby girl who is only 157cm tall and weighs 100 Jin.

I hope I can be thinner, and then take 178cm Xu's arm to pay tribute to people all over the world and tell them: Look, this is my boyfriend, and we will be good forever!

But until one day, Xu Jingtian disappeared, he left my world, and I don't know where he went.

I only know that Xu once told me that we are made for each other, and no one can separate us, not even God.

I still remember Xu telling me that his name and my name have the same number of strokes, so we are destined lovers.

With a grain of salt, I really wrote two people's names one by one, and then found that our names were both 25.

After that, I fully believed Xu's words and his love for me, and spared no effort.

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Why do I believe that Xu Jingtian loves me? It all started with the dinner we went to.

At the dinner table that day, there were my ex-boyfriend Li Liwei and Li Liwei's new girlfriend.

When Li Liwei saw me, he greeted me happily, just like an old friend I haven't seen for years.

Obviously, I am his ex-girlfriend. When we were together, every time I saw him, I never saw him so happy.

Then I saw the girl around Li Liwei, with a beautiful and sexy face and thick lips, much like Shu Qi. Her figure was bent back and forth, and long waves rolled over her shoulders. This is a beautiful girl who fascinates men and makes women jealous.

At a certain moment, I looked down at my bloated cotton-padded jacket and tomboy-like short hair, and my heart was a little dim.

No wonder, in recent years, Li Liwei has been in love with him, and he prefers to stay in other places and keep a long-distance relationship with me, rather than bring up the matter of coming back with me.

It turns out that our love is at best just me crying and laughing and trying to love.

At the dinner table, the girl spoiled Li Liwei. I saw the way Li Liwei looked at her, which was the spoil I had never seen before.

That meal tastes like wax to me.

Maybe I don't necessarily have much love. If I don't get it, I don't want it to be my fault. I admit, I am a little narrow-minded. Li Liwei and I broke up because my heart died.

But I haven't seen Li Liwei's guilt. He turned to have a new lover, a beautiful woman who looks like Shu Qi. This beautiful woman is much better than me in both appearance and figure.

After dinner, Xu will take me home. He kissed me in the back seat of a taxi. That long kiss was gentle and lasting, and I lost my eye.

As soon as I got off the bus, Xu Jingtian blew it in my ear. Silly girl, let me take care of you. No one in this world loves you more than I do.

I looked up and saw Xu's black eyes shining in the dark through the street lamp at night. This is a gentle and affectionate boy. He is my boyfriend now.

Then I said to him, will you give me a hug?

So, Xu stepped forward, stretched out his hands and took me into his arms. He said, silly girl, I love you.

-(to be continued)