I have been a fat girl since I was a child, sitting like a small meat wall with light and heat. Once I accidentally tied my ponytail, and my classmates exclaimed, You look like Liu Huan. I am shameless. I'll go home and report to my mother. My mother looked at me and said firmly, No, you are more like a Tengger singer singer. She also said that your zodiac must be greedy. Eat quickly, never picky about food, sweet and sour, north and south, I am a backpacker on the tip of my tongue, and my hometown is in my stomach. I sweep the dining table like an iron warrior, and my devotion to food will make any chef's sense of accomplishment burst. In the sixth grade of primary school, you can eat eight ribs at a time, and the pace of eating seafood with shells is as fast as a chicken pecking rice.
Last year's college entrance examination, parents' logistics support work was excellent. These dishes are not only nutritious, but also varied. I think I just want to eat panda meat My mother can take a knife to Wolong Nature Reserve. At that time, I studied in full swing, sitting for a long time after three hearty meals every day like punching in, and then eating a big bowl of supper after self-study in the evening. However, heat is not burned into inspiration to solve the problem, but converted into fat stored between the waist and abdomen. I really swell up like an abortion woman. After the college entrance examination, I was shocked to find that I was wearing a school uniform all summer, and my weight was almost 120. God, I'm less than 1.6 meters.
What really woke me up was that everything was very different when I went to college. Eating and sleeping with five other beautiful girls of the same age, the difference is obvious: other girls eat, I count as kilograms; When many people of the same sex walk gracefully in the bathhouse; When the roommate inadvertently said "you are quite fat"; When I don't look down in the mirror, my three chins are clearly visible … I finally understand that I should lose weight.
The war has begun.
Shut up. Eat less meat and more fruits and vegetables. Dare not eat anything, hungry, or hungry. During the long night, my liver and intestines trembled with hunger. I felt my heart hit my ribs like a trapped animal and groaned in despair. My stomach bag is idling, crawling and thinking crazily, dominating my weak and useless brain. Spread your legs, jump rope, push-ups, jogging, aerobics, squats ... every day, your body is twisted from the inside out. After the exercise, I was thirsty and panting like an ox, and turned into a plump seaweed round cake dried in the Sahara desert at noon. The hardest thing is not exercise, but the determination to change, the anxiety to resist sweating, the regret of eating and drinking half an hour before exercise, and the helplessness of forcing myself, which almost drove me from fidgeting to mental breakdown. How many times, the only motivation that makes me sweat is "you can eat an apple after exercise and have dinner later". Desperate faith that is not worth mentioning has supported me through countless days and nights. After returning home from vacation, I got on the scale for the first time. The electronic instructions jumped several times and finally stopped at a number that made me have mixed feelings-84.
Now, I have stopped losing weight and started to maintain: regular work and rest, keep exercising, stay away from junk food, and occasionally indulge myself with confidence, such as eating a bowl of sweet and warm black sesame dumplings on a cold winter night. My weight and I entered the honeymoon period in Qi Mei hand in hand, but this did not prevent me from hooking up with gorgeous and incomparable people-food from time to time.
Why fight this war? After much deliberation, I think I finally found a specious answer. I, an ordinary person trained by a standard Chinese-style education assembly line, will continue to decompose according to this mediocre life trajectory; Although I studied hard, I didn't try my best. I was still busy before the most difficult college entrance examination. I haven't made any achievements in the field I love, not to mention my amazing talent ... I just hope that there will be an "impossible task" in this life, which will make me look back on the hardships and enrichment.
If someone asks me, "Have you tried your best to push yourself once in your life?"
I can think about it and say frankly, "I lost from nearly 120 kg to 84 kg in one semester." Does this count? "