You must not give up, let alone want to die. Everyone has his own value in this world, and you have the responsibility to live. You see, your parents work hard every day. You should have the motivation to live. Do you think your parents will not be laughed at if you commit suicide again after their death? They will not rest in peace in heaven. Don't have the idea of getting an incurable disease and then dying silently. Life is not a soap opera. If you want to realize your own value, if you don't indulge in these meaningless fantasies.

If you want to lose weight, the only way you can do now is to diet and exercise. It's a waste of money to buy diet pills, and it's also expensive to go to those slimming halls. Your 165, 190 kg is nothing. Many fat people weigh more than 200 Jin and still live smartly. The most important thing is optimism.

You can go to some clothing stores to order several sets of clothes. Some clothing stores sell better than others, and fat girls can dress beautifully. Read more books and don't immerse yourself in your helplessness. You will be much better, more knowledgeable and write better articles. You think about how helpless you are every day, and the articles you write have no artistic conception.

From tomorrow on, learn to smile and smile at people you know. Some people will look down on you, and others will be willing to be friends with you.