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I often joke with others and say that I am a salted fish and an ant. After listening to "No Ideal People Are Not Sad" by New Pants Band, I finally met an ant with a more accurate description. Every day, from the moment the alarm clock rings, life begins in a hurry. Going to work in a hurry and getting off work in a hurry seems to be your own choice, and it seems that you are just following something. Life consists of ups and downs, knowing and not knowing. I have asked many people if there is anything you want to do, if there is anything you really want to do, if there is anything you really want to do, if there is anything you instinctively want to do. The answer is basically no, how many people don't like their current jobs and how many people continue to do them. Ants in a hurry, we live our own lives in a hurry, without ideals, not sadness, but depression, poverty, being at a loss, being content with the status quo and muddling along.

I don't want to die alone in failure. I don't want to live underground all the time, with material scams and ants in a hurry. People without ideals are not sad, but also very sad.

Stubborn strength, sensitive happiness

1 acquaintance

After receiving the university admission notice, I accidentally joined the freshman QQ group. It was in this group that I first met Xiaoya. We think it's a long-distance relationship, only facing the words on the screen. At that time, I thought we would become good friends after school started.

I still remember that hot day. My parents sent me to school and left soon after. I was delighted to see this strange and beautiful place, met my roommates in the dormitory and went shopping for necessities with my high school classmates who also came to this school.

There are six people in a dormitory, and everyone has a good relationship. There will be quarrels, small meetings and reconciliation until we get a new dormitory. Because of the close relationship with the people around them, high school students also have boyfriends, and the relationship is relatively distant. I am immersed in the laughter and seriousness of the dormitory every day, and I have not become friends with Xiaoya.

Three and a half years before college, the most impressive intersection with Xiaoya should be in the corridor of the dormitory, which should have been a sophomore. ......

"Hi, Xiaoya, I heard that your computer is secondary. I passed both subjects at the same time. That's great. How did you study and what books did you buy? "

"ah? I don't know, maybe the set of questions I encountered was very simple, so I bought a set of questions and looked at it. "

With my close roommate, I began to vomit Xiaoya when I got back to my dormitory. So many people have failed, they must have studied hard, but they don't want to share any experience with you, and they have to pretend to be relaxed. At first glance, it looks like a top student. Alas, this girl is so fake (Xiao Yagao, not thin, with straight hair and glasses) ... We discussed it for a long time. Until the other day, I told her about it, and she said, I really didn't read it. Unlike eight years ago, I believe it now.

Xiaoya and I really started to get in touch and know each other, which should be considered as the next semester of senior three. We both chose to walk our graduate students. After that, there is no need to study or find a job, and there is plenty of time to waste. It happens that we all want to find a part-time job and sit together and start discussing this matter.

At this time, we are not friends. I'm smiling, I'm childish and immature everywhere. Xiaoya seems to be calmer. At that time, I felt that there was a big gap between us, and we simply stayed together for a short time.

We finally decided to sell a house in real estate.

In fact, the job is easy to describe, just make a phone call. The manager will give each of us a list of words and phone numbers. We just need to dial the phone and say the words out loud with confidence. This part-time job, the salary is quite high, and the pressure is of course great. We both completed the sales task quite smoothly. In that month, we almost lived together day and night.

At this time, Xiaoya has lost a lot of weight inexplicably, almost going to the hospital for a large-scale examination. I don't know whether it's the appearance or the heart. In my impression, Xiaoya doesn't seem to be pretending to be a top student.

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During this month, we talked a lot. It seems that what was said in the first three and a half years should be supplemented.

Xiaoya was born in an ordinary small village. Her parents also have ordinary jobs, and so does her brother.

Maybe. After all, everyone is different. People all over the world are different from their families and children in one way or another. Xiaoya also had an unusual father.

In Xiaoya's words, this uncle has a strange personality. Xiaoya's father is with Xiaoya's grandfather and grandmother, not a spoiled child. However, Xiaoya's father attached great importance to the words of his grandparents. When farming is busy, Xiaoya's father is always busy with his grandfather and grandmother's share first, then uncle Xiaoya's share, and finally at home. There are many things like this, and Xiaoya's mother is naturally difficult to deal with.

When Xiaoya was very young, in the dark, her parents would drag her and tell her that she wanted a divorce. Finally, because my father was tough, I dragged my mother home. This experience, more than once.

When I said this during the recent winter vacation, Xiaoya was also facing great sadness. Xiaoya found an internship related to his major in the winter vacation, and rented a house with a friend to live outside. Once my aunt called, I thought it was to ask how she was doing, but I didn't expect to hear the news that my mother went to the emergency room.

Xiaoya hurried to the hospital, and the doctor said that if it was delivered later, people would be saved. Xiaoya squatted at the door of the emergency room, listening to the voices of people around her, and knew that her mother had swallowed pesticides. Xiaoya said that it was really a long time to wait there. Fear of the dark hung over her, and she didn't even dare to have an idea.

At that time, in Xiaoya's dormitory, Xiaoya calmly told these experiences, laughing and crying.

Fortunately, mom is fine.

From then on, Xiaoya can keep receiving, with dad complaining about mom and mom complaining about dad's phone call.

Xiaoya University has a boyfriend, a senior, one grade older than us, and they have been together since freshman year. I asked Xiaoya, do you like him very much?

Xiaoya said, I don't know.

Why are we together?

Speaking of which, he is not my type at all, but after being together for so long, I don't like it at all, and it is impossible. At the beginning of college, I was faced with a stranger and an unfamiliar environment. When I am not used to it, my father often calls all kinds of reprimands. Sometimes it's because of my mother, sometimes it's because of my brother, and sometimes it's even because of people I don't know, irrelevant things. The overwhelming reprimand made her in a bad state during that time. My senior year is my hometown, and I am also in a department of the student union. I will be familiar with it in the long run. Maybe it's because I have a fellow villager, I feel closer to him, and I dare to tell him a lot about my family. The seniors are also gentle, comforting and enlightening. After a long time, with dependence, the seniors said that together, they naturally agreed and did not refuse. Many times together, there will be quarrels, and there will be times when I don't like him very much. Normal love, these should be normal. The only reason why I am not sure whether I like him or not is that I will dislike and be bored with him for a week or more. A normal couple should be bored for so long when they are quarreling and want to stay away from each other.

Then why don't you break up?

I didn't break up, a big reason is because I delayed and dared not face it. I also wanted to talk to him about this problem, but I didn't say it for various reasons. I was bored for a long time last time. I wanted to talk to him about it, but considering his exam, I wanted to wait until he finished it. When he finished the exam, he might not feel anything, and then he ran aground. If it was your personality, it would have been separated a long time ago.

Xiaoya, this is not good for you, is it?

Forget it. Let's talk about it later.

We talk a lot every day. The more we know each other, the more we like each other, and finally we become friends.

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After three years of graduate study, we lived alone. We didn't like the papers and put them off until the end. We all wonder that the starting point of that graduate student is not the best, but it is definitely going to middle school. How did graduate students get into this situation, like poor students in the class?

Xiaoya, have you started writing your thesis?

No I don't.

Me neither, hehe.

This conversation lasted for two years. It seems that someone is at the bottom together, so we are not at the bottom.

My thesis started a little earlier than Xiaoya's, mainly because my tutor almost made me cry. Since I started writing, I have been reminding Xiaoya that you should start as soon as possible. You can really put away everything that has nothing to do with paper on the desktop, memorize sentence by sentence, and learn little by little. I started. You can't do this anymore. Tell her, and tell yourself.

Postgraduate thesis defense, we both passed smoothly and graduated, which is very happy for both of us.

Xiaoya is very clever. If she wants to do something, she can do it. I always seemed to know.

Xiaoya broke up with her senior in the first year of research.

Xiaoya and I both signed up for the exam. Coincidentally, neither of us studied. Coincidentally, we both decided to take the exam and see the questions. Coincidentally, we were assigned to a school far away.

Travel long distances to school to ask for help. I remember sitting on the bus for a long time.

Xiaoya's seniors have already started to work, and they have been admitted to the civil service, which should have been very good. Unfortunately, the salary of the seniors is not high, and the expenses at home must be borne by themselves. Basically can't save money. The senior has been working for more than a year, and the money in his hand is just the salary he just paid.

The senior intends to borrow money to buy a house first. I started watching it at home by myself. From the beginning, Xiaoya expressed his desire to buy a new house with a slightly better location, because it is basically impossible to change it, and it is best to consider the surrounding environment. Senior students may also be under economic pressure, or have been looking at old houses in some messy places. I will also take photos of Xiaoya and ask how it is.

I clearly remember Xiaoya said: We are just a couple now, because of the previous situation, I can't guarantee that I can really go to the end with him in the future, so I can't tell him, no, I can't buy a house like that, even though I really don't like it, I can't say. If we really bought a good house, we owed so much money in that county. If we are not together, it will be difficult to find a girlfriend in the future.

This is the trigger, right? Xiaoya broke up after all.

Then the old wood appeared.

Although they all belong to the same college and class, we have never known this old wood and have never been in contact with it. My only information is from others. It's basically negative information. Considering their personalities and other aspects, Xiaoya's roommate and I, we all disagree, they are together. Like is like, should be really like, regardless of the opposition of the people around you, or resolutely together.

Before Mussina appeared, what Xiaoya often did was to stay in the dormitory. I'm in a daze, and I always seem to be unable to sleep. After lim appeared, Xiaoya woke up. Old Mudai Xiaoya went out to eat delicious food, watch movies, go shopping and study with Xiaoya. At that time, I thought Xiaoya and Mussina were fine together, but they were still alive.

At that time, I also had my monster, and the four of us signed up to learn driving together. In the morning, Mu will wait for Xiaoya downstairs in our dormitory, and Xiaoya and I will meet at the stairs first. Because the monster dormitory is close to the school gate and can be cleaned up quickly, it undertakes the task of buying breakfast. Learning to drive is also very hard. We all agree that we can't work together in the morning. We should buy earth cakes with ham and vegetables for breakfast, and everyone must drink soybean milk at the same time.

It was a cold winter, and the driving school could start practicing at 7: 30 at the earliest. The four of us gathered before seven o'clock, then walked around chewing cakes, bypassed the school hill and arrived at the driving range early. Talking and laughing all the way, I am really happy every day. I had lunch at the driving school. If I really want to change my taste, I went to a noodle restaurant and told people to eat more meat and noodles. I will also look for hot water and instant noodles everywhere.

Every day's fun is over, except for the monster who passed subject 2 with 100. We all died for one reason or another. The coach said that couples learn to drive together, not together. Just say that Xiaoya and I will continue to practice, and Mu will study and take the exam again. Mourinho was very angry and had a conflict with the coach. In addition, during the exam, Mu had a conflict with the examiner, and everyone knew about Mu.

Finally, Xiaoya persuaded Mussina. Mu and I are a constellation, and Xiaoya and the monster are a constellation. I often feel that Xiaoya and Mussina get along just the opposite of me and monsters.

Subject two, only Xiaoya and I study together, and we are still very happy. Buy your own breakfast and we'll walk for half an hour.

"Subject three, just me and the monster," said Xiaoya, waiting for Mussina.

Fortunately, in the end, we all passed the exam.

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The third year of graduate school soon ended, graduation defense ended, job hunting ended, and even because of job training, I didn't come to say goodbye. We have been in this school for seven years. Monster and I are going to work in City A, Xiaoya will stay in City B, and Mu will go further to City C to continue his studies.

Xiaoya said that Mourinho's personality is not very good, so he doesn't expect to achieve much in the future. Perhaps in the final analysis, the school environment is relatively simple. You don't have to consider so many people to do your own research, so it should be a good choice for Lao Mu to continue his studies and finally strive to stay in college. As it happens, Mu can sit still and like to engage in academics.

Why don't you go to that city?

Well, the wages there are very low. I went to the interview and found it unsuitable. I don't want to work there in the future. Working here is perfect. Let me work here first. Old wood still wants to go back to this city in the future.

Now, Xiaoya and Mu have separated, and Mu has been diagnosed with depression.