As parents, it is understandable to record the growth process of children. Being single, I can't understand such feelings, but I feel as if they forgot to record themselves.
Take myself as an example. What I can remember now is that I went out to study and called home from a public phone booth in a strange city, but I hung up and cried. It was my first time out of town. In the year of graduation, I didn't go home for the New Year because of stubbornness and anger. That was the first time I didn't spend the New Year at home. Later, I had to travel for work reasons, and I had to pretend to travel frequently. That was my first time out of the province?
In fact, what can be remembered are significant events, while other growth experiences may be gradually forgotten over time. However, in the journey of life, it may be some small things that really make you grow up.
20 15 was a year when I was particularly touched by small things, and it was also a year when I grew up. Because this year's resignation is the first involuntary resignation, which has suppressed my confidence and made me unwilling to accept it for a long time.
But it is precisely because of my resignation that I have enough time to start a series of new experiences: volunteering for traditional culture for the first time, serving in a foreign group and a sign language group, taught me to bow and be humble.
Living in a temple for the first time, listening to the real morning bells and drums, and experiencing the etiquette of playing the board to eat, let me understand that when I was young, I saw the old people pick up the fallen rice grains and eat them because it was only to cherish happiness, not wealth.
The first time I joined a closed girls' school, I learned to filter my way and reflect on myself at all times. I also remember the benefits of finding others and recognizing my mistakes.
On August 1, I went to a club run by veterans who insisted on supporting the parents of their dead comrades for more than 20 years for the first time, and really realized the feelings of soldiers who had experienced the baptism of war.
It's my first time to volunteer in a health camp, in the hardest catering group. Whenever I get up at four or five in the morning and feel sore all over, I can't help asking myself why I have to ask for it. However, when I left, I was so reluctant.
Together with more than 100 volunteers from all over the country, I have served this team of thousands of people, most of whom are post-90 s. Getting along with them has given me a new understanding of this group of post-90 s. They are energetic, capable, responsible, willing to pay, thoughtful and constantly improving. It's really not as good as it is. I'm ashamed. At the same time, every time I think of the laughter at dinner and the happy atmosphere at work, even my older sister in her forties says she feels young.
I feel even more incredible. Many things that I thought I couldn't do before can be done now, and they are done well. I can be so capable. In fact, as long as you are willing to do it and let go of the preconceived restrictive thinking mode, there is nothing. Yes I also realized that people really need to know how to open their hearts. Excessive self-protection will make them lose some instinctive gains?
The year of 20 15 was the low point of my life and the beginning of my growth. Through all kinds of first-time experiences, I feel that I have opened a window, had a different view on things, felt more grateful to people and respected everything.
20 16, a new year, a new beginning, get rid of bad habits, cultivate good habits, experience more meaningful first times, open your heart, work hard, live seriously, everything will be fine, as full of vitality as flowers, I firmly believe!
Written on 20 16.03.04.
(released on 20 18.05.06)