Childhood: Because the kindergarten was "full-time" at that time, I could only see my parents on weekends. Coupled with the bad school atmosphere in primary school, I didn't continue to cultivate learning. I don't know what I did during this time, and I'm not interested in learning, so I play with my classmates. Disrespect for parents, temper tantrums, stubbornness, picky eaters, parents like servants, I am the emperor. In the second and third grades, I still need my parents to feed me. Even when I was playing computer, my parents waited on me patiently, but I didn't appreciate it. I can't say that. However, although I play most of the time, my grades in primary school are still among the best. I am good at math and have a good memory. I am the best math class in the whole school, and I am also the fastest person in the class to write math topics. Just like flying, I just rely on my own mental arithmetic. Moreover, I am cute and have good skin, and even some girls like me very much. When I was in the third grade, I still smelled a little lighter than before. There is only a little fragrance left in the sixth grade, but you can still smell it if you smell it carefully. Still weak and sick.
I just got sy (Grade One): I started sy before Grade One, frequently in Grade Two, and quit in Grade Three. But my evil ying's reaction came quickly. When I first entered the campus, my interpersonal relationship went from bad to worse, and my luck plummeted. I was wronged and abused by my teacher at school, and I found some friends who didn't study well, and my brain power declined. At first, the course was simple, and I was gifted, so science was easy, and the language and politics of liberal arts became difficult. Still sick.
Sy addiction (Grade 2): Symptoms gradually break out, brain power plummets, thinking is confused, memory plummets, forgetfulness, insomnia and dreaminess, and ghosts press hard in bed, making it difficult to maintain scientific achievements. Liberal arts need to spend a lot of time studying in order to keep their grades. Jj is very sensitive. When stimulated, it will erect, but it is very soft. If you rub it for a long time, liquid will flow out. When it is tempted, the scrotum will be wet and itchy, and there will be some foot odor, and the body odor will be completely gone.
Besides, my eyesight has dropped sharply. Wearing glasses is actually amblyopia and hyperopia, qi deficiency, fever, night sweats, fatigue and sweating. Xing acne, toxic sores, seborrheic dermatitis, pudendal and head are very uncomfortable. Specifically, I wrote this post, and someone can go and have a look: acne, abscess, dermatitis, scrotum wet itching, blackhead, eczema, oil recovery treatment.
After that, the appetite is greatly reduced, the mouth is dry, the stool is black and impassable, and the symptoms of spleen deficiency and stomach yin deficiency are obvious. I have spermatorrhea five or six times a month, and from time to time, ghosts are pressing against my bed, as if I have great strength, and many hands are grasping my ghosts, so I dare not open my eyes; I still have phobia, I dare not stay at home alone in broad daylight, and I am hypochondriac. Low white blood cells and immune cells. I also like a girl who feels that God is punishing me, that is, the girl who likes me very much in primary school. I don't want to go into details here. I will re-open a post to talk about all the details, and I will stop here for your reference.
Confusion: after knowing that sy is the cause, I took some medicine casually, and then I went to Chinese medicine to recuperate, but I didn't fully recuperate. After spending thousands of dollars, the deficiency of qi has improved a little. My stomach is swollen and I have an appetite for eating. My insomnia and fatigue have improved a lot, but my nocturnal emission has not improved and my temper has not recovered. Then I got stubborn constipation. Refractory constipation occurs after two consecutive breaks in a month. In fact, the root of the disease has not been cured, and the qi machine may be chaotic.
I quit for three weeks for the first time and 120 to 30 days for the second time, but I had yy halfway, which made me feel particularly uncomfortable. Because the mobile phone is broken, I can't see the boutique stickers and I can't learn the knowledge of abstinence. Finally, I can't stand the desire. According to my experience, I must fully realize the harm of abstinence, learn yy, learn the nature of lewdness, learn the method of abstinence, and change my destiny by doing good deeds and accumulating virtue, so that it is easy to accept and succeed, and I don't need to work hard to learn and correct.
I had phimosis before the ring was broken, and it took a long time for the wound to heal completely. My symptoms of yin deficiency are more obvious in this period, because I don't have a good health. The color recovery is not good after stopping, and health preservation is also very important. What some friends find difficult to do is actually a mental problem! It's hard to quit, but why? It's hard to keep in good health. Why don't you do it again? To realize the importance of xing in every place is just like learning the knowledge of abstinence from color. Many abstainers don't want to see it after reading a few high-quality stickers!
However, in the days of abstinence 100, my brain power did not continue to decline, and what I could barely remember, my brain power also recovered a little. Luck is still bad, because there is no good for evil, repentance and rehabilitation, sometimes yy.
Turn for the better: after the telephone was finally fixed, I had time to learn to quit color, and the teacher from Lou kept encouraging and guiding me, so I learned the anthology of stopping color from outside the building. The post inside is very good, and my desire is getting smaller every day, so I joined the ranks of answering friends' questions. I was very active in Baidu at first, but Baidu's response was too bad. I can't switch to Baidu Post Bar, and I see Water God Hengge @ Tian Zhanghengheng answering questions. I also wrote a paragraph like him and answered questions according to different abstainers. These words have been improving.
After constantly learning the knowledge of abstinence from color and insisting on doing good deeds, abstinence from color is not bad, and my desire is greatly reduced. But at that time, regardless of abstinence, I rashly went to the yellow bar for publicity several times and had a dream (half dream and half awake). If it didn't break this time, I quit for more than ten months. If it did, I quit for more than nine months. I haven't broken it since. I have been listening to the audio explained by teacher Lou, learning traditional culture and doing good deeds. Now my desire is no longer a threat, and the nocturnal emission has completely improved, from five or six times in January to twice in January, then once in January, and now it is once every two months. The ghost press has been completely improved. I haven't pressed it once in months! I used to be crushed more than 20 times a month on average. My brain power has also increased, and I won a prize in the chemistry competition in this small city, which is also a local strongman.
I also learned the knowledge of Chinese medicine. Later, Teacher Lou recommended me to be a vegetarian and study Buddhism, so I broke my meat and eggs. In recent months, my parents forced me to make an exception and eat a few pieces, and I seldom breastfeed. Now I won't touch it. Wuxin also tries to avoid it. I suggest you try to be a vegetarian. If you can't be a vegetarian, don't eat shrimp, beef, mutton, dog meat, chicken and eggs from eat small fish. You can skip to the next paragraph if you don't believe me.
Harm of eating meat and eggs:
1: This is the fastest effect. Different meats have different functions. Eating it wrong will do harm to your health. For example, people who get angry eat chicken, beef, mutton and dog meat, which is becoming more and more serious.
2. This effect is slow. Meat and eggs have the same characteristics: phlegm and dampness, and people with good health have good digestive function and detoxification function, so they can tolerate it. Meat and eggs do contain nutrients, but there are a lot of toxins! It is difficult for the human body to digest and absorb, so don't eat it if you are healthy. If you eat too much, you will definitely have symptoms. If you can't eat it, you must eat less (the milk is not good now, and the cows are basically farmed and polluted. We used to eat nothing, but now we can't eat more. We can use thick soybean milk instead.
3. If this really comes, it will be miserable, and eating meat will pay off.
Disadvantages: Although I do well in science now, my brain power is still far less than that of primary school mathematics. Although my memory is better, I still can't remember politics and Chinese, and my English history is tight, so I am no longer a "child prodigy". My biggest health problem now is constipation. Besides breakfast, I only eat half a bowl of rice for lunch and dinner, and sometimes I have bloating. Besides, there are many things I can't do well. The efficiency of doing things in a day is always very low. When the efficiency is good, you can read three books in one morning. When the effect is not good, I can only read one or two books, and I have not fulfilled my duty of filial piety. Although I have taken some actions, they are all insignificant, just a drop in the ocean. I didn't succeed in guiding my parents into the avenue. I can only admit that my wisdom and perseverance are too low. And I can get up at 4: 30 every day, but I just can't get up this summer vacation, which will be delayed for nearly 20 minutes. Even now, writing this post is very hesitant and time-consuming. Wait, wait, I'm having a bad time anyway. I will definitely correct these bad places one by one. If you feel that you don't have time and don't know what to learn, I recommend it to you: Collection of Water Cautions Outside the Building! There is absolutely nothing wrong!
Feeling: I do encounter many obstacles in doing good now, but I have no reason to back down and stop. I have to find a way to break through karma and do good deeds. So I also took the time to confess during this time, because I remembered that I had done too much evil before!
I can't think of anything to write in this post, so I'll give you the following sentence!
As a junior with little knowledge, I also witnessed this process: people are good, although the blessing has not arrived, the disaster is far away; Man-made disaster, although the disaster has not arrived, the blessing is far away.
After listening to Lou's audio, I was deeply moved, so I thought of a sentence: God will never bless you because of your talent, only because of your virtue!
Brother Heng showed me that a person can't change because his pain is not enough!
There is also the sentence that inspired me when I quit color for the second time: people persist not because they see hope, but because they persist and see hope!
If you encounter difficulties in abstaining from color, please believe in yourself, remember the third and fourth sentences, ignore them and do your best!
If you are confused on the road of doing good, please don't doubt, remember the first and second sentences, even if we mix well, we can't escape the cause and effect.
Quote the teacher Lou's audio: "Those who do good will be blessed by God, and those who do evil will be spurned by God!"
Why haven't we reversed? Because our hearts are as hard as icebergs!
For example. Brother Chen Xing cried loudly when he repented! Do good deeds and turn over a new leaf!
Did we do it?
Have you ever thought about doing this?
Have we ever reflected on ourselves?
Did we try our best?
Are we worthy of friends and relatives around us?
If even friends and relatives feel sorry, let alone society? Country? This world? All beings?
Are we really qualified when we think we are trying our best to do good?
Please keep these questions in mind. I am ashamed to think of these problems. My answer should be the same as most abstainers, no! Absolutely not!
However, there are dozens, hundreds or even thousands of such problems! ! !
Please show your conscience and ask yourself: What are we addicted to sy for?
What do we live in this world for?