Beautiful campus: Nara travels all over the world, and you are not by my side.
1
I met Turing in the bookstore on Nara Street.
At that time, I was reading a picture book with gentle packaging, which introduced the Japanese tea ceremony. There were scattered introductions on it, and I turned to a beautiful illustration. I couldn't translate the following sentence, so I took out an electronic dictionary from my schoolbag. I don't know how Lintu appeared, how he saw me and how he came to me quietly. Only when I hear it? This sentence is misprinted and cannot be translated? I looked up and saw that face, and I still can't forget that scene. In the dimly lit bookstore, the boss is talking on the phone with the people at the front desk in Japanese, and the wind chimes sound exquisite and crisp in the spring breeze. Lintu looked me in the eye calmly. I put the book back with a smile and followed Turing out of the bookstore. I think the first thing an old friend should say when they meet? How are you doing? But after we separated for three years, Lintu stood on a quiet street in a foreign country, and the first thing she said turned out to be: Xiaoman, I miss you very much.
The wind in Nara is not much different from that in City C, the quiet streets are no different from a small street in City C, and the faces of Japanese pedestrians passing by in a hurry are no different from those of China people. Now it's just me and myself three years ago. It's different. This sentence, which can make me cry at will, has become a heartless existence for me. I wonder if time has stood still in the past few years when Turing came to Nara. He seems to forget that we haven't seen each other for three years, and that I'm not the twenty-year-old girl who can touch anything blindly. If time has taken anything away from me, it is recklessness and recklessness in the past. If there is anything left, it is that I can finally face this man now, and I am very calm.
My name is Shen, 23 years old, Gemini, Kenichi, and I came to Nara with my camera and a three-hair book. On this sunny afternoon, I met the man I once madly loved. I still remember, because of him, I have a shallow scar on my wrist.
2
That night in the hotel, I dreamed of Turing for the first time.
His face is very clear in my dream, just like when I first saw it. In early winter, I was wrapped in a coat and sleepy with a kettle. He came and sat next to me, touched me and said, classmate, you dropped your pen. I think I've always been like this, and I'm easily moved by details. At this time, Lin Tu helped me pick up the pen, took out the paper towel and wiped it before handing it to me. I looked at him with swollen eyes. He looked at me and smiled. I admit, before and after that, I have never met a man who can laugh so calmly, including Zhu Yibo.
When you are faced with those hungry as wolves in the Ministry of Science and Technology who only know Kaede Matsushima and don't know Shen Congwen, nothing is to play games in the dormitory every day, surf the Internet all night without taking a shower, and laugh like a boy without eyes at the sight of girls, the appearance of Lin Tu is undoubtedly an explosive for me who was perfectionist at that time. I like such a man, like Mr Darcy. I always thought that meeting Lintu was the best thing in my life. However, when I felt his ambiguous feelings countless times, I suddenly found that it was not love. I'm not the only one who loves such a man. Women who are crazy about him are as annoying as mosquitoes in autumn. I once asked Lintu, Do you only love me? Lin Tu just smiled. I know the meaning of that smile, but I dare not say anything. Many times, I always do, knowing that leaving early can broaden my horizons and stop worrying, but I don't have the courage. Because I'm afraid of losing, I don't want to lose Turing. I'm self-righteous and paranoid.
It was not until Turing kissed me for the fifth time that I saw her coming out of the library with a beautiful sister from the English department that I completely collapsed. Before that, I didn't care about Yingying Yanyan, because I didn't think they could compare with me. This time, I hid in the corner with inferiority, in the shadow of the sun, and let my jealousy grow. I did something that I didn't think about 20 years ago or even in the next few decades, and I won't do it again. Looking at the blood flowing from my wrist, I suddenly woke up like a big dream. My desire to survive was so strong that I kept kicking the locked door. Finally, I dialed the telephone. Although I fainted afterwards, I knew I wouldn't die because I didn't want to.
Lintu went to the hospital to see me, and his expression was still the same, just a little guilty. He said a lot, but I didn't listen to a word. When I looked at his unchanging face in Zhang Wannian, I suddenly felt ridiculous. It's like when I woke up from my dream and saw the sun shining on the small window of the hotel, the proprietress downstairs called me and said that someone had come to see me. I opened the door and saw Lintu's face. All this makes me feel ridiculous.
three
I went to Mount Fuji in Tulin. When I stood on it, my IPOD was playing Eason Chan's music under Mount Fuji, while I was on Mount Fuji. When I saw so many pictures and video scenes, I was really sad. Wrapped in a rented cotton-padded jacket, I trudged, and Lintu followed me closely. In a famous Lamian Noodles shop in the Mid-Levels, I ate a bowl of Lamian Noodles, which was very loud and didn't look like a girl at all. Thinking of someone while eating makes a loud noise every time you eat noodles. I will sit by and watch him eat my cooked noodles, and then sarcastically say, can you be more like a pig? Mr Zhu?
When I miss him, Lintu looks at me, and I turn my head away, wondering if he has seen the tears in my bowl. I am reminded of a song by Fish Leong. There is a saying in the song that it will come eventually, but it is sad. I don't think I have the courage to finish the second part. When I stood on Mount Fuji, I looked at the white breath in my mouth and the tourists who spoke different languages around me. And Lin Tu, he has a look from beginning to end. Suddenly, I feel that Mount Fuji is so much. Then Turing came over and looked at me and said, May I hug you? I took two steps back, shook my head, thought about it, and shook my head again. I heard Lintu sigh. I also sigh in my heart. I don't know why he is like this, but I know why I am standing here at the moment, standing on Mount Fuji, the symbol of Japan, with red eyes.
I miss Zhu Yibo, really, I miss him very much.
four
The protagonist of this story is not Lin Tu.
I never thought I would fall in love with such a person, just as I never thought I would know Lintu. Many things in life are unpredictable. I met Zhu Yibo in a bookstore. I am reading a new book. He argued with his boss at the front desk about why the game magazine hasn't arrived yet. It's very loud I went over and patted him and said, can you keep your voice down? She looked back a few times and said, can you speak louder? Little sister.
We will endlessly spit on each other, despise each other's ignorance in some aspects, and say with a straight face when others say that you are a good match, I don't know this person. However, we also have warm moments, such as I sit on the floor reading a book and he plays war games on the computer. Every time I look up at him, I always feel that God is very kind to me. I thought I would find a gentleman, but I didn't expect all my little happiness to be brought by a rogue who didn't even know Zhang Ailing.
I said Mr. Zhu, when we have money, we will go to Japan and Mount Fuji. He killed his eyes in the game and said without looking back, are you going to eat red Fuji apples? I put my head into the quilt and sulked, but I heard him say, I think we can go to Nara after eating apples. Hey, haven't you always wanted to cross over?
I thought that one day I could really walk hand in hand on the streets of Tokyo and Nara. I spoke to the shopkeeper in broken Japanese, and he waited with a frown, but I don't know if I did anything to kill and set fire in my last life. Fate never made me like it, such as Lin Tu and Zhu Yibo. When I felt with joy that the moment of expectation was coming, I received a phone call from a stranger, asking if I was Shen Xiaoman and saying that your friend was hit by a car. It was a rainy day. I just dried my hair and sat on the floor waiting for him to come home for dinner. Chicken soup is being stewed in the kitchen, and the rain is gently beating on the windowsill. His computer is on to download Saw 3, and we agreed to watch it together in the evening. The desktop is still a panoramic view of Mount Fuji. I looked at the computer screen and waited for a while, feeling that the whole person was squeezed dry. If Lin Tu makes me feel more indifferent to my feelings, it is only a temporary hard feeling. Then Zhu's departure made me lose the ability to love others in the following years.
five
On the day I left Japan, Lintu took me to the airport that was open all day. He said, I can take care of you instead of him. I forgot many things in those years, but I didn't forget you. When he said these words, he was very affectionate, which was my favorite gesture, but I took my boarding pass and looked at the scenery of Tokyo outside the window. Clouds swept across the sky and thought about Zhu Yibo.
In that song, I finally arrived, but I was even sadder.
The second half sentence is that one person realizes the dreams of two people.
Beautiful campus: the shortcut to growth is to like someone.
Christmas. I'm here? He Zhi Department Store? For VIP cards, they gave me a calendar in 2007. I send you a message, I say Su Liang, I give you a calendar. Do you want it? Smile and say yes.
But you know what? What I want to say is that I will give it to you. Do you want it? That's too explicit. What a reserved girl I am.
It's Thursday, April 5, 2007. Qingming. I told you that I would come to Suzhou, and you said yes. I'll pick you up with Weizi.
I don't like to hear that. I want you to tell me that you will pick me up. Why did you bring Wei Zi? She is such an ignorant chick. You chased her for two years, but she still ignored you.
I'll give you my luggage. I said, Su Liang, will you die if you help me move things?
You smiled, warm enough to melt my heart. I walked ahead with purple hand, leaving you behind. The sunshine in Suzhou is not dazzling, but Weizi said, I am so tired that I want to sleep.
You told her very gently, go to sleep in the afternoon on information theory.
I despise you. Are you doing this for her? You're just hurting her. I jumped on the coming No.33 bus and sat in the front row.
Fifty minutes later, we arrived at Shihu Campus of Zhutian University. I walked in easily. You said goodbye to us on the bridge next to the playground. I ran into the education supermarket next to the Princess Building and bought zongzi, biscuits and dried mushroom and mung bean cakes. I stood in front of the supermarket and stuffed them all into my mouth.
I want to vomit myself in this way. Otherwise, I'm afraid I'm not vomiting but crying. I can't see that you are kind to others.
Weizi handed me a bag of wheat milk. I looked up at her and smiled like a traitor.
I asked her what happened to you. I think he is too dark, too fat and not beautiful enough.
So Su Liang, you have no chance. Wei Zi said that she wouldn't choose you unless you had plastic surgery.
You invited us to dinner. I am the foil. This is the seasoning of your embarrassing atmosphere. I gave full play to the role of flavoring agent. I racked my brains to think about some topics. Your eyes drift to purple from time to time, and you care so much about her reaction and expression.
Back to the dormitory, I answered the phone. That sweet greasy expression on your face will never appear when you face it. I am inexplicably angry. I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry for you. We are all poor.
At ten o'clock in the evening, you sent me a message saying that you would bring me a youth league. In fact, it is to use me as a cover for Wei Zi. I'd better go down and let you accompany me around the campus. It is very suitable to shoot ghost films in front of HKUST school hospital at night. The yellow light of the cuboid is scattered all over the floor in front of the dilapidated building.
Go shopping? Shitaoyuan? Is it terrible that you hit the mobile phone light on the stone carving in the greenhouse and asked me?
I said I'm not afraid. The voice is never assured. I'm really not afraid of anything with you around.
We sat in an armchair and chatted. You sent a message to Wei Zi, and a faint light shone on my ankle through the Woods. I put my foot on these lights and echoed. I ask you gently, if a girl tells you that she likes you, will you give up Wei Zi and accept her? You answer in a low voice, if I think she is good, I will consider it.
I looked down through that pillar and smiled. You never thought I would like you.
On Saturday, I went to Wuzhen with a spring outing organized by your department. I listen to Chivas commercials when you know, I like being alone. How can I let him know?
I stood behind the blue dyed cloth of Hongyuantai Dyeing House and poked my head out. I saw you standing beside Weizi, smiling obsequiously, and my heart ached. Su Liang, you are a perfect person in my eyes. You shouldn't do this. You have no value, dignity and reason for love.
But who am I to say you? I am more humble and confused than you. I only met you once and I began to like you. It took me a year to figure out whether I like you because of impulsiveness and ignorance.
I drank 55-degree wine in the third winery. They only gave me a small glass, and I wasn't even a little drunk. Coming out of the restaurant, we stood in front of Xiuzhen Temple, waiting to see the Flower Drum Opera. You can bring me a can of Sanjiu liquor.
Weizi said that Simon never drinks. You said, I just saw her having a good time.
Su Liang, I have never been a teetotaler, so I tried to get myself drunk with that glass of wine. Is this a stupid idea? If you like someone, your IQ will become dull. Knowing that everything is in vain is still the same.
Halfway to the parking lot, I saw Wuzhen Station and thought of Huang Lei seeing Rene Liu off in the past. In the heavy rain, Rene Liu cried. Lei Huang stretched out his hand to wipe her tears, this posture has been kept until the rain stopped, Rene Liu out of sight, he didn't go back. After a few steps, he suddenly turned his head and looked around. He found that he had lost his love forever. He stood there, letting the tears fall.
I turned to look at you. I wonder, will you turn around one day and find me gone, sad?
On Sunday, Weizi went to take a bath. I used her computer to surf the Internet and met you on QQ.
You said it was thanks to you these days, otherwise it would always be cold with Weizi. You said you liked her crooked smile. She looked very quiet in a skirt.
I send a message to ask you, I like a boy, should I tell him?
You said, tell me, so directly.
I said, but he has a girl he likes very much. What should I do?
You said, we are all poor children, how can we all like people who don't like ourselves?
The wind outside the balcony blew in, so I moved a stool and sat at the balcony door, keeping my feet flat.
A year ago, do you remember, that was the first time we met.
At that time, I came to take the oldest photos of Suzhou. Your pursuit of the fourth girl you like is fruitless. At 8 o'clock in the evening, we stood together in the crowded Shantang Street and listened to Suzhou Pingtan. Some children in Tang Hua glued a whole Tang Hua swallow to my white shirt. You hold me and carefully pick up the candy on my back. You hold my head high and your eyes down, as gentle as clear water. I, a rare quiet girl, suddenly became quiet.
Later, I learned that you and Weizi are in the same school. Besides, you are the boy who Wei Zi told me that she had been chasing her for a long time and was rejected by her. This is so dramatic. The pattern of this play is interpreted by me as fate.
After returning to Shanghai, I often contact you. You talk to me about Wei Zi, and I'll tell you all her hobbies. You called me three times and said you would treat me to pudding. Say you want to take the postgraduate exam in Shanghai. You're planning your future with Wei Zi. I have never been in your world.
I didn't come to see me off the day I left. I am walking around the campus in shoes and clothes I bought in Guanqian Street. I wear it? Maid's house? Embroidered collar with long sleeves. You don't know, I also want to take a quiet route.
I think of what happened these days. It's a pity that these seemingly happy little details are not because you like me. You just love me and my dog. Maybe, to put it mildly, we are good friends.
Su Liang, there's something I didn't tell you. When I return to Shanghai this time, I will start going abroad. How I wish I liked you is just my impulse and illusion. It took me a year to list the reasons why I like you on paper. I think I really like you.
The first song you recommended to me was Lao Lang's Want to Sing Me to You. I like the lyrics in it:? Who can replace you? Love while you are young. ? No one can replace you, and no one believes how much I love you.
Liking someone is a shortcut for people to grow up quickly. You will think of him, the future and happiness. Now we have no future. I never said, I can't bear the heavy word love, and you haven't considered loving me. We are still two individuals who have nothing to do with love. It is also good to bless each other and miss each other occasionally.
So, Su Liang, I can only put my dreamlike story in this magazine that can be bought at the newsstand next to your school playground. Turn around gently and sing my favorite song to myself.
Love has no reward in heaven.
I have never had such a real dream as today, as if it were within my reach. In my dream, Qiangqiang and I walked arm in arm on the elevator. He is wearing light blue jeans, a black leather jacket, a white T-shirt hat turned over the jacket, and a faint smile on his face. He looks very good. I told him without thinking:? You are a person who is very kind to others if others treat you better. ?
? Is it? He nodded and smiled meaningfully.
And then what? I woke up when Zhuang Xiaoting's phone called. So she asked me to sing at the cashier. I have an appointment with Song Jingming.
? Ah, you have figured it out. Do you want to get back together with him?
? Well, I'm afraid he won't come, so why don't I say a few classmates get together and ask him to invite Xi Qiang?
? Well, anyway. ?
Four years ago, Qiangqiang, Zhuang Xiaoting and Song Jingming and I were sensational lovers on campus.
Second-rate instructors who are freshmen and don't know where the school came from openly eat tofu from female students during military training. Most people dare to be angry and dare not speak. Although Zhuang Xiaoting and I are not in the same class, we just stand in the first row. Without much discussion, we won the strong harmony among the boys next to us, and wanted to ask several people to report to the school, but no one wanted to stand up except the four of us.
Four people simply found the student affairs office directly. I didn't expect the director of the student affairs office to be vague and want to get rid of it in a few words. After a few more words, I began to threaten again, to the effect that the new freshmen will get good results in the future.
God knows where we got the courage. We spent three days in the principal's office, and finally caught the busy principal's adult and forced him to go to the stadium to watch the whole process of the abnormal instructor eating girl tofu. In a rage, the principal even dismissed the director of the student affairs office.
After this incident, the headmaster had a good impression on Qiangqiang and Song Jingming. He not only urged them to join the student union as vice presidents, but also issued an invitation to stay and teach.
How clever and tactful Song Jingming is. He firmly seized this opportunity and achieved great success. With a mouthful of golden words, he is like a duck to water in the school office and the school office, and has become a veritable celebrity. However, he refused in person, indicating that he was not there. The headmaster didn't push him, just smiled and said that everyone has their own interests.
Yes, everyone has their own ideas. This is the difference between Song Jingming and Xi Qiang. In my eyes, Song Jingming is too middle-class and complicated. Zhuang Xiaoting doesn't think so. She thinks Song Jingming is far-sighted, ambitious and promising.
After the military training, Zhuang Xiaoting and Qiang naturally established a love relationship and invited me to have dinner together. That night, Song Jingming was going to fix me up with Qiang, but when I was exulting, I couldn't figure out his mind.
He seldom contacts me on his own initiative, and occasionally meets me on campus, and just nods to say hello. After waiting for nearly three months, Ji Qiang didn't have any intention to do anything to me, and he didn't see any reply after repeated tests. Finally, I couldn't hold back my love and launched a general attack on him. The whole L University, who was in school in 2006, almost knew that I was a stalker? Excellent deeds? . I never think this is a shameful thing. Like a person, dare to confess to him, pursue and verify your love, and pursue the life you want. What is shameful?
During my four years in college, I spent all my spare time pursuing success. Strong personality is more withdrawn. Apart from playing basketball and Go in his spare time, he has always been a loner. For him, I changed my journalism major to economic management, and finally I was in the same class with him, sticking to him like a dog skin plaster from morning till night; I found a member of the provincial basketball team as a basketball coach online, and received formal training, shooting, dribbling and layup? Even the common sense of referees is clearly learned; I learn from my roommate's cousin, who won the second place in the provincial Go competition. My classmate's cousins pay special attention to love.
He is studying in the classroom, and I sit beside him and listen to MP4 quietly. He went to the library to read a book, and I looked for the same book opposite him. Occasionally, I looked up and saw his focused expression, pure and indifferent eyes under long eyelashes, and my heart was pounding.
From the initial passive acceptance to the later? Courtesy in return? The contact with me is getting closer and closer, and I am used to discussing with me whether there is anything and where to go. But when I think of what I said that night when I strongly promised to be with me, I feel a little uneasy. ? Liang Jia, I understand your heart and know that you love very hard. But I'm not as passionate about love as you are. I don't know if it's because I don't love love itself, or if I haven't met a person who told me to mobilize all my brain cells and have a vigorous love. I like you, thank you. But if I say gratitude is more than love, will you still be with me?
Where can I refuse? I'm afraid it's too late to get excited now Heaven rewards diligence, and heaven rewards diligence. Even if Qiangqiang is a piece of ice that won't melt, I can change its edges and hardness.
After graduating from college, Zhuang Xiaoting and Song Jingming bought a house in the city. They plan to get married in a year or two when economic conditions are better. In less than half a year, we broke up again and again, and finally broke up completely after the seventh break-up.
Now that we have just broken up for more than a month, Zhuang Xiaoting wants to rekindle the old love. I did Sarah laugh. If I know this, why should I know it?
As for me and Qiang, for so long, I always pay too much, and Qiang always seems to be unhurried, indifferent to everything and not interested in anything. Even if I go to the hospital with a fever, he just plays games quietly at home, occasionally calls me to order at the fast food restaurant downstairs, and then continues to play with everything, and life remains the same.
Occasionally doubt your choice. However, during my four years in college, I gave him all my best youth, and the thought of losing it made my heart ache.
3. When I got to the cashier, Zhuang Xiaoting leaned on me with a heavy heart, showing rare depression and no desire to sing at all.
? Xi Qiang said he had something to do, so he wouldn't come. ? Song Jingming explained to me. A little disappointed to see me, he said? Come on, you should be happier without boys. ? When I was in a daze, he had ordered a good song and sang it in a variety of ways.
Zhuang Xiaoting glanced angrily at Song Jingming. Even a fool can detect her sad eyes. What do you think are the chances that he will agree to get back together? She asked me.
? hard to say
? Jingming, is this the room? Two girls wearing fashionable clothes suddenly broke into the house, which made Zhuang Xiaoting and I a little confused.
The girl at the beginning has a Bob head, fluffy hair with a C-bend, long in front and short in back, and a smooth neck. The girl behind her is wearing a chiffon sling. Song Jingming greeted them with a big smile. Let me introduce you. This is my college classmates Zhuang Xiaoting and Liang Jia. ? He grabbed Bob by the head. Xiao Ting, Liang Jia, this is my girlfriend Wenyi. He pointed to the sling girl and said, this is Qi Xiaoxiao, my girlfriend's best friend. ?
On the way home, Zhuang Xiaoting said nothing and was livid. When she got home, she threw away her high heels and sat on the sofa like a log. I went to the refrigerator to get a drink, and found that she was crying, tears were falling, black eye shadow slipped down her cheeks, and her face was black. I patted her on the shoulder and didn't know how to comfort her.
? Liang Jia, why did you find yourself a good home in just one month? I was so cleanly taken away from my heart by him?
? I want to make up with him with 100% sincerity today. On the road today, I always told myself to control my bad temper and put all the mistakes on myself. I want to tell him that I can't live without him.
? I want him back. ?
? I depend on him for everything. ?
? You beg him for me, and you ask him to come back.
4. Since then, Zhuang Xiaoting waited downstairs in Song Jingming's company every day, and gave her lunch and health soup at noon. Although Song Jingming refused repeatedly, she followed him nervously. She stroked every gift that Song Jingming bought for herself, firmly believing that he would come back one day. When they were in love, he whispered those vows in her ear, and she set a lifetime validity period for them alone. She went to the mall to buy various brands of clothes that he liked. He invited the courier company to return the clothes one by one, until the credit card was maxed out and the foreign debt continued, and she still refused to give up.
When he loves you, all you do is call him crazy love; When he doesn't love you, everything you do becomes unbearable harassment for him. Song Jingming decided to break up with Zhuang Xiaoting and changed her house and mobile phone number. When she left the company, she always had her front and back doors scouted and double-checked before she left. ZhuangXiaoTing fan the air several times, a person sitting in front of the building of Song Jingming company cry about it.
On a thunderstorm night, I went to Song Jingming Company to meet Zhuang Xiaoting, and saw a woman lying on the ground, covered in mud, screaming hysterically at the sky. At that moment, I could hardly believe my eyes. What about Zhuang Xiaoting, who is in high spirits? What about Zhuang Xiaoting, who turned her head 100% on campus and charmed junior students?
Zhuang Xiaoting was seriously ill and was in a coma for three days and two nights. While I was busy with Zhuang Xiaoting's love with her, my lovely classmate sent me a short message with only one sentence: I fell in love with a woman who told me to go through fire and water. ?
He didn't even bother to break up or even tell me.
I naturally don't have Zhuang Xiaoting's courage and boldness. Through the case of Zhuang Xiaoting, I got a glimpse. Even if I try again, it will be the same fate and ending as her.
At Zhuang Xiaoting's bedside, I heard her hazy gibberish: Heaven rewards diligence, Jingming, and I will work hard. ? In the dark night, I can't even see the light and shadow. Xiao Ting, how can I tell you? Through diligent, unremitting and arduous efforts, you have been admitted to a prestigious school and found a good job. Your colleagues recognize you and your leaders support you, so you have a good promotion space and can explore a better life step by step. However, love has never been rewarded by God.
No matter how much you pay, will he still go in the other direction? Heaven rewards diligence, in the final analysis, it is just a deceptive trick.