Youth has not failed!
Shepherd would rather lose wool than sheep. There is a rainbow after the storm, and there are always more ways than problems. I believe everything will be fine.
We should broaden our horizons, be open-minded, be good at seeing people and things, and be positive and beneficial.
Don't just look at the negative.
Talk to others more at ordinary times, speak out the pressure in your heart and get advice and help.
Find time to consult a psychiatrist. I believe it will help.