Quiet midnight is not enchanting and vivid with lights on, and there is no noisy whistle to help sleep. Only quiet music, a slightly old collection of Sanmao, opened my heart and understood my life with Sanmao. ?

"Life is thriving in such a lonely, backward and poor place. It is not struggling to survive. For desert residents, their physical illness and death seem to be such a natural thing here. I looked at the fireworks rising in Ran Ran and thought they were almost elegant. "

In the summer of 2006, I also experienced such a mental journey. When I first came to Rem County, I had a bad impression and the reason was almost harsh. At that time, I always felt that it was remote and backward, lacking in material and spiritual resources, which once made me feel that this was a wrong decision.

On September 1 day, 2006, I followed my colleagues through a trek of physical strength and endurance. The two-and-a-half-day trip not only changed my physical condition, but also gave me a vivid lesson on the spiritual level.

Rem county is a Kazakh autonomous county, where Kazakhs are mostly nomadic people. I don't know how far I walked that day. Under the scorching sun, I actually saw a large group of Kazakhs. A heavy-looking iron pot is steaming on a natural stone stove, but it is missing a corner. I think it was accidentally knocked down when I moved. In front of the pot, a middle-aged Kazakh woman hummed something while turning over the meat in the pot with an iron spoon, and then a pure smell of meat floated over, so I became interested in seeing how they started this wonderful dish. This is a very good land, surrounded by flat grass. Not far away, their belongings seem to be parked, and several men are banging on the corners of the yurt that is about to be erected. Colleagues said they just moved here. I suddenly understood the meaning of nomadism. The grasslands in this area are very good, so their sheep enjoy the natural delicacies to their heart's content. There are two children about three or four years old. One of them was naked, smiling innocently, and some looked at us curiously.

I looked at myself and felt that I was an unexpected guest, which disturbed their harmony, so I raised my camera to take pictures of this beautiful scenery and left immediately. Looking at the scene in the camera, I suddenly thought of the word "pastoral": under the blue sky and white clouds, men are working, women are cooking, children are playing, and sheep are flowing in front of me ... There really is no more beautiful and harmonious scene. At this moment, I also felt their elegance and serenity.

Perhaps this is life, enjoying every inch of land, every ray of sunshine and every smile.

"A life, not only sunshine, air, water can survive safely, that's just the most basic. The desire to live is actually very simple, but we are human beings and an insatiable creature. After solving the hunger, we demand progress. After progress, we demand more progress. After enjoying the material things, we should improve our spiritual ascension. We pursue happiness, happiness, harmony, wealth, health and even eternal life. "

Reading this sentence reminds me of the days when I was at a loss. I am a new employee of the company. I have no classmates and friends, and my colleagues are strangers. So I often run to the deserted desert, kicking stones under my feet and complaining about the tricks of fate. Looking at the white clouds flying in the sky, I feel like a drop of water that is about to evaporate. I just look at myself and feel sorry for myself. One day, I passed a shop and a restaurant. Seeing the Uighur girl learning Chinese with a book, I touched the sore spot of my life at once. Should you be bored after your basic survival is satisfied? Should we waste time?

As San Mao said, we demand progress. If you want to make progress, you must first find your own position in life and adapt to the present life, but you can't lose your ideal without pursuing it. At that moment, I understood that unless you want to lose yourself, nothing in other time and space can take away your attitude towards life and belief in your ideals. The process of life, in addition to enjoyment, needs down-to-earth progress. Perhaps to some extent, this is actively enjoying life.

"I don't eat greasy things, I'm not full, which makes my body very clean. I don't dream unattainable dreams, which makes my sleep peaceful. I don't wear high heels to torture my feet, which makes my steps more calm and steady. I don't follow the trend, let my clothes grow new forever. I am not ashamed to move my limbs, which makes me healthy and agile. I will avoid overzealous friendship when I have nothing to do, which makes my burden and commitment less. I don't talk much about unnecessary gossip, which makes me feel relaxed. I try not to recall the past, because there is no turning back when I come. I love others carefully, because it won't flood. I can cry if I like, smile happily, as long as it all comes from nature. I don't want to be profound, I just want to be simple. "

Not deep, but simple. In this paragraph, I saw a free and easy independent and simple Sanmao. Compared with her, I am much more complicated, but I am also much closer. From the beginning to the present, I refuse all alcoholic beverages, which may be an alternative to this flashy society. Many people dragged me down with the excuse of doing as the Romans do. They often laugh, not because they don't want to, but because they are incapable. I can understand the embarrassment and loneliness of many people after drinking. When a person's spirit cannot be released, it may be beneficial to the spirit through such channels, but it is harmful to health. I always try to persuade wine from this angle, but the effect is not obvious. In this era, communication and entertainment seem to be inseparable from wine, not to mention being drunk and unhappy. My experience is that with wine, everything is complicated, so when calling for simplicity, I hope people are healthy while having fun, because in this way, the process of life can be enjoyed slowly. For health, I practice yoga and drink health tea. I am heartless in many things, and I can cry if I want to. Laugh happily, I can talk whenever I want, and sing whenever I want. Healthy mentality and cheerful mood make life very easy, so I hope to continue.

"At that time, lingering around lovers, your ringing laughter, remember? Love never dies, it never changes. First love is a very important stage in life. It lets us know that besides the love of parents, there is also the love of men and women. I regard first love as an important milestone. First love often fails, but this is the first staircase, which must be taken. But it means a lot. You can forget many friends you have had in your life, but you can't forget your first lover. It is not that this lover is so eternal, but that this milestone is so important. "

Because of the importance of this milestone, I finally resisted many temptations and chose to carry out my first love to the end. Just like San Mao's feeling about Jose, "This is a very plain and far-reaching combination. I have never loved him passionately, but I feel very happy and comfortable. " When we are together, we will often enjoy this happiness and comfort. I always thought that San Mao's love for Jose was profound and incomparable to everyone else. But when I read this sentence, I realized that true love may be like this, passing away like water in plain, and experiencing such comfort and happiness together. So I no longer pursue such enthusiasm and romance, but only want to realize that dream of being together in the years when I continue to face each other and enjoy life together. Love is still sacred at present, beyond material, beyond age, beyond region, and not fast food. I believe that only true love can inherit the age and triviality of life. Life should have love, true love, owning a tree can be like owning a whole forest, and then enjoy it.

"I'm just a pragmatic person. What I want is very ordinary. I hope to have children and be a hundred percent woman. All irrelevant ideas, if I keep the principle of indifferent and quiet life, I will not deliberately pursue them at all. My attitude towards the living environment is the same. The only thing I am persistent and willing to work hard with my life is to keep my personal thoughts, be a sincere person in my lifetime, not give up my love and persistence in life, and live an infinite life in limited time and space. If my approach is definitely "optimistic", it can also be accepted and recognized by me.

True happiness is neither ecstasy nor pain. In my subjective view, it is a long water flow, with no waves in the blue sea. Being an ordinary person among all sentient beings and enjoying the joy of life for a while, even if you don't die, it's heaven. "

When reading this passage, I saw an optimistic, happy and practical San Mao. "In my lifetime, I will be a sincere person, never give up my love and persistence in life and live an infinite life in a limited time and space." Looking forward to this kind of openness and happiness, I feel that this is my goal more and more. I love my life, be an ordinary, down-to-earth and sincere person, give my life 100% heart-to-heart, inject sincere motivation into my life, and enjoy being a person, a completely true and happy person in a dull time.

Sanmao may have a lot to tell us. Rereading this book with the feeling of working for many years, my feelings can be summarized as seven words: enjoy the process of life, enjoy it with your heart in any way, and I believe that no matter you or I will gain something. ?