Hello, you are better after a serious illness treatment, but sometimes you have the idea of continuing to get sick. I think first of all, you should be happy that you are in good health now. You may sometimes have the idea of continuing to get sick, because you get more people's concern when you are sick, and you want to continue to get everyone's concern. However, if you think about it on the other hand, your illness also makes many people worry about you. They all love you very much, and of course you don't want to cause trouble to everyone. So, in order to love you and your loved ones, live a healthy life.