This kind of thing, smoke, when I say early contact, should be too much. In a sense, I probably started smoking (second-hand smoke) before. My father was a heavy smoker and I can't remember things clearly when I was a child. In my impression, he always had a yellow cigarette in his hand and stuffed it into his mouth from time to time. In an instant, a bluish-gray smoke came out of his mouth with breathing, which seemed to be traceable, no matter what I was hiding in the room. It always finds my nose accurately, and a pungent smell goes straight to my forehead. At that time, I hated the smell. When I ran to my mother's side, I always felt that there was a warm smell on my mother's clothes, which could dilute the smell of smoke (somehow, it seems that I can't smell it now).

? I still remember that the pack of cigarette cases on my father's desk is red, and sometimes it is black (I later learned that the red one is called Hard Compliance and the black one is called Fu Gui, which is our local specialty). Father always smokes, and cigarettes are as indispensable to him as three meals a day. Of course, my mother naturally doesn't like my father smoking. Whenever my father smokes, my mother will frown, "go out on the balcony to smoke" and "make the house smoky" and so on. But where did my father buy it? He promised that my mother would smoke secretly in the house when she was not at home.

? My father quit smoking, too, but he can't give it up completely. He probably knows that smoking is not good for your health, but also affects your health! I quit so many times, big and small, and now I can't quit. When I was a child, I couldn't understand that tobacco has such great magic that people can't live without it.

? When it comes to tobacco, you can't help mentioning my grandfather. I have lived in my grandmother's grandfather's house as long as I can remember. I still have feelings for the two old people. At that time, the house had a dam. After dinner in the evening, my grandfather always takes out his pipe from the drawer and conjures a handful of hay (tobacco) in his pocket. He put it on the pipe and lit it with a match. He grunted when he smoked, and he sat there. Later, grandpa stopped smoking that kind of cigarette, and now few people smoke that kind of hookah. Boxed cigarettes, grandpa often draws the "matte" of silver boxes, which costs eleven yuan a pack. It's a cheaper kind of cigarette. Grandpa is very frugal and smokes inexpensive cigarettes. Apart from smoking, my grandfather's lifestyle is relatively healthy, so his body is still relatively strong. Recently, I heard from my grandmother on the phone that my grandfather also started to quit smoking.

? The first time I really came into contact with cigarettes was in the first year of high school. At that time, I left home and began to live on campus. There was also a period of confusion, probably because of too much pressure. That night, I grabbed the cigarette that my roommate was smoking on the balcony, shoved it into my mouth and took a long breath. I just feel dizzy, but I don't feel so uncomfortable. Then I calmed down and stopped smoking. Three years in high school, I smoke so much when I am depressed. I don't think the pressure of high school is so great for me, maybe it's because of my own personality. In my life, my mood will not fluctuate too much. It was my freshman year that made me addicted to cigarettes. Before I went to college, I was full of expectations that I would become a better person. Reality and dreams are always inconsistent. When you feel uncomfortable, go to a place where no one is there to smoke a cigarette, and your mood will be calmer. Maybe I didn't become the perfect image I hoped for in my heart. Sometimes I become sentimental and too depressed.

We are all human beings, and we all have defects, regrets and more powerlessness. Many smokers want to fill this sense of powerlessness with cigarettes, including me, but to no avail.

One day, I will give up smoking, just like my father and grandfather, but at least not now. I also want to experience the feeling of being told not to smoke by my wife, haha.

? I told myself, don't think too much, don't know too much, many things will change, I am very happy, and the people around me are still good. If you feel uncomfortable, you must learn to release it. Smoking is also a way. (sports)