I have been fatter than other children since I was a child. My mother once sent me to learn dancing for a while in order to help me develop a good posture and lose weight.
But when I arrived at the dance class, I was laughed at by other children. They said, "You are so fat, do you still want to dance?"
Nobody wants to be my partner. I feel inferior.
But at this moment, Yao Yao came over and took my hand and said, "Teacher, I will dance with her."
She also took the initiative to help me answer those children who said I was fat: "What's wrong with being fat? None of your business? "
From that moment on, I knew from my heart that Yao Yao would be my good friend for life.
After graduating from high school, Yao Yao and I were assigned to the same class, and we were inseparable every day.
My mother likes Yao Yao very much, and often invites her to our house for dinner.
After entering adolescence, Yao Yao's figure became more and more perfect. She is 1.65 meters tall, with long legs and white skin, which explains what is graceful with strength.
And I stopped when I reached 1.6 meters. On the contrary, weight is like riding a rocket. When I was a child, I could joke that I was a baby fat, but now I don't even want to take a picture of myself in the mirror when I see my round appearance.
It was my mother who helped her. She always said that I was in the critical period of learning to use my brain, fearing that I was not nutritious enough. Eager for more than one meal. Give it to me.
The more I eat, the fatter I get. At the peak of weight, the weight increased by 145 kg.
After the college entrance examination, my mother took me to buy clothes, only to know this fact later.
On the same day, she stopped the vegetarian diet with balanced nutrition every day during the preparation for the college entrance examination.
"Anyway, you finished the exam, and it's time to change your image when you went to college. Starting today, you cook vegetables for me! "
When I was eating tasteless boiled vegetables, Yao Yao came.
"Aunt, you are abusing children." Yao Yao joked with my mother.
"Hey, she's not like you. She is so fat that she should eat less. " My mother had no scruples about my face and complained to Yao Yao.
I just wanted to get angry with my mother when I heard Yao Yao speak for me: "There is no aunt, as long as you are healthy, it doesn't matter whether you are fat or thin." She is cute now, too. "
Yao Yao and I don't go to college in the same city, but they are not far away. During the holidays, we will start from our respective cities and meet to travel in the same place.
In fact, I have never paid attention to losing weight, and I still eat and drink after going to college. But a trip to Yao Yao during my freshman summer vacation completely stimulated me.
On the bus of that trip, we met a little brother of similar age. He was gentle all the way and took good care of Yao Yao and me.
Although I am fat, I also have a girlish heart. I think I kind of like this boy.
But I also know that this boy probably won't like me, but likes Yao Yao.
That night in the hotel, Yao Yao went to take a shower, and I was lying in bed alone playing with my mobile phone. Her mobile phone was put aside to charge, and suddenly there was a new message.
I glanced over there out of pure curiosity. I saw such a message hanging on the screen of my mobile phone.
"Can you let your fat friend go back a few days earlier? I'll show you around here alone. "
In a flash, it was like being poured with cold water from head to toe.
I don't care when they added each other's WeChat. But what I didn't expect was that this seemingly gentleman, polite and gentle boy would call me that in front of Yao Yao.
Yao Yao came out of the shower, glanced at her cell phone, and then looked at me in panic.
I pretended that nothing had happened and continued to play with my mobile phone. My heart was already turned upside down.
After returning to school in the second year of high school, I started my own strict and abnormal weight loss plan.
I will strictly calculate calories when eating, and I won't touch any dishes with heavy salt and heavy oil in the canteen. No matter what dishes I cook, I will prepare a bowl of water and pass it in clear water before each dish is served.
I have a fitness card and a personal trainer. Go to the gym three times a week.
I won't eat dinner. When my roommates went to the canteen to eat, I went to the playground to run laps alone.
From 800 meters, 1600 meters to 3000 meters and 5000 meters.
I used to be out of breath after running for two steps, but now I have completely fallen in love with running. Every day without running, I feel something is missing.
The influence of diet and exercise on me is obvious.
When I came home in my sophomore summer vacation, I had lost weight 120 kg. Although she is still fat, at least she looks like a normal girl.
In the winter vacation of junior year, even if you wear heavy winter clothes, you can control your weight at around 100 kg.
After losing weight successfully, my appearance has changed a lot. Gradually, people began to praise me for my beauty and call me little beauty. This is a name I have never heard in my life.
When I was running at school, boys began to gather around and talk to me. It's just that I often wear headphones and seldom take the initiative to talk to anyone.
But my relationship with Yao Yao has drifted apart unconsciously.
Strangely, Yao Yao was the first person to throw cold water on me after I set up the banner of losing weight.
She said: "It is too difficult to lose weight. I know many people who have lost their lives because of losing weight. " I wish you were so healthy now. Why do you have to care about other people's eyes? "
I told her that I had bought an online nutrition class and made a special recipe, and the amount of exercise would increase little by little, so I would be fine. She is still noncommittal.
"I bet you won't succeed."
I don't know whether she said this to stimulate me or from the heart. But whenever I want to be lazy and give up, I will think of her words and the boy calling my name.
Fat woman.
On the 31 ST holiday, I asked Yao Yao to travel together again. She made an excuse and refused me:
"You find someone else. I have to catch up on my homework recently."
But later, I clearly brushed the photos of her traveling in the surrounding towns and villages.
Because of the high degree of self-discipline in the past year, I have met many people with the same frequency and developed many good habits with them.
I quite agree with their concept of "sharing valuable things they have done and being able to pass positive energy on to more people". So I began to share my daily exercise, diet and reading in my circle of friends.
Some friends did tell me that I was inspired, and some people started to exercise after reading my sharing, which made me feel that punching in every day is valuable.
I seldom go to Yao Yao again.
The last time I contacted her, I saw the news that she liked stars. Click on a share, but WeChat prompts that "the message has been sent, but it was rejected by the other party".
I was a little confused and sad for a moment.
I don't even know when and why she blacked me out.
Is it because you punch in the circle of friends every day?
Two days ago, I watched a movie called mountains may depart.
The movie says: Everyone can only walk with you for a while.
Maybe Yao Yao is the friend who can only walk with me for a while. Although it hurts, I can only accept that this young friendship is drifting away.
Although I don't need to strictly control my diet now, exercise has become one of my lifestyles.
I know I'm fat. After all, I have been chubby for so many years, and now I want to maintain my hard-won weight loss, so I have to exercise.
In fact, many things will make me feel much better after I say them.
"Strive for what you can fight for, accept what you can accept, and don't regret what you can't change."
As for Yao Yao, who parted ways with me, I still remember the tenderness of those young people.
Wish you all the best.