People's thoughts command actions. You are thinking normally. Don't take extreme action. You need to be willing to bear hardships and suffer losses in everything. As long as you work hard, you won't get nothing. It seems that you really have some difficulties at present. A temporary blow should not knock you down. So many people can live, why can't you? Seize the opportunity, make a good choice, and continue to work hard. You will surely find that your performance is still so excellent when you are forced.