The origin of reading a blog is a joke on the wine table. I've always been a good girl with no opinion. After graduating from master's degree, I worked in a bank as my parents wished. Centralized purchasing has nothing to do with a dream of red mansions, and I am also out of place in the bank. The master's school has a party on Teachers' Day every year. Teacher Wang Xin watched me drown my sorrows by drinking and said, "You are so unhappy in the bank, come back and learn from me." I was so moved that I agreed half drunk and half awake. On the way home, I sat in a taxi and burst into tears, as if I had found a lifeline. However, after waking up, I felt desperate and didn't know if I could catch it. So I made the old habit of indecision, until after the National Day, when Teacher Wang Xin asked me whether to sign up, I took action.
From 10 to 1 1 month, I spent a month learning Japanese by myself, because I wanted to avoid English that I was always bad at and hated. I am a master of insurance research, so I have never experienced the pain of postgraduate entrance examination. After passing CET-6, I completely put English aside. Cobo English, in my opinion, is an insurmountable gap. Japanese seems to be more suitable for my temperament, and it is not difficult to learn. In January, I "chewed" the first book of Standard Japanese, but I was always worried.
Maybe the whole process of taking the PhD exam is that God wants me to understand that not all difficulties can be bypassed and it is not feasible to simply escape.
I forgot the exact date, except that it was a cold afternoon and I met Mr. Wang Damin. I didn't know that he would completely change me and my destiny. Everything is unintentional. Teacher Wang Xin suggested that I apply for another school that does not conflict with the examination time of the National People's Congress. After a brief search, I found a place called Academy of Social Sciences, and the examination time was more suitable. Looking at the research direction, there is a teacher, Wang Damin, who works in Ming and Qing literature and happens to be a doctoral supervisor. When I first enrolled students, I contacted him and didn't know what to do. The teacher said he wanted to see me, so I skipped work all afternoon to meet him in the office. There are several teachers in the office, and I don't know them. I can only timidly say that I am looking for Teacher Wang Damin. The middle-aged male teacher who was laughing on the sofa stood up and said to me, "Let's talk outside." He put on his coat and carefully adjusted his collar. Although the teacher is not tall, he is dignified and meticulous, which makes people respect him.
There is a small garden downstairs in the Academy of Social Sciences. We walked slowly, but we walked several times. The teacher asked me what I wanted to learn, and I said I wanted to be a dream of red mansions. The teacher won't know how sad and sad I was at that time. I liked A Dream of Red Mansions very much when I was in middle school. I left Beijing to study a dream of red mansions, and I have no regrets. I watched it more than 30 times, made a chronology and saved a lot of information, but I found the road ahead more and more difficult and lonely. When I was in high school, more than a dozen people could discuss a dream of red mansions enthusiastically, while when I was an undergraduate, I only had one or two confidants. Later, even my "Jia Baoyu" didn't insist on doing a dream of red mansions. My parents and teachers told me that redology was too difficult to do and advised me to change my direction. I was almost desperate, and my master's thesis avoided redology. After work, I drifted away from A Dream of Red Mansions. But when teacher Damian asked me what I wanted to do, I searched my knowledge pool everywhere and found that I had nothing but a dream of red mansions. When I said I wanted to be a dream of red mansions, I felt weak and drummed. Who knows that teacher Damien not only didn't hit me, but also said it happily. He asked me many questions about a dream of red mansions. I thought it had been shelved for many years, and I don't remember it clearly, but I was surprised to find that the knowledge was still hidden in my heart. With a little guidance, it will be like a gurgling spring.
It's cold, but my heart is warm. Only then did I dare not be a student of Mr. Damian, but made up my mind to work hard and leave the bank by my own efforts. In the next four months, I began to go all out to review for the exam. Japanese is unreliable. I signed up for Cobo English class customized by New Oriental. I go to work on weekdays and attend classes on weekends. There used to be 29 days before and after the Spring Festival. My desk is full of review materials and notes, so taking the exam has become my most important thing. Thanks to my colleagues Jing Yu, Xiao Wei and Ge Yuan, especially my master Young. Only Brother Yang and I are working on projects in the centralized procurement center. After I told him that I was going to prepare for the exam, he fully supported me and took on all the work. When the project is concentrated, he is busy until 90 o'clock every night. He never asked me to work overtime, even if I was so tired that I had a fever. I am grateful to him, and I feel guilty. I was in poor health during the period before I left my job, so I couldn't share the work for him. Without the support, encouragement, companionship and cover of these colleagues, I could not have survived those two long years, let alone reviewed with peace of mind and won the championship in one fell swoop.
Thanks to my cousin Yang Yang. Although she always felt that she was living in my shadow when she was a child, I actually admired her and tried to learn from her when I grew up. When I hesitated to take the doctor's exam, she had made up her mind to take the postgraduate entrance examination across the first-level discipline, face the difficulties and prepare for the exam crazily. Her daily status is "I love learning, and learning makes me happy". "It's not an alarm clock that wakes me up, it's a dream". The whole person is as cute and inspirational as chicken blood. Her spirit inspired me, and I thought I would get old if I didn't fight for it, so I burned my bridges and studied with her.
It is very reasonable to reward diligence by heaven. In March, my sister and I passed the exam one after another. Grandpa said happily to everyone.
My sister got what she wanted when she passed the exam, but I got it by mistake. My first choice is to take the National People's Congress for a master's degree. Who knows that English, which I am most worried about, crossed the line by more than ten points, but it was brushed down because of professional courses. I'm confused. I know all the teachers who gave the questions and even listened to their classes. The question is half right, and the way to answer it is according to what the old teacher said the year before. How could it be wrong? The examination of the National People's Congress is one week earlier than that of the Academy of Social Sciences. When the National People's Congress was released, I was so desperate that I sat in the corridor of my unit at noon and called Teacher Wang Xin, crying bitterly. Teacher Wang Xin had no choice but to comfort me again and again and let me take the exam again next year. On the day of the written test of the Chinese Academy of Social Sciences, the fog filled the air. I haven't recovered from the disappointment of the National People's Congress. If teacher Damin hadn't called to encourage me and even patiently taught me logic and narrative, I might not be in the mood to take the exam.
The teacher said I was calm during the interview, but Kan Kan talked about it. Some students asked me why I was not nervous at all. That's because I didn't do my homework in advance, and I don't know how powerful scholars across the street are asking questions. I just thought it was a row of kind elders who knew everything and said everything, and said whatever they wanted. It's simple. Newborn calves are not afraid of tigers. After entering the school, I gradually got to know them and was impressed. I dare not talk big anymore.
Anyway, I successfully passed the written test and interview, and the teacher also won two places, and admitted two students without exception. The spring of 20 17 is particularly bright in my eyes. Before that, I never knew that there was such a beautiful spring in Beijing. I didn't even go sightseeing and enjoy flowers for many years. That spring, I sneaked out to visit the park almost every day during my lunch break. Magnolia in Zhongshan Park, Peony in Jingshan Park, Begonia in Grand View Garden and cherry blossoms in Yuyuantan all share my joy. It's really "the spring breeze is proud of horseshoe disease, and you can see all the Chang 'an flowers in one day." "
On July 15, the anniversary of my two years working in a bank, I went through the resignation formalities. After another month of handover, I completely got rid of the shackles of work. I don't regret giving up this risk-free, low-pressure, high-return, stable and decent job. It's not that I'm not good enough, it's that I'm not suitable.
Bo has many classes, especially English classes on Tuesday. The foreign teachers who teach reading and writing in the morning and afternoon are very strict and have a hot temper, which makes us miserable. But I think it's nothing compared with the boring work in the bank. Every morning when I get up early and open my eyes, I will say to myself, "I am so happy every day now!" " "Once again, at the Teacher's Day party, Teacher Wang Xin and my classmates were happy for me when they saw my new look. My parents didn't agree with me at first, and they didn't want me to leave, but they were really happy to see that I finally understood what kind of life I wanted, and they also made me willful.
If I really become a professor one day, it must be thanks to Mr. Damian. I have always lived an easy life, with a gentle temperament. I am competitive in my bones, but not too strong. Without being forced, I would be lazy and passive. As a shrimp, I feel honored that Mr Damien can take the time to see me. It's really beyond my expectation that he likes me so much. What makes me even more flattered is that the teacher is approachable, has no shelf, and is particularly polite when talking and sending messages. Every time I see the teacher call me "you" and say "Damian nods", I am too surprised to kneel down. Teachers are particularly kind to our students, which is reflected in meticulous care and extremely responsible guidance. There was a time when we had a meeting every week to report the progress of our study to the teacher, but the second time it was changed to once every two or three weeks. Every time we reported, everyone was very nervous and tired, but they benefited a lot and rejoiced. Discussions between the same students are in full swing and often inspire each other. Each seminar lasts for one and a half hours, and two hours is not enough. Not only I, but also my parents, my husband and even my kitten like to play truant. Compared with Bo Yi's, my present thesis has really improved a lot. My confidence is increasing day by day, because my teacher always praises me. Even when I go back to school, I see some top scholars, and they all have a look of "I've heard so much about you". In order not to embarrass the teacher, I have to do my best.
Not only in study, but also in life. I am sick, and the teacher is particularly distressed and asks questions from time to time. Lovelorn, made a decadent circle of friends. The teacher called me to comfort me first, and then she helped me pay attention to the excellent boys. The first time I met my fiance (now my husband ~), the first thing the teacher said to him was "You are not good enough for our girl". The teacher really regards me as her daughter and the apple of her eye. He is my mentor, my relatives, my Bole and my idol.
If I hadn't met Mr. Wang Xin and Mr. Daming, I would have wasted all my spirit and aura and my life in the small station on the shore. I am very fortunate that I have always had a mentor to guide and help me in my life journey for more than 30 years. Thanks to all the teachers who helped me to solve my doubts, including the Institute of Literature of China Academy of Social Sciences, Renmin University, Shandong University and Taiwan Province University of Political Science. Teacher Zheng Chun's warm and sweet classroom made us forget the cold wind whistling outside the window and the loneliness of leaving home. Teacher Zheng Xunzuo himself was a representative of Wei and Jin Dynasties, and I still remember his hearty laughter. Teacher Tang Ziheng has a beautiful face, and the traditional blackboard writing is amazing. Teacher Zhimei Sun was kind and generous, and took pains to help me revise my graduation thesis. Although I deeply regret that I didn't get an excellent grade, my teacher's teaching and encouragement will never forget me. Professor Huang Qingsheng from Taiwan Province University of Political Science showed me many works on redology research, and officially took me into the research field. I was ashamed that I couldn't go to Taiwan Province Province to study for a master's degree because I couldn't bear to leave home, and then I lost contact with Mr. Huang. See you after many years, she still remembers me and cares about my future; Gentle teacher, creative teacher, gentle and calm teacher Meng, the teacher whose sentence ends with "right", I appreciate my teacher Xu very much, the teacher who died suddenly, and the teacher Leng. Thank them for their inculcation, their careful care, and their warmth and strength. Thanks to Mr. Shi Changyu, Mr. Shi Lei, Mr. Xia Wei, Mr. Zhang Yun and Mr. Hu Qing for their professional guidance. Thank you for your appreciation and support from the editorial department of A Dream of Red Mansions, Social Science Forum, Frontier and Review of Ancient Literature and Journal of Xiamen University. Thanks to my Chinese teachers in Beijing Normal University Experimental Middle School in junior high school and Beijing No.8 Middle School in senior high school, they laid a good foundation for me, and also made me fall in love with Chinese and a dream of red mansions and found a beautiful spiritual home.
Thanks to my classmates, classmates and friends. I have two excellent teachers who are like-minded, inspiring, encouraging, learning and helping each other. Our teacher's tradition is passed down from generation to generation, and our teacher's spirit will be carried forward. I am a very sensitive person. When I was young, I was extreme and pessimistic. I have made some progress in the past two years, but I still give my friends trouble. Along the way, my friends took care of me, tolerated me and helped me through one difficulty after another. Thanks to junior high school girlfriends, Wang Jing, and senior high school girlfriends, Wei Wei, Xuan, Cheng, Xiao Yu, Hu Jie, Yi Si and Huashan. Although we are scattered all over the world and busy, our friendship will not be indifferent because of the barriers of time and region. I hope you can also make a difference in your respective fields of work, and I hope you will be safe, happy and all the best.
Thanks to my high school friends Anji and Longshan. Although we have completely lost contact now, I am deeply grateful to them. Without them, it is difficult for me to get out, whether it is the pain of frustrated first love or the frustration of losing the college entrance examination. In order to gain their sympathy, I told too many lies, and later I broke up with them heartlessly. That's not the right way to open friendship, but when I understand, I have lost this most precious friendship. I can't let go in my heart, but I don't have the courage to walk into their lives again. I will only cry and repent in my dreams. If we can meet again, I really want to say to my face, "I finally learned how to live a good life." What can I do for you? "
Thanks to Wen Jing. She knows me best and is most worried about me. The four years I spent with her day and night were the most fragile years in my body and mind, and I was in a poor state, even hovering on the edge of life and death. Even after that time, when I got my master's degree and doctor's degree, I still repeated it from time to time. Every time I despair, only she can keep me. Over the years, she has shed too many tears and cared too much about me. Her persistence is my chance to enjoy a better life now.
Thanks to my bosom friend Zhao Xin. He came out of the book, just like Jia Baoyu and Huang Jingren. The spring of freshman year, the best years, indulging in the world of a dream of red mansions together is one of the best memories in my life. You are my bosom friend, and I can be your bosom friend. It is difficult to find a bosom friend in the vast sea of people, but this person is enough.
I can thank Lan Yan's bosom friend blatantly, because I know my husband will not be jealous. He is not Jia Baoyu, but he is more suitable for me than Jia Baoyu. He is optimistic, kind, gentle and generous, which gives me a great sense of security. Growing up, I received too much attention from people around me. Parents, relatives and friends have virtually added a lot of pressure to me. I have been very careful and tired. He is a completely different person, with a completely different mentality. He is persistent and diligent, but as leisurely and carefree as a wild crane. When I first got married, I was very unhappy with his carelessness and always found fault with all the details of his life. He is still smiling and carefree, neither arguing with me nor caring about me. Gradually, I found myself more relaxed, more cheerful, more happy and more fond of him. More importantly, he helped me untie my heart knot for many years, reconcile with those who hated before, reconcile with the world and reconcile with myself. He took me out of the ivory tower and into real life, which made me feel like fireworks. Now I no longer resist contact with people, I can naturally sign my real name instead of using a pseudonym, and I have unlimited hopes and hopes for the future. Thanks to him, he has made me a better person, and he is my solid support.
Thanks to my relatives. My parents have taken care of me for more than 30 years, and it is really not easy to tolerate my willfulness when I am tired. I am always rebellious, always fighting, and creating difficulties for them without difficulties. They followed me as much as possible and created all favorable conditions for me. Such good parents are really rare in the world. Unfortunately, I can't guarantee that everything will be obedient, but I will try my best to be happy and make them happy. My grandparents are the source of my strength. It's a pity that my grandfather is gone. He will be very happy to see my doctor graduate. Thanks to my aunt, she fully supports any decision I make. I like menstruation since I was a child. She was my goddess, my role model, and later she became my matchmaker. I hope I can be as independent as her, with a successful career, a happy family and a happy child. Speaking of graduation thesis, I have to thank my cousin again. As an English major, she helped me translate English abstracts to solve my urgent needs. Besides, she took me to exercise and helped me find a new way of life.
Thanks to the editors and teachers of People's Education Publishing House and Wei Yan Media Co., Ltd., I prefer writing to studying. Their appreciation and encouragement made me realize my dream, injected inspiration into my writing and spread my literary talents one by one. To sum up, in addition to a doctoral thesis of 1 1 10,000 words, I have saved 12 academic papers, 7 manuscripts, 2 proofreading manuscripts and more than one million words in these four years. Among them, A Dream of Red Mansions has been published with excellent evaluation. Classic Story of a Dream of Red Mansions, A Dream of Red Mansions Guide and Six Chapters of a Floating Life have been signed and will be published at the end of this year. What I am most proud of is that my own proofreading of A Dream of Red Mansions has also been included in the publishing plan and is in full swing. It would be perfect if the novel "Tea Sansheng" could also be published ~
When P.S. defended, the teacher read my achievements during my doctoral period in my postscript and lamented whether I still had time to sleep. Actually, this is an abridged version of Mr. Damien. Will Mr. Yu be even more surprised if he sees the actual situation above ~
By the way, I want to thank my kitten in particular. To be exact, it is a kitten that my husband has raised since childhood. Cats can not only cure all diseases, but also bring inspiration and strength. She is smart, smart, considerate and lovely. Sleep well when you are busy at work. When you are tired, hold her and suck her. She will accompany me when I am sick, and she will comfort me when I pretend to cry. If I quarrel with her father, she will come and stop the fight at once. It's a genius. Reading, writing, playing the piano, playing with cats, the years are quiet.
Looking back on the doctor's four years: saving credits in Bo Yi class, focusing on English, being sick; Boer falls in love, cures illness, falls out of love, falls in love again, and marries in a flash; Bo San: plan a grand wedding and thank-you banquet, start the crazy writing mode during the epidemic period, complete the mutual proofreading of the finished version and the fat version of A Dream of Red Mansions, and build the framework of graduation thesis; Bos: Buy a house and decorate it. After finishing your graduation thesis, make persistent efforts to continue several manuscripts.
In the past four years, there have been bitterness and sweetness, blood and tears. I live a full, calm and happy life. Everything is the best arrangement. Thank you again for your help and concern! I will continue to work hard, dare not say what brilliant achievements I have made, at least I will not live up to my youth, change my original intention and waste my life.
Note 1: When we first met, I really didn't realize that Mr. Daming was older than my father. When I got home, I told my parents that the teacher was only in her fifties.