We are born as human beings, living alone and strongly in this vast sea of people. Sometimes we may really need to join some groups to find our sense of existence, but we don't have to stick to the same goal stubbornly.
Growing up, there seems to be no shortage of such people around him. Obviously, everyone refused him, but he still insisted on trying to please them, but in the end he was black and blue all over himself. I don't know if it's because I pay too much attention to the little things in life or because there are actually many such phenomena, as if I can feel them more or less as long as I observe them with my heart, among which my junior high school classmates impressed me deeply.
From the day I first met her, she liked to call herself "girl". She looks lively, but she doesn't like cleanliness, but in a few days, she quietly evolved into an object that everyone doesn't like. According to common sense, everyone you meet on the first day of your new school will silently become their future friends, but she is an exception.
There will always be a few girls who like to dress up and pursue fashion in each class, and there will always be a few girls who don't like to follow the trend and live simply. I thought the girl who called herself a "girl" was the latter, but I was wrong. Obviously, there seems to be no intersection between these two kinds of people, but the "girl" has to stick with them all day, others ignore her, and then go to find a quiet girl angrily.
Maybe every girl has a fashion dream in her heart. "Girl" always talks about such topics as the lipstick is beautiful, the mask is easy to use or the eye shadow is suitable for her in front of girls who don't like to discuss cosmetics. Occasionally, I can obviously see someone looking at her with a pair of impatient eyes. Maybe she just said "Go away", or maybe she opened her mouth but didn't know what to say.
In the years of junior high school, "girls" have been wandering between the girls who love to dress up and the popular girls. I think her heart should be extremely eager to integrate into the "fashion circle" in her heart, but she has been unable to find a suitable reason, and naturally there is no way to let others accept her. After all, her self-image may be more suitable for the latter.
I think she clearly knows that she can't get into that circle, but she still holds a deep expectation that she can share some limited bags with her when others are in a good mood. Maybe a smiling face at a certain moment can make her feel extremely satisfied! But in the end, she didn't go in. It was not until a year after she dropped out of school that the students asked which students had transferred to another school. Everyone talked for a long time but couldn't remember who.
If it is not a circle of life and death, don't melt what you can't melt. Being a clown all the time really hurts people who love you, and there will always be people who understand you to see your unique beauty.