You should be a transvestite. You are too curious about things you have never tried, which belongs to the "rebellious psychology" of social morality, public opinion and mainstream. Don't worry too much without affecting normal work life and interpersonal communication. You will gradually change and improve with age and experience. You say that your sexual orientation is normal and you don't like homosexuality, which means that you haven't fundamentally changed. It is suggested to contact and participate in some popular male entertainment and activities, such as basketball, football, rugby and other large-scale ball games. You can also exercise properly, do more physical and mental exercises, and cultivate and increase some male masculinity. You need to face yourself bravely, not escape and inferiority. When dealing with women, we should think and act from the perspective of men, avoid excessive "sisterhood" and excessive fear of "women", and just communicate normally. You can also consult a psychologist as appropriate. I hope it helps you.