A few days ago, when it was not April Fool's Day, I suddenly mentioned the topic of April Fool's Day when chatting with my roommate. I said that a few years ago, I really regarded April Fool's Day as a holiday, thinking about who to play tricks on, and most importantly, there were really many people who finally said "I like you" to their loved ones in the name of April Fool's Day.

Roommate agreed: Yes, yes, every April Fool's Day, there are always a bunch of jokes on the Internet, all of which are love. It seems that people you like in your heart will have a Valentine's Day and become lovers' festivals. A good April Fool's Day in the West must be a half-true and half-false confession festival. How much love can't be said

I said with a smile, maybe for some people, they only dare to tell the truth in the name of big adventure. In the face of love, we all feel inferior and lack courage, afraid of being rejected, and afraid that even friends can't be friends after opening their mouths. Perhaps the most important thing is that they really don't like you, and your love is real. But if you ask him to say "I like you", he will reply.

But my love for him is real. Everyone who secretly loves him is afraid that he knows what he thinks and wants him to know what he likes, so we sincerely but seriously want you to know that I like you, such as the anonymous confession note when I was studying, or the snacks she likes secretly stuffed into her desk during class, or the anonymous chat launched by QQ a long time ago. All this reveals that we still want to tell that person what we like, just.

We just need to joke in the name of April Fool's Day, but in fact, I love you.

2.

Continuing the above conversation, after discussing the topic of April Fool's Day confession with my roommate, I suddenly made a summary: April Fool's Day is coming, and I don't even have a confession partner. My roommates all said with a smile, it's really sad.

Wuhan is a city with almost no spring and autumn. Many times, it transits directly to summer at the speed of your unresponsiveness. It rained for half a month, and I was still wearing a cotton-padded jacket a few days ago. The sun has cleared up these days, and I feel that summer is coming. Daily life is basically a four-point line of library, dormitory, canteen and gym. Maybe it's because I just watched the little sparrow eating ice cream the night before and pulled two in the afternoon.

I am absorbed in stuffing ice cream into my mouth with a small wooden spoon, and my eyes never miss the opportunity to look around. Perhaps the weather is really good recently, and many young couples come out hand in hand. In the words of my friends, I have never found that young couples in our school have eaten all the dog food in one day for so many years. Those who snuggle in the sun under the cherry trees, those who lie on the hillside of lovers, and even those who walk on the road, all hold hands and hold their waists.

As a senior, it's a bit immoral to stare at small fresh meat, watch them fall in love, and evaluate whether boys are good-looking or girls are good-looking, but it's probably the only bad hobby left for senior. They never miss the opportunity to gossip in an anxious and tense life, and they never bring too much malice. Perhaps the biggest malice is their anger at young couples who abuse dogs openly.

Several couples passed right in front of us. We stare at others while waiting for them to go away. We talked quietly about whether girls are better looking or boys are more handsome. We really studied several couples. One of our roommates, who usually speaks directly, suddenly said: Hey, how did I find that all those ugly boys have girlfriends? I stifled my laughter and pretended to be serious: I second the motion.

Then, the only roommate who has a date simply asks us: Then why don't you two have boyfriends? This sentence is wonderful. As soon as she finished, all three of us burst out laughing.

Maybe it is ugly, maybe we are too demanding, maybe there is an impossible person in our hearts, and the last possibility feels a little bigger.

3.

The depressed mood for a long time the other day finally returned to normal. When eating, Nana said, Dragon, you have mentioned him less and less recently, and you have told us less and less about him. I hesitated and said, is this progress? I finally had to let him go. She nodded seriously and said, yes, you did the right thing.

A week ago, I couldn't get rid of the infringement of my book with others for a long time. I was particularly helpless at that time. A sister who was together abandoned us for some reason. Even if the two abandoned people didn't say anything, we all knew in our hearts that money meets people's hearts. After this incident, I finally saw a person's character clearly. I thought a lot about selfishness, humanity and means.

When I called the editor of the publishing house and he dragged me from 9 am to 7 pm, my heart was cold, too. He said to solve this problem for the remaining two of us at 7: 30, but I called him at 7: 30, and he scolded me on the phone and said, I'm drinking outside, can you not call me? The more you rush me, the less I will solve your problem, which will drag you to death.

Although I recorded it at that time, my lawyer sister said that she could sue them for personal attacks on me with this alone. However, my trust in people has decreased again and again. When I lost my temper and complained that I was still too weak because of his words, he didn't care from beginning to end. He always cared about his own interests and what he should care about. It seems that he suddenly let go at that moment, so I think that's it.

Once I chatted with my roommate and talked about a topic. They said, changchang, who do you think is important, or are we important? I really can't find a suitable identity for you in my life, so I'll make do with calling you XXX.

At that time, I answered directly without thinking. Of course, you are important. Can he accompany me to eat, sleep, chat and play games, encourage me when I comfort, coax me when I am angry, and accommodate me when I am in a bad mood? Why do you still like him when he can't accompany me at all?

This is my original words, which I didn't even realize was selfish, and it may be the truest idea in my heart.

I used to think that love should be selfless. If you don't expect anything in return, be kind to him. Since you are happy with him, be nice to him. He will always see your kindness. I just suddenly want to be selfish and love selfish. I don't want to give and be kind to you anymore. In fact, sometimes my heart is very uncertain. You are such a heartless person. Will you understand me if I treat you well? Maybe it will only be regarded as.

So I'm going to live a selfish life this time. If I like you, I only hope you like me. If I don't like it, I don't like you. Finally, I became a selfish ghost, and I love to care about my willfulness in love, but my plan has always been simple, either your love or my happiness. I don't want to be tied to you anymore. I deliberately used various reasons. If I break up one day, so will I.

So be it.

Happy April Fool's Day, I really hate you.

Columnist, invited author of many mainstream media, a little fresh spirit, firmly believe that the journey of a beautiful girl is a sea of stars, and once published "How can I know what to stick to? Rely on dead support ",official WeChat account: Wenchang (ID: Wenchang), Sina Weibo @ Wenchang Bear.