1

Bang! That's the sound of the kettle falling to the ground.

Xiaolan took a deep breath and covered her ears.

But the man's insults from the living room are getting louder and louder and more filthy.

With a bang, Lan Xiao's door was slammed open.

She suddenly looked up and saw the man who could be called her father for the time being stumbling towards her.

Lan Xiao didn't hide, because according to past experience, if he did, he would get more.

She quietly looked at her stepfather, who was ferocious because of drunkenness, and her mother, who was weak and crying behind her, and quietly waited for her stepfather's slap to fall on her face.

Anyway ... after he beat his mother, he will beat himself.

Just get used to it.

After the violence, the drunk soon felt tired, and he lay lazily on the sofa. After a long time, Xiaolan heard his snoring, and Xiaolan's heart was put down. She got a few mouthfuls and her face was numb and not painful.

Her timid mother, always opinionated, shrank in the bedroom and cried. She listened to the faint cry and felt helpless.

Mother despairs of life and feels guilty about herself, but the way she fights life is to shrink in the corner and cry.

She went out of the room and opened the refrigerator in the dining room. If her stepfather wakes up and sees that she doesn't cook, he will beat and scold her again.

But there is nothing in the refrigerator.

Lan Xiao touched her swollen face. She went back to her room, took a mask and money, and planned to go out and buy something to eat.

After she put on her shoes and pushed the door open, she suddenly saw the boy standing in the corridor.

It is her junior, Zhou Ming.

Zhou Ming is one year younger than her. She is a senior three student and Zhou Ming is a senior two student. Lan Xiao is as thin and weak as a pupil, but Zhou Ming is tall and fat. The shadow of him standing in the corridor almost surrounded Lan Xiao.

After seeing Xiao Lan, he quickly moved his clumsy body over. Lan Xiao shook his head and ran to him, walking side by side with him.

Fortunately, the corridors are spacious. Fortunately, Lan Xiao is thinner.

Because Zhou Ming was in poor health as a child, he took a lot of hormones. He was as fat as a ball when he was only in the second grade.

He gasped slightly as he spoke. "Did your father hit you again?"

"hmm." Little blue well. She looked up at Zhou Ming. Zhou Ming's face is fat like a hamster. He has fair skin and obvious bruises on his forehead.

Lan Xiao said in a bad tone, "What happened to your forehead?"

"Hit ... hit, I accidentally hit." Zhou Ming's eyes dodged. Lan Xiao made him a little shy. He reached out and touched his chin primly.

"Liar, you were bullied by that gangster in Class Three again?"

"No ..." Zhou Ming whispered.

Lan Xiaoqi came at once, and she couldn't help criticizing Zhou Ming Dow: "Can't you work harder? He has bullied you several times. Let's sue the teacher together tomorrow. I don't believe the teacher ignores him. "

"Don't go." Zhou Ming pulled Lan Xiao's sleeve. Gangsters always like fierce fighting. He was afraid that the gangsters would retaliate against Lan Xiao.

"Don't go, I'll let my father find a teacher." Zhou Ming whispered that he looked at Lan Xiao wearing a mask, his eyes were red and swollen, and he was worried about him, and his heart was sour and warm.

They grew up in a neighborhood. In primary school, he was fat and stupid, and he was always bullied.

Once he was beaten by a group of bad boys, Lan Xiao suddenly appeared in front of him. The thin little girl picked up a stick from the ground as if she had infinite strength and beat the bad children away.

After Lan Xiao drove those people away, he came over and held out his hand to pull him up curled up on the ground.

Lan Xiao asked him, "Why did you fight them alone?"

He moved his chubby face and said, "Because they called my father names."

2

Just for an instant, the precocious Xiao Lan understood.

Zhou Ming's father is different from other fathers. People in the community found this thing very early.

Zhou Ming's family has no mother. His father is like his mother. Although the thin and white man always coughs, he is very gentle.

Zhou Ming lives across the street from Xiao Lan's house. Lan Xiao can sometimes see it at school. After Zhou Ming's father gently tied a red scarf for Zhou Ming, he asked Zhou Ming to go home early.

A man who can cook and take care of children by himself has become a topic of conversation in the community. After Zhou Ming's father refused to introduce him to his aunt many times, there were bad rumors in the community.

Xiao Lan learned about it from her stepfather.

The wretched man smiled and said, "Zhou Ming's father is disgusting and gay."

Although Zhou Ming was young, he also saw his father always following an uncle, saw his father and uncle kissing, and understood the unspeakable eyes of people around him.

Zhou Ming was isolated by the boys in the school. Everyone thinks that children raised by homosexuals will be gay, and it is disgusting to be liked by a fat gay.

After Zhou Ming was beaten several times, he gradually became silent and understood that only by narrowing his sense of existence would he not be bullied.

After being bullied, you can't tell dad, or dad will be sad.

The gossip in the community made my father very sad. He doesn't want to make his father more sad because of his own business.

Xiao Lan and Zhou Ming's community is a development zone, behind which is a wasteland, and houses are still being built.

After being beaten, Lan Xiao likes to run to the back wasteland and stare at the high-piled steel bars in a daze.

She was in a daze until one day she saw Zhou Ming, and she seemed to have found her own kind.

Girls who are subjected to domestic violence and boys who are subjected to school violence naturally come together.

Both of them are like each other's light, which suddenly shines into each other's hearts.

After Xiao Lan and Zhou Ming finished shopping, Zhou Ming bought two bags of potato chips and stuffed them into Lan Xiao's basket. Lan Xiao actually likes to eat snacks, but she can't afford to buy them at home. Zhou Ming's family conditions are very good and he has a lot of pocket money. He often buys some snacks for Lan Xiao.

Lan Xiao didn't refuse. As I have said many times before, Zhou Ming canceled as usual. She knew this was Zhou Ming's intention, and Zhou Ming treated her in this way.

Zhou: "Come to my house to study together in the evening."

He was afraid that Lan Xiao's stepfather would beat Lan Xiao again.

Xiao Lan nodded and agreed.

Zhou Ming wanted to make Lan Xiao happy, so he said in a relaxed tone, "Lan Xiao, the voice of youth wrote back to me."

"Really?" Lan Xiao some surprise. Voice of Youth is the hottest youth magazine at present. It is estimated that I will receive thousands of letters a month, but I didn't expect to reply to Zhou Ming's letter.

"Well, I have communicated with the Voice of Youth two or three times. They said that my dad is not a pervert, and my dad is a different kind in this world. " Speaking of which, Zhou Ming's head slightly raised, a little proud.

"hmm." Small blue see Zhou Ming, in the heart also happy for him.

Zhou Ming's personality is somewhat inferior. The communication with Voice of Youth can help Zhou Ming find some self-confidence, which is the comfort when Zhou Ming is scared and helpless.

In the evening, Lan Xiao went to Zhou Ming's home to study. Zhou Ming's father was very happy when he saw Xiao Lan. He always feels that his son is too lonely. Having Lan Xiao as a friend can make his son less lonely.

Zhou Ming gently took out drinks and snacks to entertain Lan Xiao.

Lan Xiao looked at the gentle Zhou Ming's father. She thinks Zhou Ming is nothing like his father.

Zhou Ming's father's eyes are thin and long, with a single eyelid, but Zhou Ming's eyes are double eyelids. If not all the fat on his face and his eyes are squeezed out, Zhou Ming's eyes should be charming and his eyelashes are like a small fan.

Small blue, her chin cupped in, looked at Zhou Ming's head and sighed.

If it weren't for Zhou Ming's hormones, he wouldn't be so fat.

three

There are more and more books to hand in next semester in senior three, and Lan Xiao's stepfather loses his temper for longer and longer.

No wonder his stepfather is the only economic pillar of Xiao Lan's family. Lan Xiao's mother is sickly and has no value except a decent face and a gentle temper.

Lan Xiao sometimes hates her mother, saying that being a mother is just, but her mother has always been so weak.

Even every time I see her being beaten by her stepfather, my mother just hides in the room and cries instead of stopping her.

Every time she was beaten, she resented the world and herself in this despicable environment.

No one can save her. She seems to be in trouble.

Lan Xiao wants to die very much.

She stood by the window with a knife. She wanted to get up the courage to cut it off.

But she suddenly hesitated. She stood at the window and saw Zhou Ming downstairs.

Fat body, struggling to look back at her window.

She opened the window and saw Zhou Ming smiling at her.

Lan Xiao's eyes are a little sour, and she particularly wants to cry, but she feels that Zhou Ming is more helpless than her. She should be like a big sister and should not expose her vulnerability to Zhou Ming.

She touched her mouth reluctantly and gave him a smile.

She saw Zhou Ming knocking at her door. She opened the door and there was a piece of chocolate on the stall. After she got the chocolate, she went back to the window and waved to Zhou Ming. Zhou Ming showed a happy expression.

Like a child.

Later, every time Lan Xiao was beaten, she could find snacks, sometimes jelly and sometimes sugar, in the stalls in the corridor.

Every time she gets these snacks, Xiao Lan gives her great encouragement.

She's not alone.

Lan Xiao cheered herself up, and when she went to college, she could take a part-time job.

In the difficult days of senior three, Zhou Ming accompanied Lan Xiao, and Lan Xiao got good grades in the college entrance examination. She applied for a very good university, in a city, a metropolis far from her small town.

When he received the admission notice, his stepfather actually showed a rare smile. When she went out to buy wine, she told the boss of the canteen that his daughter had been admitted to a good university.

Xiao Lan and Zhou Ming never met again and occasionally contacted each other on qq.

However, after Zhou Ming entered senior three, he seldom contacted Lan Xiao. It's just that Lan Xiao keeps asking him how he's doing and how he's doing. Zhou Ming's answer is very simple.

Lan Xiao was a little frustrated. Did Zhou Ming forget her?

four

I was at the railway station when I saw Zhou Ming again.

Lan Xiao was very excited.

Zhou Ming told her some time ago that he was admitted to her school and would be her junior in the future.

When the new student reports for duty, Zhou Ming wants Lan Xiao to pick him up.

Small blue nature is agreed.

After Zhou Ming's train arrived at the station, Lan Xiao leaned out to look for Zhou Ming in the crowd, but he couldn't find him.

Just as she was wondering, she felt someone patted her behind her.

She hurriedly turned around and saw a tall and thin teenager wearing a sweater and jeans.

She glanced at it and couldn't help exclaiming.

When did Zhou Ming get thinner? He looks like a different person, but for those big round peach eyes, she really didn't see it.

Lan Xiao asked tentatively, "Zhou Ming?"

Zhou Mingchong smiled at her, her eyes were bright, and she smiled and showed two small tiger teeth. "Senior."

Lan Xiao excitedly surrounded him and said, "Zhou Ming, you have lost weight. You are really too thin. Now, God, you are a handsome boy. "

Lan Xiao didn't lie. Zhou Ming is really handsome now. He is tall and thin and has a lovely face. When he goes to college, he will be handed a love letter by his junior.

"Well, the thin one in senior three." Zhou Ming responded gently, looking at Xiao Lanhong's face and mouth, he couldn't help but stretch out his hand and touch Lan Xiao's head.

"Hey, what are you doing? You can't touch your sister's head. " Xiao Lan covered her head and blushed.

A pair of watery eyes pretended to stare at Zhou Ming angrily.

Zhou Ming thought that Xiaolan was angry, and nervously held one hand and bowed his head to apologize to Xiaolan.

Seeing his confusion, Xiao Lan smiled and said, "Well, I'm kidding. Let's leave now. The welcome car is in front. "

Then, he led Zhou Ming forward.

Zhou Ming looked at Xiao Lan skipping ahead with her suitcase and sipped her lips.

Lan Xiao is much more lively and looks more confident.

When he followed her to the welcome point, he saw Xiao Lan talking to other elders and laughing happily.

His hand holding the tie rod could not help tightening. Xiao Lan, is there any other sunshine? Lan Xiao is no longer the girl who snuggled up to him. He is no longer the only one in her world.

Lan Xiao doesn't know Zhou Ming's complicated psychology. She thinks Zhou Ming and her school are really great. Zhou Ming is her childhood friend.

Just like when I was a child, Zhou Ming and her went to college in pairs, and they basically ate together and studied in the library.

Two people naturally become boyfriend and girlfriend, and no one needs to confess. One night, when Zhou Ming sent Lan Xiao back to the dormitory, he naturally held her hand.

But Lan Xiao was a little worried. She sometimes lets Zhou Ming play basketball like other boys. Zhou Ming showed reluctance. Zhou Ming quickly moved out of the student dormitory and rented a house outside the school.

Zhou Ming is a bit too independent. She seems to have no other friends.

In addition, Zhou Ming is possessive. Zhou Ming doesn't like to see her go to the club, and she doesn't like to see her with other friends. As long as he sees her, he will be unhappy.

Although Zhou Ming never loses his temper with her, Xiao Lan and Zhou Ming have known each other for so many years, and she is very sensitive to feel that Zhou Ming is angry.

Zhou Ming doesn't talk much when he is angry.

Lan Xiao will coax him into laughing for a long time.

Besides, Xiao Lan and Zhou Ming are very comfortable together.

Lan Xiao knows more or less clearly what Zhou Ming's possessiveness is.

Zhou Ming is a very insecure child, so is she. The dark childhood left a great psychological shadow for them, which brought her inferiority and cowardice, and brought Zhou Ming a sense of security and a lack of love.

Zhou Ming is so eager for love that once he catches her, he doesn't want to let go.

Lan Xiao understood Zhou Ming, and she felt distressed for Zhou Ming, so she put up with Zhou Ming's almost paranoid behavior.

But Zhou Ming went too far.

Zhou Ming asked Lan Xiao to move out of the dormitory and live with him. Every time she goes out on a date, Zhou Ming checks her cell phone and looks at her chat history. Only after seeing her give a boy an expression will Zhou Ming become extremely depressed.

Zhou Ming is like an intimate hunter. As long as Xiao Lan takes a step back, he will ask for more. Lan Xiao's constant concessions made him happy, but she found that being swayed by considerations of gain and loss made Zhou Ming's spirit worse and worse. His eyes often turn black, and he becomes less and less fond of laughing.

Xiao Lan thought, did love make him like this?

Is it necessary to be together when a relationship is torture to both sides?

When Lan Xiao saw Zhou Ming again, she clearly saw that Zhou Ming's cheeks were deep, his eyes were covered with bones and his skin was pale. He stood downstairs in the dormitory waiting for her, thin and straight, like a bamboo.

Lan Xiao wants to cry. She knows that she is no longer his sunshine, but when she belongs to him, it becomes his burden.

He is too worried that he will leave. Even though he keeps promising to be with him, his sense of security has not increased, but has become less and less.

Lan Xiao can't save her anymore. She felt that her existence was torturing Zhou Ming.

She gritted her teeth and broke up with Zhou Ming.

She said it tactfully. She said to Zhou Ming, "Maybe it would be better for us to be apart for a while."

Zhou Ming is a very gentle person. He didn't commit any violence. He just nodded lightly and whispered, "I'm sorry."

Xiao Lan wanted to smile at him, but when she looked back, she couldn't help crying.

She really can't save him.

five

Zhou Ming returned to the rental house.

He turned on the tap and washed his face. Looking at his pale and emaciated self in the mirror, he couldn't help retching.

When I had dinner with Lan Xiao just now, he didn't show anything strange, did he?

After Lan Xiao left, he was beaten and forced to eat dirt. He has an eating disorder and lost 60 pounds a year.

Eat a small amount of food two days a week, and vomit most of the time.

He can't eat those delicious foods. Barbecue, hot pot and stir-fry all made him feel sick.

Every time I come back from dinner with Lan Xiao, he will throw up on the toilet.

Looking in the mirror, his face turned red, because he spit himself out with tears in his eyes, and he hated himself for being like this.

Without eating, he can only inject glucose to supplement the energy his body needs. He goes to the hospital once a week for glucose injection and sees a psychologist.

Sometimes I come back to bed after seeing a doctor and feel that it is not good to lose weight.

At least he felt heavy satisfaction when he was fat, but now he feels empty, like a big hole in his body, and nothing can be filled in.

When he established a relationship with Lan Xiao, he was really happy. He ate a piece of cake when he came back, but in the evening, he threw it all up again.

Lan Xiao asked him to play basketball, but in fact, he couldn't run on the playground like those healthy boys.

After his body emaciated at a speed visible to the naked eye, he was accompanied by gastritis caused by long-term vomiting.

He is often awakened by nightmares in the middle of the night and then loses sleep. He thought, is Xiao Lan really willing to be with him for such a bad self?

Zhou Ming is more and more afraid to see Lan Xiao touch other boys. Even if Lan Xiao smiles at other boys, he will be frightened.

He knew that he had asked too much of Lan Xiao, and only when Xiao Lan made concessions step by step could he fill his inner emptiness.

Let him feel love.

A few days ago, the doctor gave him a new case list.

Actually, he felt it when the doctor didn't open it.

Depression.

Holding a thin medical record, he looked up at the ceiling for a long time.

The ceiling is very white, the light is a bit dazzling, and it hurts my eyes.

He knows that he is a quagmire and an abyss, and he can't drag others into it.

It is not surprising that Lan Xiao proposed to break up. He knew that such a dark mouse could not be loved by others, and how could he bear to drag Lan Xiao to accompany him in pain?

Lan Xiao is out, which is good.

Zhou Ming washed his face and sat on the bed with his knees in his arms. He curled up and looked funny. If Lan Xiao sees it, he will laugh at him.

But Lan Xiao is not here.

He is the only person whose rental house is horribly quiet. He could only hear his shallow breathing and the sound of dripping water in the basin after the faucet was not tightened just now.

Zhou Ming felt a sharp pain in a certain part of his body, which made his spirit a little trance.

He burst into tears.

What's the point of living like this? Just someone else's burden.

Zhou Ming stumbled out of the bedroom, chasing after him like a monster. He picked up the fruit knife on the tea table. ...

Lan Xiao said goodbye. Instead of going back to the dormitory, she bought a cup of milk tea and sat in the library reading.

Reading, in fact, she is also uneasy, her brain is very chaotic, and she doesn't know what she is thinking in a daze.

She took a sip of warm milk tea and unconsciously rubbed her fingers on the delicate cover of the book.

She thought that when she first met Zhou Ming, he was still very fat. When she sat on the steps in a daze, she felt a shadow hanging over him. She turned to mumble something, but she saw Zhou Ming crying.

He wiped his tears with chubby hands and kept saying sorry, and her heart suddenly softened.

A tear fell on the cover of the book.

Lan Xiao sniffed, stood up and took out his mobile phone to call Zhou Ming.

I called one phone after another, but no one answered.

Small blue heart suddenly emerged a bad feeling.

For example, a monster suddenly appeared and swallowed her heart. She suddenly felt very scared. She frantically found the key to Zhou Ming's rental house from her bag, which Zhou Ming forced on her. She took the key and ran to Zhou Ming's rental house.

When she opened the door with the key, the picture in front of her made her eyes crack. (Novel title: "Boyfriend Got Depression", author: Deer pool. From: read some stories every day and watch more exciting content)