It's really scary to think about me in high school now. Short and fat, bangs always stick to the forehead like glue, which is greasy and ugly. I can't look after myself. One is that I am too busy studying to have time, and I am too lazy to take care of myself. I don't care about myself, let alone others treat you differently. No one has the obligation to explore your beautiful heart through your ugly appearance. So I was an ordinary ugly duckling in high school. Nothing grand or exciting. All I have is endless papers and never enough sleep.
School uniform is really a good thing. I should be one of the few people who are forced to wear school uniforms every day. I even like this compulsion, because everyone has to wear this wide school uniform, so no one can see my thick thighs hidden in the pants of the school uniform, and the gap between me and others is not so obvious. At least in my eyes, after wearing school uniforms, everyone's figure is "almost".
? Only after I went to college did I really realize that I was fat and should lose weight. The little girls around me are all white and beautiful, with long legs, slim, confident and lovely. Only I stand out from the crowd. With them, I feel like an ugly duckling with short legs and thick wooden legs. Don't talk to the opposite sex. Just talking to these beautiful and lively same-sex girls makes me feel nervous and uncomfortable. Inferiority sprouted and grew in my heart like a seed, and I became more and more dull and humble. How I wish I could be as tall, slim and confident as them.
When buying clothes, many clothes that look particularly good will be eclipsed when they are worn on themselves. "You can't wear this size. I'll try a bigger size for you." What about taking a bigger size? You're out of shape. You can't wear it at all. No matter how beautiful the clothes are, they can't cover the fat around the waist and the bulging belly; No matter how beautiful the skirt is, it is also destroyed on the fat thighs and thick calves. Fat people and thin people are just two worlds apart, okay? If you have a good figure, just wrap a piece of cloth, which makes people feel very attractive. He has a bad figure, is short and fat, and dressing up carefully is like wrapping a piece of pork belly, greasy and old-fashioned.
? When I saw a handsome guy, my first reaction was not to look at him more, but to lower my head, hoping that he would never see me. I don't want him to see me fat and ugly now. It is false to say that people around you have boyfriends, and it is also false to say that they like being single. It's just that I know better than anyone in my heart that people who can be with me like this must be disdainful. They are handsome and good-natured, and they all hold hands with those beautiful little girls.
? When I need an interview, I always wonder if I will be brushed off because of my appearance. Teachers don't raise their hands to answer questions, and even if they do, they don't want to be asked, for fear that everyone will stare at him and expose themselves to others' eyes.
? Every fat man who wants to lose weight, no matter how sunny and happy he is on the surface, must have some inferiority complex hidden in his heart. This is particularly evident in girls.
Since I made up my mind to start losing weight, I began to consult and learn something related to losing weight. I watched many great gods before and after losing weight on Zhihu, and my heart was full of envy and admiration. It also draws lessons from other people's successful examples and summarizes the methods. I gradually realized that the most important thing to lose weight is to control diet and exercise reasonably. This sentence is really a truth. For example, when I first started to lose weight, I always felt that I ran away today, so I can eat whatever I want today. In fact, running consumes only a small part of energy compared with daily eating, but desperate eating for this reason is not worth the candle. I began to record every meal I ate. I recorded everything I ate and calculated its calories. Say goodbye to my favorite snacks, desserts and drinks completely, and avoid oil, sweetness and high calories. Reduce the intake of staple food, but eating fruit and drinking yogurt every day is also part of a meal.
Although I also know that skipping dinner will be bad for my health, I can't care so much about losing weight. I didn't eat much at noon, mainly vegetables, and there was nothing in my stomach. When I sleep, I toss and turn in bed, my stomach growls and I can't sleep. My mind is full of pizza, barbecue, ice cream, potato chips, cakes ... "contraband" things during my weight loss. I swallowed, so I had to endure it by will. I can't help but open Taobao and watch all kinds of online celebrity snacks that make my mouth water. I think it's a great happiness to eat something like this at this time, but I still have to endure not placing orders, buying or eating, otherwise all my efforts will be in vain. I can only lie to myself that I must eat a lot of delicious food the next morning to make up for my empty stomach tonight, so that I can barely sleep and look forward to breakfast the next morning. In fact, I can't eat a lot of delicious food the next morning as I thought last night. One reason is that I have a poor appetite in the morning. More importantly, reason still works. What you eat in the morning is enough to provide some energy you need in the morning, usually a glass of pure milk, an apple and two spoonfuls of oats. Sometimes when I am free, I really can't help but want to eat snacks, so I just put it in my mouth and chew it, and then spit it out when I am addicted. I can't stand eating snacks myself, not only because the calories of junk food are too high, but also because I will be lucky if I eat it once, and there will be a second and third time in succession. ...
People are strange. The more I restrain myself from doing something, the more I can't help wanting to do it. Just like the more I tell myself that I must control my diet and reduce my intake, I always feel hungry when I am free. I want to eat something and feel powerless when I do anything, just looking forward to the arrival of dinner time. In fact, I know in my heart that although the food I eat now is much less than before, it is still enough for my daily basic metabolism, and I eat lighter and healthier.
I spent a lot of money to buy a cup I like very much, just to make myself drink more water. Although I don't have enough to eat every day, I can always drink enough water. Drinking water can not only improve your basal metabolic rate, but also make your skin look better and people more energetic. More importantly, drinking more water will make you feel full and supportive, which can reduce hunger.
In addition to making a fuss about eating, there is also making yourself as active as possible. My roommate said to get the courier, so I volunteered to accompany her. Although I don't want to get the courier, going out for a walk will consume more calories than sitting in the dormitory. When you are free, you can run freely in the playground or wherever you want to run and enjoy the scenery along the way. Or riding a bike alone in this city; Or ask a friend to go to the gym to play badminton. It's cold in winter and windy outside, so I climb stairs in the dormitory building, up and down. Never sit down and rest immediately after eating, but stand against the wall for half an hour or walk slowly. If you have time to exercise, you will always be active. Exercise consumes more calories than sitting and lying down. My roommates say that I am always idle and I don't know how tired I am. I also smiled and said, I have no choice but to be energetic, but I know better than anyone else. I just want to lose weight. If I want to lose weight, I should exercise more. Why don't I want to stay in the dormitory to watch TV dramas and eat snacks whenever I have time? Very comfortable, very comfortable, but if that's the case, I will have temporary happiness and comfort, and I can really feel that my body is slowly disappearing, which will make me happy and happy for a long time.
It may be painful to say these things, but in fact, when you really experience them, you don't find it difficult. Instead, I gradually like this healthy diet and more exercise life, which makes me feel happy from the inside out. Every time I compete successfully with snacks and the greedy self in my heart, my heart is full of pride, because at that time, I can really feel the power of my will and can't help but admire myself more.
After 1 1 year, I have successfully lost weight and become a goddess in others' mouths. I have a diet and exercise method that suits me. I won't be hungry at night and I won't be too wronged when I eat. After all, health is the most important thing. Now that I think about it, I don't know how I had such great determination and courage to persist in this way. In fact, losing weight brings a person more than just a change in body shape. If you lose weight, the five senses will naturally become three-dimensional and beautiful. A light diet and regular exercise will naturally make the skin delicate and shiny. More importantly, it brought me real self-confidence and made me accept myself and like myself. Now, I really appreciate that naive, self-abased and persistent me. It was she who showed me that I had such great potential and that I could be so beautiful. In the year of losing weight, I worked hard to exercise and control my diet for a long time, but my weight didn't change at all. Because I look at myself in the mirror, my legs are thin, my waist is thin, my face is small, and I am ecstatic to wear small clothes. Now think about it, all the efforts are worthwhile, and it also makes me grow into a better self.
Once a person is beautiful, he will not tolerate his ugliness. When you look at your previous photos when you are losing weight, you will find how stupid and ridiculous it is to feel cute even if you are fat. And if you like yourself now, you will try not to make yourself worse. Losing weight is a process of constantly competing with yourself. How can a person who can't even control his own body steer his own life? Losing weight is not only a simple process to make your fat and fat disappear, but also can exercise a person's willpower, endurance and endurance.
More importantly, you must take the first step. If you are not satisfied with your figure and want to change, then start. Do not hesitate. Don't try to make excuses for your laziness and gluttony. Let's start, even if this change is painful and insignificant. Believe in it, stick to it, you will be surprised and grow into a better self.
Even if it's just for one day, when you become good enough, you can say "I was just fat at that time, just for fun" in the envious eyes of people who once laughed at you and looked down on you.