Over the past six months, I have missed everything about college more and more.
The school canteen can order several dishes for five or six yuan; There are all kinds of books in the library, so you don't need money to see stars; You can live in the dormitory for one year if you pay 700 yuan; I have a student card in my pocket, so I can get a 20% discount wherever I travel and eat. ...
And all this, when we walk out of school and put on work clothes, will eventually be ruthlessly knocked down by the years, leaving a faint memory in the quietly passing youth.
The day after filming graduation photo, I went back to my dormitory to pack my things and go through the formalities of leaving school.
Looking at the back of my roommates who turned away in the corridor, I realized at that moment that I really graduated.
I moved into a small rental house, and I could hear my cough clearly next door. The internet speed is stuck. I drop off the internet every ten minutes.
On the first day I moved in, I thought to myself, damn it, when I have money, I must rent a luxury single apartment.
The rented house is not far from the company, but there are many people in that place. Like a kebab, I was pushed around in the crowd. I finally got on the bus and got stuck in the doors and windows.
When I get paid at the end of the month, the first thing I do is not to want to go somewhere for a good rub, nor to sweep away the clothes and skin care products that have been in the shopping cart for a long time.
Instead, I picked up a pen and began to calculate. After deducting rent, utilities and daily necessities, the remaining money is divided by 30 days. After the calculation, I exclaimed, God, I am so poor.
When I was in college, I had no living expenses, but I could use my parents' hard-earned money as an excuse.
Started working in the workplace after graduation. When I have no money, I can't ask my parents for it.
That weekend, I came out of the library and suddenly it rained heavily outside. It was only two o'clock in the afternoon, but it was gray.
I instinctively picked up my mobile phone and opened the address book. I searched for a long time, but I couldn't find anyone who could give me an umbrella.
This city is very big and cold. I stood in the bustling crowd, and I felt a sense of helplessness.
There are no more schools. Just a phone call or a text message will make your friend take the trouble to give you an umbrella.
Today, we have been scattered all over the world, working hard for our own lives.
I waited from afternoon till evening, and it was still raining. I tore a bag from the shelf, buckled it on my head and rushed into the rain.
Maybe it's too dark. I didn't see a pool of water by the roadside. I stepped into the water and splashed my pants. I was shivering with cold, and I lost my footing. I fell straight forward and my arms and knees were bloody.
I limped back to the dormitory, took medicine to clean the wound, covered myself in the quilt and cried. After crying, I wiped my tears and picked up my mobile phone to continue chatting with customers and answering questions.
I remember a senior once told me that after graduation, it is the beginning of true loneliness, and we should learn to survive a period of nobody's interest.
No one can walk the next road for himself, and there is no way to do every step. We can only face it alone, no matter whether the front is full of thorns or flat, we can only firmly move forward with our feet.
Last weekend, the little boy came to see me. The first time I saw her, I almost dropped my chin. The once cute little fat girl suddenly lost weight, as if she were a different person.
I took her to eat our favorite hot pot.
I said, I haven't seen you for half a year, and I've become a beauty.
She gave me a naughty wink and said, don't fall in love with me.
I grabbed chopsticks as a microphone. "Little A beauty, interview, how did you lose weight successfully?"
She said, if you are like me, you have six classes every day, you have to prepare lessons at night, correct papers and homework, and you have to be on duty at school on weekends. ...
Before she finished, her eyes were red, so I quickly took out a tissue and handed it to her.
Xiao teaches junior high school mathematics in a middle school in my hometown. He failed the exam for the first time, so he had to substitute for the class and take the exam while teaching.
Because she has not become a formal teacher, some old employees in the office just graduated, and many chores fell on her for no reason.
I saw her crying badly. "We don't cry. I will let you eat all the beef balls today. I won't rob you, okay? "
She woke up with a runny nose, stopped her tears, looked up at me and said, this will do.
Wow, what a performer.
After a full meal, Xiao raised a glass of wine and squinted slightly and said, I finally understand now that there is no stable and easy job in this world.
I said, do you regret it?
She shook her head and said, Ting, you have worked hard. You are much braver than me. I don't have the courage to step into this city and return to my hometown. Although I don't earn much money, it suits me better.
In fact, whether you choose to wander in a big city or return to a small town to be stable and plain, there is nothing wrong.
However, we'd better follow our inner thoughts and choose the life we really want. When we are old and recall the present, we won't regret it.
Our life is only once, we can't copy it, we can't start again, and we shouldn't let it slip away in front of us.
Little d is one of my seniors. In the year of college entrance examination, he didn't play well and got two books, which missed out on the ideal university.
During his college years, he resolutely joined the ranks of the postgraduate entrance examination army. He said that when I decided to take this road, I found that the postgraduate entrance examination was a test of a person's self-discipline ability.
He gets up at 6: 30 every day and dares to climb into bed at 12: 30 at night.
But his efforts and persistence fell into the eyes of his roommates, but he became a prude.
Xiao D said that once he stayed up late reading in the study room and went back to the dormitory, but the door was locked. He stood in the cold wind for more than 20 minutes before his roommate opened the door.
At that moment, he felt like an outsider in this dormitory, isolated and helpless.
After the results of the postgraduate entrance examination came out, it was a pity that little D failed the list. His roommate also began to sarcastically say that he was fooling around.
At that time, he was lying alone on the bed board, looking at the ceiling and telling himself to forget it.
But he didn't want to swallow this tone after all.
The next year, when everyone packed their bags and stepped out of school, he decided to give himself another chance to continue his graduate studies.
The pressure of the second interview can be imagined. If you fail to pass the exam again, you must not only face the public opinion around you, but also compete with the next level of fresh graduates for jobs.
But he still chose to fight and live as a team every day.
Now, Xiao D has entered a 985 famous school in Shanghai and become one of the few inspirational figures among my friends.
Sometimes when I see photos of his circle of friends, I am glad that he was brave and persistent at that time and survived that lonely time that was not optimistic.
Maybe in five or ten years, when we look back at what we have experienced now, we suddenly find that these are just pebbles, which can't stir up any waves in the long river of life.
But perhaps it is because of this period of tempering that we will begin to mature slowly.
People, we are so small, but even though we are ordinary as grains of sand, we are still working hard for tomorrow.
How do you know if you can do it without pushing yourself?
I hope that after three to five years, I can have a clear conscience and always have tears in my eyes.