A gentleman, Kun Zhong, whose real name is Yin Jin, was a good friend in middle school. After years of separation, the news gradually disappeared. I occasionally heard of a serious illness the other day; When you go back to your hometown to visit, you will only meet one person, saying that the brother of the sick person is also. The old gentleman came all the way to see you, but he has recovered. He went to a place where he stood by and watched. Because I laughed, I published two diaries with the symptoms of the day. I might as well give them to my old friend. After reading it, I realized that I was suffering from "persecution mania" and so on. The language is quite incoherent, with many absurd words; It's not the month and date, but the ink font is different, so it's not a temporary handwriting. There are also some people who have a little contact with each other. Today I will summarize one for doctors to study. It is not easy for a word to remember Chinese mistakes; However, although people's names are all villagers, they are unknown to the world and it doesn't matter, but they are also easy to walk. As for the title, I will never change it again. I met on April 2, 1977.

one

Tonight, the moonlight is good.

I haven't seen you for more than thirty years; Seeing you today is very refreshing. Only then did I know that I was dizzy for more than 30 years before; However, you must be very careful. Why else would Zhao's dog look at me?

I feel horrible.

two

There is no moonlight today. I know it's not good. When he went out carefully in the morning, Zhao Guiweng's eyes were strange: he seemed afraid of me and wanted to hurt me. There are seven or eight people whispering about me and smiling at me with their mouths open; I was cold from head to toe until they had arranged everything.

I'm not afraid. I'm still going my way. A group of children in front were also talking about me there; The expression in his eyes was as blue as Zhao Guiweng's. I think I have a grudge against my child, and so does he. I can't help but say loudly, "You tell me!" They just ran away.

I thought: What's my enmity with Zhao Guiweng and the people on the road? Only twenty years ago, I kicked Mr. Gu Jiu's old running script (3), and Mr. Gu Jiu was very unhappy. Although Zhao Guiweng didn't know him, he must have heard the wind and felt very wronged. I agree that people on the road will be right with me. But what about the baby? At that time, they were not born. Why are their eyes strange today? They seem afraid of me and want to hurt me. This really scares me, surprises me and makes me sad.

I see. Their mother taught me this!

three

Can't sleep at night. Everything needs to be studied to understand.

They-some lashed the magistrate of a county, some slapped the gentleman's mouth, some were robbed of their wives by the chief executive, and some were forced to death by the creditors; Their expressions at that time were not so fearful or so fierce as yesterday.

The strangest thing is that the woman in the street beat her son yesterday and said, "Lao Zi! I want to bite you and vent my anger! " He looked at me with his eyes. I was surprised and couldn't hide it; The people with blue faces and fangs all burst into laughter. Chen Laowu dragged me home to catch up.

Dragging me home, my family pretended not to know me; Their faces are the same as others. I locked the door when I entered the study, but now I have closed a chicken and duck. The more I teach this matter, the more I can't guess the details.

A few days ago, the tenants of the prodigal village complained about the famine and told my eldest brother that a villain in their village had been killed by everyone. A few people will cut out his heart and eat it in oil, which will make him more emboldened. I interjected that both the tenant and the eldest brother looked at me. I just learned today that their eyes are exactly the same as those outside.

Come to think of it, I am cold from head to toe.

If they can eat people, they may not eat me.

Look at the woman's words of "biting you a few times", laughing with a group of people with green faces and fangs, and the words of the tenant the day before yesterday, which are obviously code words. I can see that his words are full of poison and his smile is full of knives. Their teeth are all white and complete, and this is the guy who eats people.

According to my own thinking, although I'm not a villain, it's hard to say since I kicked the ancient books. They seem to have ulterior motives, and I can't even guess. And when you turn your face, you say that people are wicked. I still remember my big brother teaching me how to do theory. No matter how good I am, I turn him over and he will play a few rounds. Forgive the bad guy a few words, and he will say, "Be wonderful and different." I can guess what their thoughts are there; Besides, it's time to eat.

Everything must be studied to understand. I remember eating people in ancient times, but I don't know. I looked at the history and found that it has no age, and the words "benevolence, righteousness and morality" are written on every crooked leaf. I can't sleep anyway. I read it carefully in the middle of the night before I saw the words through the gap. The book is full of "cannibalism"!

There were so many words written in the book and so did the tenants, but they all looked at me with strange smiles.

I'm human too. They want to eat me!

four

In the morning, I sat quietly for a while. Chen Laowu sent a meal, a bowl of vegetables and a bowl of steamed fish. Fish's eyes are white and hard, and their mouths are open, just like those who want to eat people. After eating a few chopsticks, I didn't know if it was a fish or a person, so I spit him out.

I said, "Old Five, tell Big Brother that I am bored and want to go for a walk in the garden." Old five refused and left; After a pause, I opened the door.

I don't move, study how they manipulate me; Knowing they won't relax. Sure enough! My eldest brother led an old man and walked slowly; He was full of fierce eyes, afraid that I would see him, but he lowered his head to the ground and secretly looked at me from the side of his glasses. Big brother said, "You seem to be fine today." I said, "Yes." The eldest brother said, "Please ask Mr. He to come today and give you a diagnosis." I said, "Yes!" In fact, I didn't know the old man was dressed as an executioner! It is nothing more than speculating about fatness in the name of pulse-cutting: because of this credit, I also shared a piece of meat. I'm not afraid; Although not cannibal, he is braver than them. Hold out two fists and see what he does. The old man sat with his eyes closed, touched for a long time and stayed for a long time; He opened his eyes and said, "Forget it. Just keep it quiet for a few days. "

Don't think about it, raise it quietly! After gaining weight, they can naturally eat more; What's good for me? How can I be "good"? They are a group of people who want to eat people, sneak around, want to hide, and dare not do it directly. It really makes me laugh to death. I couldn't help it. I laughed and was very happy. I know there is kindness in this laughter. The old man's face was bloodless and was suppressed by my courage and loyalty.

But I have courage. The more they want to eat me, the braver they are. The old man stepped out of the door and didn't go far. He whispered to his eldest brother, "Eat quickly!" " Eldest brother nodded. It's you! This is a great idea. Although it seems to be an accident, I also care: the person who eats me in partnership is my brother!

It is my brother who eats people!

I am the brother of a cannibal!

I was eaten by myself, but I am still the brother of a cannibal!

five

These days, I took a step back and thought: if the old man doesn't dress up as an executioner, he is really a doctor, and he is still a man-eater. In Materia Medica (4) written by their ancestor Li Shizhen, it is clearly written that human flesh can be fried and eaten; Can he still say not to eat people?

As for my eldest brother, I have never wronged him. When he told me a book, he personally said that he could "eat easily" (5); Once again, I happened to talk about a bad guy, who said that he would not only be killed, but also make "meat bedding" [6]. I was young and my heart was beating for a long time. Not surprisingly, a few days ago, the tenants of the prodigal village came to eat their hearts and kept nodding. It can be seen that the mind is as cruel as before. Since you can "eat for a change", everything is easy to get and everyone can eat. I once listened to his reasoning, but I was also confused; Now we know that when he makes sense, not only is his mouth smeared with human oil, but his heart is also full of cannibalism.

six

It's getting dark, I don't know whether it's day or night. Zhao's dog barked again.

A heart as fierce as a lion, as cowardly as a rabbit, as cunning as a fox, ...

seven

I know their methods. I won't kill them at once, nor dare I, for fear of getting into trouble. So I contacted them all, and they were full of traps, forcing me to commit suicide. Try it and see how it works.