20 10 I have a boyfriend named Cheng Yu (a pseudonym, I am afraid you will search him, and now I am a minor publisher). When I met him, his deposit was zero and his debt was 5W. He is a 24-year-old Pisces man with a strong spirit. At first glance, he felt that he was smoking, and everywhere he went, it was a flame.

Cheng Yugang began to work as a studio with a cover designer named Guawa, and at the same time he was doing e-commerce seriously. When writing the first book, Cheng Yu had only experience but no mind's eye. He paid the author a down payment when he went up. As a result, the publishing company vowed to tell him later.

On that day, Cheng Yu invited me to Emmon, a small town opposite my company, and ordered four green vegetables, which tasted just like that summer. Emmon Town is a restaurant that cooks Yunnan cuisine. Every meal of Cheng Yu here has witnessed the life and death of a book, and its bestseller is in jeopardy.

Cheng Yu sat opposite me without moving a chopstick. His eyes looked straight at me. He said that after this meal, I could make two choices. One decided to be his girlfriend because he felt sorry for him. The other is because I followed him home and found something magical, so I was deeply moved and fell in love with him desperately. Before I could speak, Cheng Yu said, I knew you wouldn't choose easy love.

That year, I just arrived in Beijing. I couldn't tell love from curiosity. I liked to work hard and watch others struggle.

Cheng Yu led me into the door of the smallest bedroom in a three-bedroom in Xisanqi. Cheng Yu said, do you want to close your eyes? I said, no, I like to face shock. Cheng Yu said, you'd better turn it off, or you won't feel the ecstasy of suddenly being in another world. No, it's the smell on my face. I think what Cheng Yu said makes sense, so I behaved well once and was led into the house by him. In order to prevent me from cheating, Cheng Yu also found a coquettish leopard scarf to cover my eyes.

When Cheng Yu unwrapped the scarf, a room full of kraft paper was full of childish brushwork of different sizes, not fragrant, but full of ink smell, and a row of big fruit yogurt stood in the northeast corner.

Cheng Yu copied all the poems he wrote to me 108 on raw rice paper, and didn't cut them with a knife. A room full of paper is like a dog eating, and a gust of wind blows in, just like hanging on white paper.

I'm really scared. A romantic thing was forced to death by ya.

Cheng Yu said that 108 is an excellent number. With his painstaking poems, this is definitely the most intense defense of love.

For 23-year-old me, such an illogical expression melted in my stomach and made hundreds of flowers tremble. I immediately made a very responsible superficial analysis of my thoughts. I have no money to earn and I don't need anyone to support me, but I should be particularly reluctant to miss such a poet who is crazy about me.

2

Cheng Yu has since embarked on a long road of abuse, exulting and jumping for joy, with no bottom line.

At first, I packed my suitcase when I was unhappy. Cheng Yu was scared to death. He always proudly says that he can or must leave early tomorrow morning and run to the refrigerator in his slippers to see if there is anything delicious to support his plan.

The first time you took me to 798, I had to cross a road. When the green light was on, I hurried in. Cheng Yu nervously caught up behind me and grabbed my hand. Across the street, Cheng Yu looked at me with a serious face and his lips kept shaking. He said, small track, I like you very much. I'm afraid of losing you every second, and I'm afraid that you'll pull that damn suitcase as soon as I let go.

The first time he took me to his classmate's party, a group of men drank five fans and three roads in Tongzhou, and also expressed their disappointment and true feelings in three venues. I glanced at the time, 1 1, and it was time to go back and chase the walking dead. When I got up, I was about to leave. Several drunken men turned against each other and said, Cheng Yu, your daughter-in-law is quite unreasonable. Cheng Yu picked up the bottle and handed it to the man. It happened that the buddy borrowed Cheng Yu 10000 yuan and didn't pay it back. The two of them were happy to get even, and the next day they called me to praise me for my good looks.

The first snow in Beijing was quite wild. As soon as I stepped on it, my neck fell. When getting off the bus, Cheng Yu stood under the bus stop with a hand warmer. Seeing that I got off the bus, I put the hand warmer in my hand and walked home behind my back. The heavy snow is pressing on me, and Cheng Yu is like a puffed donkey, not asking about the front, just clanging, as if to carry me back into his 108 poem and reverberate in his ears.

Cheng Yu went to Tiemo for an interview for the first time and met a flashy topic of HR. In the early days of HR 30, it is the age when anthomaniac looks for positive energy of love to correct mistakes. HR asked, why did you suddenly change jobs? Cheng Yu said that your company is close to my wife's company, so I can pick her up from work and maybe have lunch together at noon. HR immediately cried and begged him to stay. As soon as he entered the company, Cheng Yu, with the aura of loving his wife and being loyal to his wife, casually changed his business department for a meeting. Colleagues all praised him. In fact, Cheng Yu did the same. He accompanies me to work every day and comes to my company to eat mutton buns with me at noon. Every time I leave, watching his thin back leave with satisfaction, my heart will sink at once.

When I moved for the last time, Cheng Yu rented me a 4-bedroom and 2-hall apartment. The house is magnificent, and the monthly rent costs him half of his salary. I said I couldn't live in such a big place. Let's sublet the downstairs. At noon, a couple came to see the house. I was reading in the bedroom, and Cheng Yugang happened to be cooking in the kitchen. He showed the tenants around, and the couple jumped up with satisfaction and insisted on signing the contract and giving the deposit immediately. I heard the computer turn on, as if the printer was on. Suddenly I heard Cheng Yu say that my wife is hungry at this time. I have to let her eat first. You can come back tomorrow, and then duang slams the door.

I sometimes feel that Cheng Yu lacks one track-minded, and always magnifies the people or things that he thinks are important infinitely, so that he can give up everything for it.

Cheng Yuyou 100 has more than one box of books. Every time I move, I persuade him to throw away or give away some books that he doesn't like very much. Every time, he would beg me to keep them all, because he had no other love except small tracks and books.

During the Spring Festival of 20 12, Cheng Yu carefully asked me if I would like to go home with him.

three

Zhenxiong is in the northeast corner of Yunnan. In order to save money, Cheng Yu and I took the train and bus for two days and nights. Panshan Road is scary to drive. Long-distance guests always lie down, and those with children will let the children shit directly on the guests. The socks of the uncles returning home are particularly arrogant in the closed air. Several times, I heard someone spitting at random. The spray and force were clear, but I didn't spit on the toilet paper. Choke! I secretly vowed in my heart that I would never take any long-distance bus again in my life.

Cheng Yu sleeps in my upper bunk. When he sleeps, he will repeatedly confirm whether he has held my hand. Every time he pulls my hand, he will gently rub my jaw with his thumb, and his eyes are full of apologies, never again.

We changed trains from Chongqing and said there was a service area where we could rest. When we got off the bus, it was raining heavily and flooded the whole Niwozi road. Some people simply don't get off the bus and stand in line at the door of the car to pee. Cheng Yu walked behind my back to the service area step by step. The driver glanced at him, lit a cigarette and said in the local dialect, Young man, a wife can't be too kind to her. Marrying a wife is for fun

When I arrived in Zhenxiong County, I was so happy that I almost wanted to fly into the sky as a kite. Cheng Yu is quite famous in Zhenxiong. Bar and restaurant owners in Shili Eighth Street are vying to get him a meal. In the evening, we stayed in the county town for one night and sang in a bar with a group of local strongmen. They say that Cheng Yu's wife is really beautiful. They say that we can stay in town for another night and do something exciting tomorrow.

Someone handed a cigarette to Cheng Yu, who gave me a look and accepted it. I stuck my head out of the window when someone gave him some. Cheng Yu said, you forced to smoke your mother, you put out the cigarette, my wife can't smell the smoke.

Cheng Yuchi will lose all his friends early.

four

Walking up the mountain, Cheng Yu made some phone calls. Dialects will become very popular as soon as people return to their hometown. In addition, the excited devil in his heart was rolling, so he spoke very fast and I didn't understand anything.

I saw a shit yellow van coming. There are still 2 kilometers to go after getting on the bus. I can't get on the bus, so I have to rely on my legs. The rainy mountain road is full of mud. Cheng Yu is like turning on the rainy day reversing mode. He squatted down and held me all the way to victory.

I stopped until I came to a mud house. I had to watch it for a long time and jumped off Cheng Yu to make sure it wasn't paper. Grandma Cheng Yu is very young, looking at me sideways, walking briskly, grinning. She kept saying "Yu Ya, Yu Ya", and I looked back at Cheng Yu. He explained that Grandma was praising your beauty.

Grandma's meal is eaten in a big pot. Grandma took out a piece of fat meat and threw it into a big iron pot. With a big spoon, she can practice oil, and then take a goldfish from the windowsill. Grandma threw the fish into the pot and quickly explained that it was not leftover fish. Cheng Yu originally said that he came back yesterday, but you didn't come back and stayed in the county, but the fish were all in the pot and I fished them out again.

A * * *, served five dishes, and Yunnan cuisine put white fat in each dish. Grandma always advised me to eat it, and I was really embarrassed after eating it several times. I've never eaten fat. I ate a piece with my teeth and it made me want to vomit. A group of children surrounded me and insisted that I was pregnant with a baby.

Grandma Cheng Yu took my hand and went to the pigsty to see her pigs for a while, and then took me to the roof to see Cangshan. The misty mountain lay slowly and quietly in the field of vision, half bright and half unreal. I keep repeating in my mind, "If all the time is now, all the time can't be recovered".

Grandma still looked at me sideways, laughing in the folds of her face all day. Two front teeth are always exposed to show satisfaction and happiness. Suddenly, I can't understand most of them. No matter what grandma said, I just smiled and nodded and said yes, yes, yes, yes.

Later, Cheng Yu told me that grandma was blind in her left eye and needed to turn her face to see all the people and things she thought were important.

After going down the mountain, I remembered that this sentence was said by Eliot.

The road on that mountain is too slippery on rainy days. I hope the rainy days will not be so long in the future.

What worries me most is going to the toilet. I am a Shandong girl. There are at least one small pit and one cesspit in the toilets in rural Shandong. Visiting relatives occasionally encounters such a pit. It's harmless to take a deep breath and rush in. But there is no pit in Grandma Cheng Yu's toilet, and there is a crack in the middle of several cement slabs, next to the pigs that are completely insecure in winter. I rushed in and ran out: "Cheng Yu, there is no pit in the toilet. Why? " Cheng Yu said: "In this way, just pee on the seam. If you shit, pull directly on the cement board. Later, grandpa turned the shit into the pigsty with a shovel. "

I was as anxious as lightning at the door of the toilet, and I couldn't hold on any longer. My red face ran all the way into the mountains and dedicated this wild urine to my desperate love when I was young.

five

When I sleep at night, the window is blocked by the sheets of a big fat doll. There are two doors in each room, and no doors are installed. I huddled in the quilt and my face flushed. Cheng Yu just hugged me tightly and didn't talk. I thought I had seen poverty before, but I didn't know there was a place where every family still lived a stable life in adobe houses without windows and wooden doors.

In that Shanghai girl's post, someone commented that what matters is not what a man has, but what he will give you without reservation, which is rare.

10, Cheng Yu gets up and goes to the living room. I hid under the covers and thought that Grandma Cheng Yu should have rebuilt a big house with a pit, and it would be appropriate to move the pigsty to the yard near the well. Thinking that I had a lot of things to do, I held back my urine.

I seem to hear Cheng Yu discussing money with his family. They are going to discuss what red envelopes to give for the first time while I am asleep. Cheng Yu needs to control the pitch of everyone's discussion from time to time so that I can't hear it.

I stayed in the mountains for two days. On the morning of going down the mountain, everyone went to the roof together after dinner. As a representative recommended by the whole family, grandma took out a red envelope containing a door god from her pocket. I said no, grandma said no, and then I ran downstairs and said, grandma, I have money, and I don't want your money. Your life is not easy.

Cheng Yu's parents are stuck at the door downstairs, and everyone is like a well-trained thief-catching force. In order to give me a red envelope, they took pains to chase it down.

Grandma said I wouldn't accept the money, and they couldn't sleep at all. If I don't take the red envelope, it means that Cheng Yu and I haven't decided this matter yet.

I'll take it.

When I went down the mountain, it was still raining after two kilometers. There was smoke in the empty mountain, vaguely mixed with drums. I looked back at my grandfather standing on the roof and looked at him from a distance, as if to shoot me to death in this bleak and boundless wind and rain.

Grandma has good legs and feet, so she was chosen by the whole family as a representative to give us a ride. Grandma walks too fast, and her delicate steps are as important and targeted as embroidery on a muddy mountain road.

Grandma spent 200 yuan to find us a van out of the mountain. She took my hand and said, "grandma, the road here is not easy to walk, and it is very cold." You don't have to come back if you don't want to. "

I have an adobe with snail fragments in my hand, which is a gift from Grandpa Cheng Yu. Hug grandma and say, no, I will come to see you again.

I have been asking myself not to cheat, but together, it doesn't make any sense. When I'm away, you have to face a broken-hearted self.

Swallows will return to the north, salmon will migrate, but sometimes people will leave. This is a lifetime.

six

There are 2W pieces in the red envelope, which are the savings of three generations of Cheng Yu. Cheng Yu said that they gave me all the living expenses, but they only had so much.

I told you I wouldn't touch their money. I will give it back to them when I go home next year. 20 thousand yuan is too expensive to buy a daughter-in-law In fact, I only took 2000 yuan, which is the price I was fined the year I was born.

From 20 12, Cheng Yu's career began to improve. I was an executive of a media company at that time. Cheng Yu gave me a credit card. I have to swipe his card for clothes over 2000 and bags over 20000, but I have never spent a penny with Cheng Yu except for eating.

We haven't had coffee once, and we only watch group buying below 20 yuan when we go to the movies. His card, the only time he gave it to me, was a skirt of 799 yuan. Cheng Yu bought a cake to celebrate my willingness to swipe his card and invited a friend to have a big banquet. At that time, there was a publisher named Kara, who was a good friend of Cheng Yu. He said that he had seen a cheap one, but he had never seen Cheng Yu so cheap.

Cheng Yu said, you know nothing. Only when a woman is willing to spend your money will there be good signs that she wants to be practical with you.

Cheng Yu is actually right. I don't want to spend his money, but I don't want him to have both money and people one day.

20 13 years, Cheng Yuyou 190W deposit. He said that although there is not much money, we can buy a small wedding room in Beijing with a bad location, and we must write the name of the small track.

As the Spring Festival approaches, Cheng Yu is immersed in planning for our future. His eyes are burning when he laughs. When he looked at me, he seemed to want to outline his life on my face.

I also did a lot, quit my job and made a slimming plan. I firmly believe that body fat can flow naturally only when you don't think, otherwise you will eventually relax if you think too much every day.

I used it for a month, and my weight dropped from 105 to 9 1 kg. I think about my weight, my true love and the life I want wholeheartedly every day. I used to feel accustomed to Cheng Yu's care and have a stable home. This is love, but I never thought about doing anything for him.

Cheng Yu takes care of me like a life idiot. I can't do anything. I squirm around the room like an arrogant parasite every day, sometimes basking in the sun and sometimes losing my temper.

When I came home for the New Year, I asked Cheng Yu to go first, but he refused. He said that his best life treatment was to watch me leave, and he didn't want me to face the loneliness of empty houses and suitcases alone.

He put a Chanel handbag in my hand when he sent me away. He said he didn't know what was good in my eyes. He only knows that Chanel is fragrant in Wan Li, and the camellia is pretty, black is not tacky, and it is not too low for me.

Every time I see him off on the platform, I give him a big hug. As soon as I tried, Cheng Yu said, softly whispering. I'm afraid you have to say goodbye to me.

I put Cheng Yu's money in a magazine called Life and left.

I left and never came back.

seven

In those years when we were together, we had many friends.

Some friends said that I definitely didn't like Cheng Yu's family, but Cheng Yu's career improved at that time, which was not bad, so I'm not sure what I really want.

A friend said that there is no good farewell to leave suddenly like me, only animals can do it.

Carla secretly sent me a private message on Weibo, telling me that Cheng Yu had a miserable life. She wakes up crying every day because I quit smoking and started smoking again. Now she runs in the wind and rain like Forrest Gump, wearing only a pair of autumn trousers. Carla said, I beg you, come back. I have never seen Cheng Yu pay so much for any woman. You just took time out of his soul.

I cut off all contact with Cheng Yu, and Cheng Yu went crazy looking for me everywhere.

Later, I gave him a call.

"Cheng Yu."

"Small track."

We cried on the phone for half an hour without saying a word. Cheng Yu said that my mobile phone number will never change in my life. You can reach me at any time, remember? Cheng Yu didn't ask me where I went or why I left suddenly. He arranged everything, but I said hello and changed the script unilaterally. He said that in the future, no matter who I marry, Xiao rail will be his most important woman.

On the morning of February 20 16 14, Cheng Yu sent a message: There is no need to think about it deliberately, because I have never forgotten it. I got married today. Happy Valentine's Day.

I smiled and took out the adobe with snails, put it on the small black board in front of the table and sent it to Cheng Yu. I said I would apologize to my grandmother for me. People always swear to say something that may never count in this life.

Half an hour later, Cheng Yu sent me an email, which recorded that he had been waiting for my life for two years. The attachment of a document exceeds 65,438+0,200 pages. There is only one sentence in the text: "I have always refused to admit that I lost you, and I have always dreamed that one day you will suddenly appear again." Now I find that I won't change because it doesn't hurt enough. "

The teenager who ran out to eat snow at the thought of losing me forever seemed to solemnly announce that he was finally going to turn over.

eight

One year after I left Cheng Yu, I still don't know what love is. I can't feel the pain of losing, but I will be reluctant to leave Cheng Yu. I will repeatedly question whether I won't die if I don't die, but I have always been sure of one thing. I know what I don't want.

One morning, the sky was snowing. I lay on the purple cloth sofa on the balcony, holding a solar panel in my hand, watching light and electricity, accepting each other, converting each other, and then storing them, giving endless sunshine, and my eyes began to cry.

Some people say that after you meet true love, you will explain all the love you couldn't understand before.

Cheng Yu said that his bride walked 5 kilometers on foot and helped him get back an umbrella that he regarded as a treasure. And that umbrella, I left it behind.

Later, I met my brother Mei, who regarded me as the love of my life, but still gave me a small housework. Every time I clean a dormitory and wash two bowls covered with curry, he will immediately hug me and say, Little Track is great.

Mei Ge said that life is about two people working together to make it all what we want. So Mei Ge used to spoil me, but she took me every step of the way. On his birthday, I saw him frying steak in the kitchen in a cartoon apron. Every step he took was like a little teacher, talking about the time of cooking control and the order of soup, and then suddenly looking back, he asked, Hey, did you remember all the tracks?

I held Mei Ge from behind and nodded vigorously. At that moment, I suddenly felt that true love was a strange thing enough.

Plain life, I can spend most of my life with him, but the mysterious difference between love and true love is that I am eager to hold hands and willing to participate in every detail of each other's life, whether it is sweet or bitter.

Some people can tolerate a dull life, while others can accept no communication. The road of life is long, but Xiu Yuan is short. Love or not, it is a lifetime. Those who joke that you eat love as a meal have never experienced the sour taste of a full meal.

We fly in the sky, some people sing for us, and some people shoot at us. We lost on the road and got it on the road.

Many people ask me, Hi, Xiao Rail, Happy Valentine's Day. How did you spend your day?

I said but.

When the snow falls, may you have true love.

About the author: Junior racetrack, 87-year-old female water bottle, Shandong native, brand planning, Internet operation dog, advertising dog, online novel author. A good girl in the official account of WeChat: moixiaogui.