It has been four years since I graduated from college in 2020. No matter in college or at work, whenever I face the pressure of exams, I always dream that I am in the classroom of senior three, either studying math or taking a math test. In my dream, I still regret "I knew to study math well!" " I suddenly woke up, at a loss.

With a sigh, "fortunately, it is a dream!"

I went to high school for four years. In the first three years, I was in my hometown county, and I went to Maotan Factory Middle School, a famous college entrance examination factory in Anhui. At that time, I just wanted to repeat and start all over again. I never thought that this year would make me have nightmares for many years to come. Even so, I have never regretted it, because this year, under the supervision of teachers and my own efforts, I was admitted to the provincial key books with less than three points, which is not a pity.

That year in Mao's life, summed up in eight words-bad luck on the left, luck on the right, bad luck and luck intertwined, so that I am either sad or happy, my mood is so incisive.

I didn't expect to fail in the college entrance examination in the first year. How can there be a reward if you don't pay? Today, I told people around me that I went to school in Maozhong, and people who knew Maotan Factory would be surprised and say, "Are you from Maozhong?" It feels like a prisoner I released from some prison. However, I was really ignorant and fearless at that time. On June 25th, the night after the college entrance examination results came out, I decided to register in Maozhong. At that time, my parents were working in other places, so I won't be able to come back for a while. I had to ask my fourth aunt to accompany me to the ravine to register. Yes, the Mao Tan factory was in the ravine, when my fourth aunt was pregnant. I guess she was tortured badly at that time. Registration is also very simple, even if you hand in the admission ticket, you will register, and you will be informed later. You know, the number of repeat students in Mao Tan factory will be full in a day and a half.

Half a month later, I paid more than 4 thousand tuition fees for free and went to school. I was determined at that time. I didn't think much, only the newborn calf was not afraid of the tiger's ferocity. Now I am grateful for the reckless and fearless momentum at that time.

The balance of grades is always tilted.

My English score is ok, and I rank high in every monthly exam, so every time I silently finish writing English words and walk in the toilet, there are always classmates who say hello to me and say, "Hey! It's all up to you! " Because I don't know why, obviously there are still many English scores better than mine, but the head teacher always likes to let me change the dictated words, which may be my luck.

I don't know if you know what it's like to tremble twice, but you have a deep understanding. Every time the head teacher reads the math scores, my legs really tremble in my seat. Even if my hand is pressed tightly, I will keep shaking. When I hear my score read out, you can always hear the head teacher shouting, "How many points did you get in the exam!"

Every time the monthly exam results are due to mathematics, the results are always in the middle. Every Sunday night, the class teacher likes to cut off the math papers that have been tested one by one, and then find a math scum like me to stand on the balcony and do it. Sometimes it can't be done, and sometimes students will release water when they know it. I swear, I gave half my time to math when I repeated, but it has become a pain in my life, so when I chose arts and sciences, I gave up my favorite biology and chemistry teacher in Shuai Shuai because of math. Because of math, I only spend an hour and a half on English and half an hour watching math every week, because as soon as the exam is over, the class teacher will call me to the balcony to do math problems; Because of math, I stood on the podium when I first entered Maozhong. It's nice to stand on the podium for the first time in so many years.

Never care about image

When I wrote this, I seemed to see me at that time. When I first entered school, I carried my schoolbag every day. When the tapes are too long, I put them on my arm. I always eat steamed bread and drink soybean milk regardless. When I walk into the classroom every morning, it is already dark. Once, in the dark corridor, a person may not be able to stand it any longer, so he gently pulled my strap onto my shoulder. This man's name is J, and he is still in contact with me. He is one of my few good friends. Besides, I'll make do with it in winter. I wore gray Snoopy slippers all winter. Because they are resistant to dirt and have no heels, I can go to the classroom in the morning to save time. Later, when I got dressed up, I didn't follow my feet when I walked, and I could always hear the harsh "da da". Hair is always a low ponytail. In order to save time, you can't even use conditioner when washing your hair. Now that I think about it, Mao Zhong's life has also been enriched by me. I really want to go back and help the little girl buy clothes and shoes, because she has no time.

Occasionally, I have a crush on flowers.

Do you have a favorite color when reading?

I liked blue very much at that time. No matter what I buy, blue is the first choice. I came out of the canteen at noon that day and walked in the empty canteen square. A boy wore a blue jacket with some gray, and a gust of wind passed by me. I turned my head in surprise. That moment was the first time I saw a boy dressed in blue so well since I grew up. From then on, I remembered the back of that blue dress. Sometimes walking on campus, I always want to meet. I believe that God loves me. Then I really met her. She is in the low classroom opposite our classroom, and I can see it clearly. She is really beautiful. Her big eyes, fair skin and yellow hair set off the white and make the sun shine. I don't know if he knew that there would be a girl at that time, and she would sneak a look at him as soon as she met.

Once, my deskmate Y and I were eating in the corridor, and that beautiful blue figure caught my eye again. I took her to watch it together until he sat in his seat, and Y laughed at me for being a nymphomaniac. Now that I think about it, although I don't know his name, I don't know how he did in the past and how he is now. As long as I see blue, I will think of that beautiful blue figure. Even if he is standing in front of me now, I don't know if it is him, but as long as I remember, I still have my own little thoughts and happiness in that depressed environment, which is a warm-hearted thing. Thanks to the blue boy for giving me a boring life.

Girl J is the girl who used to sleep in my upper bunk, and later moved out and entered medical school. For me, she is also an angel who gives me warmth. I still remember that Sunday, the weather was getting colder and colder. At that time, I ate two bags of spicy and hot fish, and as a result, I went to self-study in the evening, and my stomach ached so much that I could hardly breathe. Unfortunately, I met the head teacher and got angry. The reason can be imagined. This class failed in the monthly exam. At that time, I always felt that there was not enough oxygen and I couldn't keep going. I feel suffocated, but I dare not raise my hand. I finally got up the courage and slowly raised my hand. Before he saw it, I thought, forget it, it's a big deal. Later, maybe God wanted me to live well. After the self-study class, I was on cloud nine. My deskmate helped me back to the dormitory, lying on the bed, motionless. It was J who filled a big plastic cup with boiling water and stuffed it to warm my stomach. That night, before I washed, I fell asleep with the quilt in my arms ... I felt really painful and moved that night. J was the first classmate who cared about me when I was a teenager, so I always remember her clearly. I hope she will get better and better on the road to angels in white.

Girl y is my teasing deskmate. She always tells me many interesting things and occasionally leans on my shoulder, hating me for being too thin. The bone in my shoulder gives her a headache. She listens to me every day. I want to eat white rabbit and drink fish soup, and she will listen silently. In study, we have been encouraging and helping each other. On June 5, I was bored in bed, thinking that I would go to Lu 'an in the afternoon and the exam was coming soon. She is still in the corridor, shouting "Rain is falling, rain is falling". I turned around and saw her holding disposable cups, reaching for the bed and saying, "Tell me I want to drink fish soup every day and give you fish soup." Later, I learned that it was brought by her roommate's mother. It's a pity that I am still so thin and have so many bones on my shoulders. When we meet next time, when you are still leaning on my shoulder, will you still think that I love you?

Girl C is my roommate who sleeps head to head. Although she is tall, she is actually a very cute girl and has no feelings. I told her that watermelons grow on trees, and she was dubious ... She looks ordinary, but she passed the piano level of 10 and used to be a member of the women's basketball team in Hefei No.8 Middle School. Once, she and I stood on the balcony of the dormitory to watch boys play basketball, and we also agreed that she would play basketball for me if she had the opportunity to go to Hefei. Therefore, this agreement has not yet been realized. At that time, we would often eat together and go back to the dormitory. She will tell me something I don't know. Once I had an accident, she would hold me in her arms and cry. She really wants to tell you that I will go to Hefei to see you and watch you play basketball when I have the opportunity! I think your lithe figure must be beautiful.

The boy W was my friend when I was in No.2 Middle School. From freshman year to now, he has been calling me Sister Yu, obviously older than me, act young. But I have always been glad that I have such a friend, as my friend in senior three said, I really envy you, and there is another friend like W. After I graduated from No.2 Middle School, we rarely contacted each other, but I know that whenever the other party is in trouble, a phone call or a text message will be overwhelming, regardless of the reason. I wrote about him because I had just gone to Maozhong at that time, and he was not afraid to go a long way to see me. He contacted me a few days before he went to school and asked me what I wanted to eat. On Sunday afternoon, he arrived as scheduled. I said a lot of snacks and bought a few things he liked. Perhaps, he thinks delicious food is the best. We had a simple Lamian Noodles. He sent me back to the classroom and left. I'm really happy that he came to see me. I'm sorry that he left. My mood is like a roller coaster. I just went to Maozhong at that time and had no friends. I'm really glad that an old friend came to see me. Perhaps, you will think that our friendship is not simple, but everyone who knows us knows that we are just good friends.

On the day when the college entrance examination results came out, I was still working as a summer job in the factory, and he called to help me check the scores. I am timid, afraid, afraid to check, afraid of not doing well in the exam, so I keep crying, crying … I don't know how to face the bad results. But he was on the other end of the phone, always comforting me that it was okay. It's okay. Like a child, he coaxed me into my ID number. I reported it word for word, and he waited word for word, and he wouldn't be angry with me. When he knew the result, he shouted at me happily: "one, one, it's okay!" " . At that moment, I felt that having this friend was really a happy thing.

Boy B is my most grateful friend, who has been studying in Maozhong and even now. I don't know how you are now, but I really want to tell you that year, thank you for your encouragement and blow. Without you in those days, you may not have my later college entrance examination results. B is a white-skinned boy who loves to be funny. In the eyes of the teacher, he is a big face, but in my eyes, he is a mysterious person. I forgot how to talk to him. I met him. I only remember that I was poor at math, and I was afraid that others would dislike me for being stupid. I only dare to ask him math problems, and he won't call me stupid. After the explanation, he will ask me if I understand it at night. If I don't understand it, he will tell me again, or he will tell me if he thinks of other simple methods. At that time, I didn't know how to repay him, so every time he asked me an English topic, at night, I would list a series of grammar knowledge with the same knowledge points for him, for fear of being misunderstood. Fortunately, I went early in the morning and put my notes on the knowledge points on his desk.

At that time, in order to encourage us to study hard and have a good monthly exam, the class teacher would set a challenge object before each exam. As he told me later, he said a lot of things that hit me, in fact, to encourage me, so every time I challenged my opponent, I wrote him a challenge book, even for the college entrance examination. If I can still see that challenge book now, I will really feel entangled. Perhaps in the first year of Mao, many of us were repeat students in the same boat. After going to college, we seldom contacted each other. I vaguely remember that on the day when the college entrance examination ended, he called me when he was drunk at night and said a lot of thanks. In fact, he was surprised. I always thought I was the one who should say thank you. Really, I have never said thank you or goodbye to him properly.

I want to say to B: "If you can see what I wrote, please remember to accept my most sincere thanks for all your help and encouragement that year;" Thank you for bringing me some food that Simon didn't have when you went to the North Gate to improve my life. Thank you for taking the initiative to help me pick up food when you saw that I didn't go to dinner. Maybe that year, you were just a charity, but I keep it in mind. Really, thanks! I hope you are as optimistic as I remember, and you must be happy in the future. "

If boy B helped me a lot in this process, then boy J, the boy who carried my strap on his shoulder, drew a good end to my repeated life. J is a sunny and talkative person in my impression. In fact, in private, my roommate and I think he looks a bit like an Indian. In fact, he really looks like an Indian. During my college years, J and I kept in touch and became good friends. Anyway, he made my life in Maozhong come to a good end for a reason. The last monthly exam should be the best of all my monthly exams, but I feel very uncomfortable near the college entrance examination. Afraid of losing the college entrance examination, the gap is too big. I lay listlessly on the railing that day. He should have seen my anxiety and slipped me a note that said, "The direction of the wind."

In fact, that note was written to him when he failed the exam. That time, it also made me feel that helping others is actually helping myself.

"A world in a flower, a paradise in a leaf." I don't know if you like to pay attention to everything around you like me, such as the grass I've been paying attention to these days, struggling out of the cracks in the stone.

This is a small green leaf struggling to grow under the small stone pier in front of the canteen square. Hundreds of people pass by here every day. I don't know if anyone stopped for it. I like its toughness, which adds green and vitality to this hard and cold concrete floor. I remember one afternoon, I studied too hard. When I passed by it, I squatted there and looked at it, thinking that the heaven it carried should be happy, because it kept going outward and upward, and it should be to give the heaven on my back a broader world. It's just that it shouldn't have a chance to get bigger. Maybe when it wanted to grow bigger, it was moved away by the cleaner because it didn't fit in, but it was still green in my heart forever.

So much for the story. Although it was a memory eight years ago, it is still vivid now, and I miss the efforts at that time. At that time, lovely people recalled the past bits and pieces, just like eating a strawberry-flavored candy, sweet, and then I could smell the strawberry-flavored fragrance.

No matter how hard the past is, how sad you will be, but when the bad luck passes, you stand at the end of time and look at the other end of time, but you can't see the pain that once tortured you. During the year in Mao Tan factory, I was also troubled by bad luck, but I know that good luck is with me both in the past and in the future. No matter what the future road is, we will stride forward without looking back or regretting.

The following is what I saw with my mobile phone at that time. I have to think that the pixels at that time were really bad ~

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