The word "Fu Gui" was only learned when I came to the college this time. The weekly study schedule is posted on the bulletin board in advance, and the three-week schedule is announced in turn. When the third schedule came out, I was still a little excited, and then I saw the word "return".
Baidu's "return" is to return to China, resign and return to China. This seems to be an elegant way to go home. I like this word very much, which is consistent with the artistic conception of meditation!
With the dawn of my return, my heart began to flee, and my brain began to make plans to go home: should I wash my clothes and take them back? What clothes should I wear to take photos after the sharing session? When I go back, I will go to Jiangjia Town to buy dried plums and biscuits, and then go to the vegetable market to buy some fish from Qiandao Lake. From dawn to dusk, you can eat fish head soup in Qiandao Lake at night. I don't know why, these thoughts have been drilling into my mind, just don't want to see the breath, live in the present and return to the state of empty consciousness.
The warm tips on the small blackboard next to the bulletin board immediately alerted me:
Don't indulge, grasp every moment to realize the Tao. The more you get to the end, the more unexpected you will get, so you must grasp it.
Yes! I put everything down to meditate and get the support of my family. This is a very difficult and precious opportunity. Teacher Guo said: "It is rare for us to get along quietly with ourselves for a few days in our lives, so we should cherish it." These are all my blessings, but we can't waste them. Let's calm down, realize the close relationship between man and nature, and read this wordless gobbledygook, the story of the earth.
We can have such a quiet mountain meditation place because of the kindness of Teacher Guo.
Mr. Guo, the master, has traveled between Taiwan Province Province and the mainland for more than 20 years, and meditated and lectured all over the country.
The county leaders of Chun 'an County in Qiandao Lake just want to organize characteristic tourism and promote cultural tourism in Qiandao Lake, so they search for resources and information on the Internet. As a result, they were attracted by Master Kong Hai's lectures, and felt that his teachings were not superstitious, so they threw an olive branch and invited Master Kong Hai to set up an international meditation center in Longchuan Bay.
Then, we have a chance to meditate at home. My heart is full of gratitude for walking around the castle peak and having such a forest meditation environment.
You know, when Master Kong Hai first came to the mainland to give lectures, we were all in the temple. If there are activities and ceremonies in the temple, it is sometimes impossible to be quiet.
In 2008, Master Kong Hai held the first large-scale specialized course in Chinese mainland in Zhanghua Temple, Jingzhou City. There are hundreds of students in the three-month special course.
A few days before the end of the special course, that is, when the Chinese New Year was coming, the news of the death of the master's mother came. Although Master Kong Hai was very sad, she didn't give up halfway. She didn't return to Taiwan Province Province until the end of the special class and sent everyone away. At home, she is waiting for Master Konghai to come back to see her mother off.
The date of death happens at the end of the specialized course, neither too early nor too late, and it does not affect the course. This is a funeral. He was over ninety when he left.
Master Kong Hai recalled the influence of her mother's life on her, saying that her mother always educated herself with love, and she had never been slapped since she was a child. Master Kong Hai's home is in Chiayi County. There is a big pool in the village. Master Kong Hai played by the water since he was a child. She is a free-range child.
This village is also very special, with a psychic master. City people line up to treat diseases and eliminate disasters. Therefore, the empty sea was exposed from an early age, knowing not to do bad things, but to do good things, and what goes around comes around comes around!
When he was in college, Master Kong Hai was elected President of the Student Union. When his term ended, he shared his motto with all teachers and students: "Always cherish good thoughts and don't do evil."
Teacher Guo also has a motto in life: "Learn modestly and be a modest person."
Therefore, when I think of Mr. Guo's dedication to the law, I dare not slack off and continue to work hard. Otherwise, I am sorry for the teachers, the teachers and volunteers who accompanied us to grow up in the academy, the breadwinner, and my life.
Where life comes from, where death goes! ? This proposition is also something we should explore. This proposition is not unique to the elderly. We all have to face it so that we won't be chased by death and live comfortably.
It has been nearly twenty years since I first came to zhanghua Temple to study in 2008. How time flies! Everything seems to be yesterday. At that time, I was healthy and energetic, and I was in my early forties. It was really the peak period of my life, but it was also the bottleneck period of my life. Many people also feel the confusion of life at this time.
I have been studying hard and getting married. It seems that some achievements have been made step by step, but we find that happiness is getting less and less, and happiness is out of reach. I will inevitably ask myself, is this the life I want? Why do I still have a lot of troubles and sadness? Standing at thirty, not confused at forty, knowing destiny at fifty, can't do it!
Along the way, I unconsciously reached the age of running six. Time flies and life is too short to help but sigh. Some of my peers around me are sick, some have left this world, and my parents have left us. There is a lot of helplessness in life.
At the sharing meeting, the last one to share was an old man, 76 years old, and the oldest student in our class. In the process of meditation, a big tooth somehow cracked. This has happened before, and I pulled it out when I got to the hospital. But the class teacher told him that it would affect his study, and then taught him to massage acupoints. Unexpectedly, it's all right and the pain has stopped.
He said that death is beckoning to him, and he has already felt the panic of death, but he has not solved the problem of life and death, and I wonder if he will have time! ? He hopes to walk with peace of mind.
I know that meditation is not to prepare for death, but to live the meaning and value of life. This is Mr. Guo's consistent proposition and his school-running policy.
Teacher Guo has always used the words in Confucius's "University" to illustrate this point:
"The way of university is to be well-known, close to the people and stop at perfection."
Is to let us learn to be a higher spiritual quality, find out what our virtue is, and let us come to our inner purity and beauty.
I remember a nine-year-old girl coming to study. When Teacher Guo asked about her study experience, she sighed, "I found that my life was in vain."
Children's words are unscrupulous, and naive words tell the hearts of many people. We have lived for many years, but we don't know the meaning of life or the secret of making ourselves happy. This is really a pity in life, which makes us suffer a lot and take a lot of detours.
The day before yesterday, my husband called before work. I don't work overtime today. I get off work normally, because I have to do nucleic acid, and I have to do it with me, otherwise it will turn red. I'll cook quickly, and when Mr. Wang comes back, we'll make nucleic acids together.
The nucleic acid sampling point is located not far below the family building. Because there are more people detecting nucleic acids, more nucleic acid detection points have been set up, which is much more convenient for detection.
Even so, there was a long queue. People watch mobile phones to chat, just like buying food. It's very hot, I just want to eat a popsicle.
These days, the Shanghai compatriots in the group of Shanghai psychological counselors are anxious about group meals every day, and three meals a day has become the focus of discussion, which makes me, a person who doesn't care about diet, reflect on myself. I am free to buy food without restrictions, but I don't cherish it. I often take a bite, but those Shanghai girls who stay at home can still make three meals colorful and delicious under such difficult conditions.
I feel a little sorry for the gift of life, and I feel that this dull life is not so happy. I will be better to myself and make my life colorful in the future.
Yesterday, a Shanghai classmate sent four tiramisu cakes, but he didn't eat them himself. All of them were given to hard-working volunteers, and the photos of cutting cakes were exposed.
Now that I think about this scene, I think I need an ice cream more. Yes, sir, he said, then buy it!
I walked across the street, saw a small supermarket, swept the doorbell, bought ice cream and ate it, as if I was walking in a closed Shanghai and actually got ice cream.
Team forward, I walked in, just took a bite, was found by volunteers, holding a big horn said to me:
"Ice cream, don't you know this is nucleic acid testing? Kids know you're too old to know! Not as good as a child. "
Why is this so ugly? I'm so angry that I don't know whether to eat or not. Under the eyes of the public, I can't wait to get into it. No one has ever been so humiliated in public. Even if I am wrong, you tell me not to eat. Besides, I'm really not a child, but an adult! Why is there always such a language? Everyone stopped watching mobile phone chat and started watching me.
At that time, he added:
"Stop waiting in line and come out to eat!"
How can I listen to you so much! ? Eat a fart! I immediately threw the popsicle in the grass beside the tree.
The loud speaker's voice changed color;
"What do you mean? Say you're wrong? Who told you to throw it on the grass, you have to throw it in the trash can. "
I ignored him, let him talk, and made him angry!
I can look back at the grass and see the unfinished ice cream. I don't think they offended me. I can't just abandon it and ruin this grassland! I bent down to pick up the ice cream and threw it into the dustbin.
At that time, the speaker's voice lowered, and the color of change on his face instantly eased:
"You should also respect our volunteers!"
See his tone, I'm not so angry, quietly said to him:
"Have you ever thought about respecting me? You say that, let my face go! "
He stopped talking, put down his horn and turned around.
At this time, a big white came over and gently reminded me to put on a mask and not to show my nose. This attitude is in sharp contrast with the attitude just now. I listened, so I quickly put on my mask. This is for my own good. I thank her. I think she is comforting me. She heard and saw that I was taught a lesson.
The attitude of the two great white sharks is completely different, and I feel this difference, which makes me understand why Lao Tzu said this:
In the seventy-third chapter of the Tao Te Ching, Lao Tzu told us:
"Dare to kill, dare to live, both, or benefit or harm. What is evil in heaven and who knows why? It is still very difficult to be a saint. "
Teacher Guo defined this chapter as "desperate to die young". The first big white used such a fierce attitude that I was so angry that I couldn't resist. I resisted with greater strength.
In the seventy-eighth chapter of the Tao Te Ching, Lao Tzu told us:
"Is the world getting weaker? ,? What is the best way to defeat the strong? Easy to use.
Weak is better than strong, soft is better than strong, the world knows everything, doesn't it? . "
Teacher Guo defines this chapter as: "The greatest power in the universe is great love". The second person, Dabai, reminds me with silent love and care, and makes me willingly obey and be grateful! The power of love is soft and the greatest power in the universe!
Mr. Wang is right behind me. He didn't say a word and I didn't look back at him. I felt ashamed, I just stood in line silently. By the time I finished the nucleic acid, he had finished it.
He just said what he felt just now, told me that he really wanted to hit him, and then he thought about it! I didn't expect to see you finally pick up the ice cream.
I said, didn't I learn advanced wisdom? Kind as water! Originally, I was wrong. I shouldn't eat ice cream or throw it on the grass. I want to pick it up.
Mr. Wang said, I didn't expect you to eat ice cream. I shouldn't have eaten at all Later, I thought of the requirements of nucleic acid detection I had seen. I won't be angry if I talk. Mr. Wang said that he didn't eat ice cream just now, so he went to buy ice cream to make it up!
When I got home, I also discussed this scene with my husband. I reflect, if he speaks well, I don't think he will be angry, and I am angry, and the contradictions between the two sides will intensify.
I reflected that I was driven by his way of speaking and tone, and my reaction was a bit extreme. Next time I meet this situation, I should say I'm sorry first and just admit my mistake, and he won't say much.
When I bent down to pick up the ice cream, he immediately stopped being angry, his face softened and he saw my respect. So, I apologize from the beginning, and it's okay.
However, his attitude makes me feel that I have no chance to apologize. He is too strong.
Therefore, under reasonable circumstances, it is not easy to express your opinions and respect others calmly with love. And this also reflects a person's inner quality and spiritual quality.
I think if the "Mr. Dao" in Laozi's Tao Te Ching is the volunteer, he will definitely blame others with love rather than domineering attitude.
Because "Mr. Dao" is such a person:
"Being born with nothing, walking without relying, and growing without killing, is called Xuande."
Obviously, he has done a lot of things that benefit others, but he does not take credit, nor is he arrogant, nor is he arrogant.
What "Mr. Dao" shows is what I call inaction. Doing nothing is not doing nothing, but doing it with love: repay evil with good, repay evil with good, stick to the left road and not complain about others.
Many times, we use a "promising" way. Just like this volunteer who gave me a lecture, we unconsciously became teachers of justice, hurting others in the name of teachers of justice without knowing it. We thought it was all someone else's fault, someone else's fault.
Parents often do, couples do, and teachers do! Create many conflicts and oppositions, resulting in both losses. Think about it!
Learning profound wisdom, stopping at perfection, and treating people and things with love are what we should study hard to achieve, which is also the meaning of meditation.
Rome was not built in a day, and the accumulated habits formed over the years will change in a day, but I will not shrink back. Even if I take three steps back, it is still progress. Reforming yourself well is the gene that changes your life.
This is the end of the record of 2 1 day meditation camp, 2 1 record, nearly100000 words, which is the longest composition I have ever written. 2 1 day meditation is the longest meditation I have ever participated in and the most rewarding meditation. I think recording it is a great pleasure and another learning opportunity. How happy it is to learn from the times!
Thanks to Sister Hui's constant urging and encouragement, I have the strength to persist in completing the 2 1 record.
I would also like to thank my husband for not only praising me, but also sending me a manuscript fee, which made me feel particularly fulfilled in writing.
I also thank my family, friends and strangers for their poor reading. Thank you for your support and love!
Grateful! Goodbye!
I wish you all a happy life, a happy family and good health!
I wish the roads are widely spread, the weather is good, the country is peaceful and the people are safe, and the world is peaceful!