? I come from a small village in Baiyin, Gansu. I grew up in the countryside. As long as I can remember, I have done all kinds of farm work like a farmer, farming, harvesting crops and weeding. I remember when I was a child, my teacher would assign homework every day. In order to help my family, I basically finished my homework in advance at school. Summer is the hardest time. During the day, I endured exposure, worked in the scorching sun and sweated profusely. It is conceivable that after four o'clock in the afternoon, I will put up with mosquito bites. I have a weak body, carried sacks and done jobs that many people can't imagine. In this environment, my parents always say to me, "See? Do not study hard, get into a good university, and live like this in the future. " Young me, of course, I am very sensible in this environment. I can get a good grade in the exam without my parents saying much. In this way, I went to high school. I was admitted to a high school with high scores, and I was admitted to the best class in that high school. For this reason, I also got a chance to go out of the province. The school organized our high-scoring classmates to travel to Xi 'an for 5 days. To this end, my parents are happy, proud and proud of me. During the journey, I realized the beauty of the outside world.
Because high school is in the county, I started boarding life, and I feel very cool. Because I no longer work every day, the study task is getting heavier and heavier, so I go back once a week or even once a month. Later, due to various reasons and personal problems of math teachers, our class was basically not admitted to a good university, and most of them began to repeat. But I was admitted to an ordinary university in Tianjin, and I didn't plan to repeat it because my family was poor. I left my hometown with my luggage and went to Tianjin to study alone. Later, I went to work in Tianjin, and now I go home less and less. Once a year has become a luxury, especially in the past two years, epidemic prevention and control. There are many trivial matters in the unit, and I always feel very guilty. Every time I go home and see them, I feel bitter. I feel guilty because I didn't work hard enough to completely change my poor family life.
Because I was the best in my class when I graduated, I once swore in the university dormitory that I must make a difference or do well in a certain position. However, out of society, it gave me a blow. All kinds of things went wrong and I couldn't do anything well. I'm just an ordinary employee. I jumped to this state-owned enterprise three years ago to do party affairs and office work. Since then, I have been very proud. I feel that I have no worries in my future life and my work is very stable. I just want to find someone to marry, have children and marry myself. If the other family is ok, I will take my parents to live there. This will last until the end of 2020. I woke up and felt that I couldn't do this anymore.
Why can't it be like this again? I used to go to the gym to exercise after work, or indulge in brushing my favorite dramas at home, watching dramas while eating snacks, thinking about losing weight while eating snacks, and blaming myself. My mind is empty every day and I don't know what to do. I always want someone to lean on, and everything will be fine.
Until the end of 2020, my status changed. Work regularly every day, go to bed early and get up early, and feel very powerful every day. I got up the courage to tell my parents that I wanted to buy a house, and they all agreed, so I bought the first house in my life. Since then, I firmly believe that I can not only go to bed early and get up early, but also enrich my brain by reading. I couldn't read any books the year before. Amazingly, I persisted in reading books every day for several days.
? In this way, I will often think: is life perfect after buying a house? I was really happy for more than a week, but I think I should do something after this happiness. I have been thinking about this question, and I have been asking myself: am I satisfied with the status quo? What is my goal in life?
? I answered myself: I'm not satisfied with the status quo, and I'm still confused and have no sense of direction, but I think I should struggle and make a career in a limited time, which will be something I won't regret when I come to this world, so I went for a walk. In early March of 20021,I added Haig WeChat and saw stories about myself and entrepreneurship written by his circle of friends and official WeChat account.
Finally, I want to say to my future self: the future is unknown, but I want to be completely self-disciplined and do this job well. I think it may be because I have limited knowledge and have been doing nothing for so many years. Maybe I'm afraid of making mistakes and losing everything in front of me. In fact, I just dare not take that step. I want to be self-disciplined. I must manage myself first, and then expand my career.
Giving up is simple, but persistence is cool. Self-discipline changes life!