The first ray of sunshine shines on the gorgeous and exquisite apartment, trying harder and harder, shining into the room through the bright window, trying to wake up people who are still sleeping.
Unfortunately, it failed and was ruthlessly blocked by curtains specially designed to block the sun.
At this time, Meng Xiao, as usual, was lying on the soft cotton bed, immersed in a sweet dream.
Even now, the gongs and drums are loud and the horses are screaming, which can't wake her up. She was so tired that she slept until five in the morning.
The sun slowly turned to the west and stayed in the center. I worked harder after my promotion, and the sun became fiercer, not as soft as it was in the morning.
Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
The alarm clock went off.
Meng Xiao reflexively reached out and touched his mobile phone, closed his eyes, turned off the alarm clock, and immediately fell into a deep sleep.
When she woke up again, she sat up, stretched herself, swept away her fatigue, refreshed and full of energy.
She picked up the iPhone by the pillow and looked at the time by highlighting the screen.
12:3 1
Yes, half an hour earlier than yesterday.
She thought to herself.
I didn't touch my phone for three seconds, and the screen stopped automatically. A clear portrait is displayed on the black mobile phone screen.
The portrait showed puzzled eyes, as if he didn't know who the shadow was. She rubbed her eyes with her hand and continued to stare at the screen. Her eyes widened gradually and finally became a circle the size of a dime.
As if I couldn't believe anything, my eyes were full of undisguised shock.
She threw the iPhone out, as if it were a poisonous snake that wanted her life, not the mobile phone she played every day.
The IPhone flew out in an arc in the air and slammed into the wall. The great impulse tore it apart at once, and the broken parts were scattered on the ground.
"ah!"
A shrill scream rang through the sky and almost shook the apartment.
Meng Xiao quickly got out of bed with an incredibly frightened expression and ran barefoot to the cloakroom. Fragments of her mobile phone pierced her sole and shed bright red blood, but she was unaware of it.
In the huge full-length mirror, a girl with a fat figure, sunken eyes and ugly face, who can hardly distinguish her five senses, stretched out her hands as thick as a cow's leg and touched her face trembling.
Who is this?
Who is this face?
Who is this bucket waist elephant leg?
Who is this ugly fat man?
This is not her!
This is not her dream!
She is as light as a swallow, with a weak waist and bright eyes like stars. It seems that the story of Bidiu Sim is even more beautiful.
She stood in front of the full-length mirror for a long time, staring at the beautiful face she used to know, but in vain.
The mirror is still a girl who has gained more than 200 kilograms.
Belly growling, reminding the host that it's time to eat.
If it is at ordinary times, Meng Xiao would have been so hungry that he rushed downstairs regardless of his image and swept away the delicious food on the exquisite wooden table.
But now she is not in the mood, although she is hungry, even hungrier than usual.
She couldn't accept that she would be so deadly and squatted on the ground crying.
I don't know how long it took, but she stopped crying and her eyes were red and swollen, full of sadness.
"Little darling, it's time for dinner. What time did you go to bed last night? Why don't you come down for lunch? "
Someone pushed the door open. That's her mother.
Little dream quickly stretched out his hand over his face and stood up to find a place to hide.
Before she could hide, her mother had come in.
She is ashamed and annoyed, and her tone is not very good. "Mom, why didn't you knock first?"
She is ashamed to let anyone see her like this, even her mother who loves her most.
If she didn't change her appearance overnight, but changed from quantitative change to final qualitative change, then her mother would have seen her miserable appearance long ago.
She bowed her head and asked her mother when she knew she was so fat.
Unexpectedly, her mother suddenly let out a cry and asked, "Who are you? Why in my house? How did you get in? Where is my daughter? "
Little dream got a fright and looked up.
"Mom, I ..."
Her mother said in a bad tone, "you ugly bastard, who is your mother?" Get out of my house. Seeing you makes me sick. "
Say that finish, he grabbed the clothesline at the door and waved it relentlessly toward the little dream.
Because he was too fat and clumsy, Meng Xiao got a few strokes, and the tears that had just stopped poured out again.
She felt very sad, wronged, sad and regretful.
Her mother didn't even want to scold her before, let alone hit her hard. How can you dislike her so much because she has gained weight, or even deny her?
"Don't roll!"
"I'll kill you if you don't get out!"
"At first glance, you are a slacker. Eat and sleep every day, eat irregularly day and night, and you will be so fat. "
"Stay away from my little dream and don't spoil it for her."
Eating and sleeping ... sleeping and eating ... upside down day and night ... life has no rules. ...
This is her daily life style.
After dinner, lie in bed and play with your mobile phone. When I am tired, I sleep. Continue to lie in bed and play mobile phone after waking up.
It's uncomfortable not to stay up until four or five in the morning every day. Over time, I want to go to bed early, only to find that I can't sleep anyway.
Sleeping during the day and partying at night, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is the representative of the world's top night owls.
I have no good habits. I stay up late and get up late. I stay in bed almost 24 hours a day.
I don't eat breakfast every day, but I eat snacks when I am hungry. It's all junk food without any nutrition and high-calorie sweet snacks.
Sometimes I feel that I can't go on like this and want to make some changes. I searched many official WeChat accounts about health and sports, and after paying attention, I asked him to eat ash in the address book and never click in again.
I made an appointment with my friend to run for half an hour every morning, but she fell asleep every time. Sorry, I can't do it today. I slept late last night, so I was tired and sleepy. I fell asleep after dealing with my friend's fall.
I slept in a daze and swore to myself that I would go running again tomorrow.
With such comfort, I feel more comfortable and presumptuous. I think, I am so slim and beautiful, and God bless me with a body that is not fat. Has always been the envy of others.
Why run hard every day to keep fit?
Look, I've been doing whatever I want for three or four months, and every day is very relaxed and happy. I don't have to be more tired or fatter than others, and I'm still such a proud devil figure.
Running or something is overweight or obese. She doesn't need it.
……
So she asked for it, right? Can't blame others.
Meng Xiao's thinking is very confused now. She thought of all kinds of regrets in the past, regretted her irregular lifestyle, and wished she could go back to the past and wake herself up with a stick, thus changing all this.
She escaped from the house, and behind her, her mother was still saying something ugly but hitting the nail on the head.
She ran and cried all the way, tears blurred her vision, some couldn't see the road ahead clearly, the scene became distorted, and people coming and going had double images and couldn't see clearly.
Sniffing her nose, she wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and wiped away some tears, trying to make herself see clearly.
I rubbed it back and forth three or four times and didn't see everything around me become clear, but it was even more blurred.
What you see in your eyes becomes confused, dim, shaky and distorted, as if it had been treated by the strong heat wave of fire before reaching your retina.
She felt that her eyelids were heavy, she couldn't see the surrounding scenery clearly, and she was exhausted.
She held out her hand and waved it before her eyes. Suddenly she was shocked. She can't see her hands.
Less than ten centimeters away, she can't see anything!
The sudden change made her feel a burst of fear. She trembled with fear.
She touched her eyes and felt a soft little thing the size of a nail.
What is this?
Are they contact lenses?
Contact lenses! These are contact lenses!
therefore ...
It was because she cried so hard that she washed all her contact lenses that she could not see and was blind.
After understanding this, Xiaomeng not only didn't let go of her fear, but became more afraid and worried.
Her body trembled like a thin mouse meeting a group of hungry cats with green eyes, and her heart trembled with fear.
She just went to the hospital some time ago, and her eyes are obviously only 100 degree myopia, and it is pure pseudomyopia!
As long as you pay attention to rest, correct bad eye habits, and use some drugs to relieve ciliary muscle fatigue, it can be adjusted.
She doesn't need glasses at all, let alone buy contact lenses!
It's only been a few days. Why is it so serious all of a sudden?
How can you not see without glasses?
What the hell is going on here?
She just slept, neither in a coma for several months, nor without memory. How did she wake up to find that her body had undergone earth-shaking changes?
It is strange that she should know nothing about it.
She couldn't figure it out anyway.
She walked slowly forward, trying to find a place to sit for a while and clear her mind.
It's so confusing.
Like dozens of threads mixed together, a mess, disorganized, unable to sort out the mess.
At the moment she bent down, her stomach suddenly twitched, hardly giving her any buffer time, and then her stomach ached violently.
She couldn't move in pain, and sweat kept coming out from her forehead. Sweat and sweat joined together and merged into a stream flowing down her face.
The clothes are soaked in sweat, and the water can be wrung out with a slight twist, and the whole person seems to be soaked out of the water.
It hurts! It hurts too much!
Finally, she couldn't bear the severe pain, and her eyes went black and she lost consciousness.
I woke up again in a ward full of strong disinfectant.
The pain is gone, my eyes are still blurred and I can't see clearly. What I see is dim and pale.
The whole world seems to blur the background, vaguely unable to distinguish any physical objects. Great anxiety hung over her, making her particularly agitated and depressed.
She knows that she is still as fat as yesterday, and she can tell accurately without looking at her eyes and touching her hands.
Lying in bed, lazy and unwilling to move.
Someone pushed the door in. She shivered and quickly pulled the quilt over her head.
It's ugly!
She still can't adapt.
A man came in. She didn't look at him, but heard his voice.
As usual, the man read her physical condition in a cold voice without any ups and downs. "If you start treatment now, you may survive for about half a year or more."
"Without any treatment, life is relatively short, usually several months."
"Timely treatment, postoperative radiotherapy and chemotherapy, patients ..."
What little dream did the man behind him say? She didn't hear a word. In her mind, only the words "advanced gastric cancer" are playing in cycles.
A man is as cold as a machine, and the sound without temperature is like a death warrant. Whether she accepts it or not, she is forced to send a death notice.
Her eyes were hot and sour, and tears flowed uncontrollably, wetting the pillows and sheets.
Tears also wet her heart.
She couldn't help recalling her mother's nagging in the past, telling her to eat well, eat less puffed food and eat in the canteen. Don't buy fried chicken chops, fried chicken fillets, fried steaks, fried chicken legs and fried tenderloin at roadside stalls, eat less barbecue and spicy noodles, eat more nutritious food, don't always buy colored soda, and drink more milk, which is good for sleep and health. Those roadside snacks are delicious.
Mother told her to go to bed early and get up early. Don't always lie in bed. Go out for a walk and get some fresh air.
Mother told her not to stare at the mobile phone all the time, pay attention to rest her eyes, close her eyes for ten minutes every hour or two, rub her temples with her hands to relieve fatigue and do eye exercises.
Mom also said ...
Said a lot. ...
However, she didn't notice a word from left ear to right ear. Not only that, but she also dislikes her mother's verbosity, interrupting impatiently every time, and doesn't want to hear her say such nonsense from novels to big ones.
The past came to my mind one by one, and my little dream was heartbroken and my intestines were regretful, but it didn't help. I can only cry, let my tears flow.
After a day and a night of consideration, she chose to receive treatment. Her savings are1800,000, which is enough for several treatment courses. She wants to wait until her condition gets better.
Chemotherapy takes four to six courses of treatment, which is extremely painful. After the anesthetic effect, the whole body is like being bitten by thousands of ants, and it is difficult to breathe and sleep all day and night.
Hair is falling off faster and faster, so just shave it.
General weakness, no appetite, special attention should be paid to diet. Can only eat some light food, can't drink, can only drink boiled water.
After total gastrectomy, a small amount of meals, each time can only eat slowly bit by bit, no longer limited to three meals a day. Spicy food, cold greasy food, hard and indigestible food can't be eaten, only those light, nutritious and digestible foods can be eaten.
Chemotherapy is simply the most painful thing in the world. This almost tortured her into a human form. Whether she is fat or not, it's just that she is too thin, only skin and bones, like an old lady in her seventies and eighties.
After another chemotherapy, the anesthetic passed, and she woke up in pain, rolled in bed, had difficulty breathing and groaned in pain. ...
She suddenly lost her voice, couldn't move her limbs, and her breathing became more and more arduous and heavy, as if she were severely suffocated by her throat, and she would die the next second.
Her face was flushed with depression, but there was no sound in her mouth. She tried to move, but she couldn't lift her hands or move her legs. Her mind is getting confused, her eyes are bloodshot and her breathing is getting weaker and weaker. ...
Finally, a dazzling white light flashed before her eyes, and Meng Xiao suddenly opened his eyes and sat up, panting.
After breathing slowly, she took out her mobile phone and looked at the time.
12:3 1
She frowned. She has never slept so late since she was admitted to the hospital for chemotherapy.
What's going on today?
Hospital ... chemotherapy ...
And so on, pink curtains that block the sun, familiar soft big beds, literary wooden desks, pink decorations full of girlish feelings in the room. ...
This is not a hospital.
This is her room.
She can see things clearly, and she can see things clearly without glasses. She is no longer a vague shadow!
She looked down at her body, slender, tight skin, not fat, not bony, but it was her normal figure.
Like a sudden reaction, she flashed her mobile phone again and glanced at the date. Her summer vacation is just over half, and there are no torturing things such as obesity, high myopia, advanced gastric cancer and chemotherapy.
This is just a dream.
An unusually real dream.
All the pain, bitterness, annoyance, shame, injustice, hatred and regret experienced in the dream ... are like being there, making the little dream as it was, and I can't forget it for a long time after waking up. ...
She rushed into the cloakroom and stood in front of the full-length mirror, studying her body and face carefully.
Her face is a little fatter, her chin is a little rounder than before, and her clavicle is not as prominent as before. She lifted her coat, and there was some fat on her stomach, which was not as flat as before.
Recently, the extremely decadent and irregular life is really affecting her silently, pulling her to the bad side and trying to change without her knowing it.
She suddenly remembered a chicken soup she had seen before. Every bit of fat on your body is a sign of your compromise with life. It just doesn't make sense!
Fortunately, she still has a chance to make a change, not as regretful as in her dream, but helpless.