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16 days, 14 15, holding her breath for countless times, Li Xiaozhong "knocked" her death worry with her eyes in the interview: Qi. ...

"I can't bear to die until the end," she knocked on the screen again. After suffering from gradual freezing for four years, she can hardly move now and can only rely on the computer's eye control system to communicate with people. The orange light spot controlled by eye movement is between the letters on the keyboard, and the typing sound image of "da, da" is a stagnant sound, telling the choice and contradiction between life and death.

Li Xiaozhong is typing through the computer eye control system. The pictures in this article are all pictures of Chen Canjie, a reporter of this newspaper, except for special marks.

But when the interview question touched on why she refused to die, the light suddenly disappeared-her eyes were out of focus.

"There is another secret," she said. She leaned back in her wheelchair wearily and narrowed her eyes to rest. In the wheelchair near the head, there are three circles of wire, which nobody notices every day-she tried to hang herself with wire. To some extent, death is only a stone's throw away from this 50-year-old woman, so "close" that even people around her ignore it.

Metal wire tied to the back of the wheelchair head.

Hire another party to commit a crime

The truck whistled at the window from time to time. In the residential area of Anhua County, Hunan Province, in the three-story small building next to provincial highway 3 17, Li Xiaozhong has long been used to these vibrating doors and windows at night. What made her flustered this day was that the person beside the bed unscrewed two cans of gas and snored.

On the evening of July 1 1 in 2022, after leaving a few words for her daughter on WeChat, Li Xiaozhong wanted to say good night to the patient and send her a red envelope. However, the sound of gas constantly aggravated her fear and made her afraid to type.

"My heart feels like a cat has scratched it." Li Xiaozhong rolled painfully to the floor, but he didn't feel anything. He is just anxious: why didn't he win? Before, she had taken diazepam, and now she felt unusually awake to make sure she was dead. Her brain had nothing to think about except. Finally, she saw the dawn outside the window.

At 7 o'clock the next day, nanny Su Meilian found out and carried her out of the room. Li Xiaozhong survived in despair.

This is not her first attempt. Su Meilian said that Li Xiaozhong bought two cans of gasoline last month and put them on the stairs. By the end of June, the son-in-law moved to the bedroom-Li Xiaozhong said he wanted to practice his hand and have a rope tied to the gas tank. She remembers that Li Xiaozhong once pulled the gas tank to the ground and said that she was getting better and better with great strength.

But secretly, Li Xiaozhong tried to turn on the gas, and the result ended in failure. Her palm was too tight to turn the switch. In fact, after realizing that she lost her ability, she began to seek the help of acquaintances online and asked if she knew anyone who used drugs. She thought that these people needed money most, but they didn't find it, but many people who failed in business wanted to do it.

Finally, Li Xiaozhong found Wang Xiaojiang, a native of Hebei, at a price of 20,000 yuan. Li Xiaozhong said that Wang Xiaojiang met at a center she visited when she opened a barber shop in 2022, and later he became the boyfriend of her best friend. Wang Xiaojiang has a wide network of contacts, which is why she is looking for him. As for "lack of money", he once lost money when he opened a shop. According to a report presented to reporters by her daughter Chen, her occupation is "repatriation".

On the day of the incident, Li Xiaozhong told the nanny that three friends were coming, and there was not enough room for Su Meilian to go back to her home to sleep.

There is only one "friend", and that is Wang Xiaojiang. Li Xiaozhong recalled that Wang Xiaojiang walked into the room that night, and he looked scared, too. His hands were shaking when he turned on the gas. After he went downstairs, she transferred the money. Soon found the door open, afraid of gas floating out, she asked him to come back, Wang Xiaojiang agreed. After about 20 minutes, Li Xiaozhong knew that he would never come back.

If the door of Li Xiaozhong's bedroom is not closed properly, it will automatically pop up a gap of 8- 10cm.

For the next two days, Li Xiaozhong didn't eat or drink, but his body didn't feel anything. She wants to go back and pay for the murder of 19800 yuan. Li Xiaozhong didn't give up the idea of suicide. She blamed the failure on Wang Xiaojiang's carelessness and didn't doubt Wang Xiaojiang's sincerity in trying to help her.

Three months later, she found Wang Xiaojiang for the second time, and they negotiated to use the powder. Wang Xiaojiang stressed that he prepared enough to make a cow die twice. Although Li Xiaozhong had little doubt and was afraid to spit it out after mixing, he agreed. "People are almost like cows."

This time, Li Xiaozhong offered 50,000 yuan. She was determined to die and tried to control it carefully. She left a message to Wang Xiaojiang on WeChat, saying that she would prepare half a bowl of rice paste. After mixing the powder evenly, she must put the bowl straight and feed it slowly. She has lost her tongue and can't pour it, otherwise she can't drink it even if she choked. Considering the medicinal properties, it must be fed at one time, then wiped with a wet towel, and finally taken away and thrown away with a bowl and spoon.

"Don't worry," Wang Xiaojiang replied.

After Nanny Li left on June 65438+1October 65438+1October 9, 2022, she entered her room at 3 o'clock in the morning and asked her to transfer money first. Then, he fed Li Xiaozhong rice paste mixed with "medicine". Li Xiaozhong remembers that he looked much calmer than last time.

At the last moment of his life, Li Xiaozhong was anxious about the chat records in WeChat. She didn't want to leave evidence of Wang Xiaojiang's crime. "I tremble when I am flustered. This feeling of life and death. " Wang Xiaojiang just took her cell phone and left. Li Xiaozhong decided that the drug was fake and didn't respond within 5 minutes.

"Collapse is my last life-saving money." After two days and one night, Li Xiaozhong sat in a wheelchair without sleeping, and looked for help everywhere on the computer. At first, she was afraid to confess to her daughter. After discovering that WeChat was hacked by Wang Xiaojiang, she had to ask her daughter for help. Li Xiaozhong said that under the mental shock of that month, the physical load was no less than the damage caused by the last poisonous gas.

Less than a week later, Wang Xiaojiang was arrested by the police in linxi county, Xingtai City, Hebei Province, and returned the stolen money. Li Xiaozhong asked his daughter to help write a letter of understanding. She said she didn't want to hurt him for the rest of her life.

According to the judgment of the refereeing documents, the "medicine" that Wang Xiaojiang fed was actually potato chip powder. On March 6, 2022, he was sentenced to two years' imprisonment, suspended for three years and fined 5,000 yuan by Anhua County, Hunan Province.

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At the beginning of being diagnosed as a freezing person, her daughter Chen once heard her say: Just fall into a bucket and drown. Chen knows that what a strong mother says is more like angry words than really wanting to die. "She also feels unwilling."

Li Xiaozhong was born in 197 1. His desire for survival is as deeply rooted in his heart as those childhood memories about hunger, poverty and loneliness. Once her parents just borrowed sweet potato powder, and she was so hungry that she ate it raw. Her parents divorced when she was 6, and her mother remarried twice when she was 7. After that, she and her husband worked outside all the year round, and Li Xiaozhong was taken care of by her adoptive father's sister.

Even when she goes home for the New Year, Li Xiaozhong's mother seldom buys her anything. Because of his poor family and his mother's inability to attend school, Li Xiaozhong dropped out of primary school and became an apprentice in a barber shop in the town.

In the barbershop, she will help the master find customers: open her mouth, have a good attitude, keep up with her hands and pull people to their seats. At that time, Li Xiaozhong was the youngest in the shop, and she always felt that she was going to be "scared to death". Once the master was in hospital, she didn't bring anyone. She was on tenterhooks all day, thinking that it would be nice to have money, so she took it out and lied to the master that she earned it herself without being watched.

Photos of Li Xiaozhong when he was young.

"I want to earn money, at least live an ordinary life." /kloc-After going to school at the age of 0/6, Li Xiaozhong opened a shop in partnership with others. She borrowed another sum of money to decorate the old house and rent it out. The annual rent is 6,800 yuan, which is the annual salary of two workers in the county. At the age of 20, she married steve chen, a temporary worker in the town's power plant. After the marriage, the two have borrowed 1.4 million yuan and bought a bus for passenger transport. Business is full. Li Xiaozhong thought he would run to the road of becoming rich in three to five years, but was ruined by her husband's blow.

In 2000, the couple went to work in Zhuhai. Li Xiaozhong couldn't count how many businesses she had done: barber shop, supermarket, room, mobile phone shop ... Later, due to the irreconcilable contradiction with her husband, she went alone in 2022 and reopened the barber shop. She didn't give up until she finished her work. On a cold winter day, she kept cleaning until 3 am. At that time, she had her period and was very tired to go to the hospital.

Li Xiaozhong remembers that in that 28-meter shop, there were several pots of flowers she bought specially. She waters them every day, and the lush life seems to be pinning her hopes on the elderly: earning enough money for the elderly to go home. Unexpectedly, the loss of control of the body extinguished this possibility.

In July, 2022, Li Xiaozhong, who was busy mopping the floor in the shop, suddenly slipped and scratched his right knee when he turned around. The doctor said that he sprained his leg. After being ill at home for 3 months, I still can't walk steadily. She wanted to go to the community to exercise, but she fell down again on the way. At that time, when a car came, it was difficult for her legs to retreat.

Ran a number of medical orthopedics, the cause is still unknown. At that time, just as the store stopped renting, Li Xiaozhong decided to go back to Hunan to see a doctor and recuperate. Before leaving on May 14, 2022, she reluctantly sent a circle of friends: farewell for the time being.

In Xiangya Hospital, Li Xiaozhong was diagnosed as suspected gradual freezing: a typical neurodegenerative disease characterized by gradual and then slow loss of eating or breathing function. Most patients will die of respiratory failure within 3-5 years, but there is no cure for people who are gradually frozen. Most patients rely on reason to delay their illness, and some patients can survive for more than 10 years.

Tuesdays with morrie, a documentary, vividly described the gradual freezing disease: it is like a lighted candle, melting your nerves and turning your body into a pile of wax. Usually, "burning" rises slowly from the legs, and finally it can only rely on the breath stuck in your throat, while your conscious mind is fastened in a soft shell.

"If you get this disease, you will be sentenced." Li Xiaozhong can't accept the results of the preliminary diagnosis. She went to Huaihua for acupuncture for two months, and spent nearly 48 thousand yuan on medical treatment, transportation and hotel. She didn't think much. "I want to try my best." A doctor of traditional Chinese medicine offered to have an attack, but Li Xiaozhong dared to try, but the doctor dared not prescribe medicine.

Chen recalled that when she got the report in the hospital, her mother would check all kinds of information and make her own "diagnosis". She often cries when the doctor doesn't inform her. But when she got to the hospital, she always found the corresponding department in the crowded crowd, and she was still in the front. "She will panic again and will not be confused." At that time, Li Xiaozhong was still able to walk, just asking his daughter to help him.

But at that time, the atmosphere between relatives was unusually silent and depressed. Li Xiaozhong stayed at his daughter's house during his stay in Changsha. Once the nanny asked Chen to eat more meat and casually said, "I'm old, and it's no use eating." Li Xiaozhong thought she was being sarcastic. The family are afraid to joke and chat, for fear that something will suddenly poke her pain point.

After the second diagnosis in June, 5438+October, 20221October, the desperate daughter spent 30,000 yuan to make a scene for Li Xiaozhong, and her face was too full. "This is a nightmare." Her body seems to burn faster. When her grandson was born in March, she wanted to hug her for a while, so she had to sit down first. Her arms were tired and she was afraid of falling on the child. By June, she was already in a wheelchair.

"The money is spent too badly, and there are too many detours." Even after the diagnosis, Li Xiaozhong still didn't give up. In his hometown of Anhua County, he did physical therapy and ate health products. At most, he takes five kinds of medicine in turn every day, just to alleviate the development of the disease. The imported medicine "Li Rutai" will consume more than 4000 yuan in January. When more than 400,000 pension funds bottomed out, she couldn't walk, completely gave up her survival, and went to Changsha to stay with her daughter for two months, hoping to spend her last days with her family.

Back home, Li Xiaozhong decided to return home with fallen leaves. "If you live well, you will die happily when you die."

After the diagnosis, Li Xiaozhong only needs more than 4,000 yuan a month to take the imported medicine "Lirutai".

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"When I came back, I was particularly sad at the thought of farewell." When I mentioned going back to my hometown from Changsha, Li Xiaozhong's eyes were a little moist. The interview happened to be a holiday, and her daughter's family came to visit her. When the computer read her words, the family suddenly fell silent. My two-and-a-half-year-old grandson babbles and keeps repeating, "Sad, sad."

At that time, Li Xiaozhong tried her best not to let her relatives notice her thoughts. On the way back to her hometown, she didn't talk much, mostly looking at the scenery along the way, or brushing her mobile phone, forcing herself to transfer complicated feelings.

Toilet booster. When Li Xiaozhong just returned to his hometown from Changsha, he could hardly use it to see the scenery on the balcony.

Li Xiaozhong said that if you die early, you won't drag down your relatives, and you will suffer less. Before hiring the murderer, about four months after the diagnosis, she had it bought from the Internet and put it in two vitamin bottles in a cosmetic bag. During her two months in Changsha's daughter's house, she secretly practiced screwing the bottle cap and tried it. At that time, her sensory function declined rapidly, paying special attention to swallowing function. She is afraid that if she is delayed, she will lose her ability. Back to her hometown, she had to rely on her thick body to "crawl" to take medicine.

While there was still strength in his hand, in June 65438+10/October 65438+June 2022, Li Xiaozhong sent the nanny away and poured yogurt. The first two, she swallowed her hand trembling, really killing me. She couldn't bear to part with her relatives, so she had to say to herself, Come on, don't hesitate.

Chen recalled that her mother had been awake for two days, during which she woke up several times. Others just laughed, shook their heads and drooled until she regained consciousness. What she said was: Why am I still alive? This aggravated Li Xiaozhong's illness and made it difficult for her to serve dishes.

After that, Li Xiaozhong tried to hang himself with a wire. She bought a steel wire and found that she overestimated her remaining strength and replaced it with the thinnest one. After June 28, 2022, she asked the nanny to tie wire around the house to avoid the nanny's suspicion.

Unable to break, Li Xiaozhong replaced it with the finest wire of the same style.

At the time of implementation, she thought that "it would be solved after two turns and two twists", but when the wire slowly approached the neck, the strength of holding back was so short and small, and the hand was loosened, and life returned to the original point. Li Xiaozhong said with some regret that he almost got stuck in his neck.

After failing to try the wire, she bought gasoline and hired a murderer twice. ...

For Li Xiaozhong, life seems to need more courage, just like being shrouded in a shadow. The out-of-control body is the most intuitive change in her body. The original 1.56 m, 106 kg body is alive now, and the skin on the skeleton is slack; Li Xiaozhong all parts of the body, now can barely shake a few fingers and neck; She also lost her language and struggled to spit out more and more vague and slow words. Until a few months ago, there was only a whoosh-the kind that shook out of her body and the airflow rubbed her throat.

Usually, when eating, use a spoon to paste the vegetables and porridge, slowly swallow half a spoon at a time, and feed for one hour. It takes two people to take a bath. After putting her flat on the chair, one person is responsible for cleaning and the other is responsible for stabilizing her body to prevent slipping. Because it is inconvenient to go to the toilet, Li Xiaozhong deliberately reduced the number of times he drank water. He was really thirsty and only had one or two drinks.

Last summer, some cardboard was pasted outside the window to keep out the light, because Li Xiaozhong thought the light was too dazzling.

The screen window in the bathroom is broken and the cardboard is stuck.

Not long ago, a mouse passed through her neck and she couldn't move. Fear made her. Last time, the mouse climbed on the back of her head. She always thinks there are bugs in her hair. I don't know if it is an illusion. After all, she only bathed twice in the 50 days before the interview.

Idle heater is used as the pedal of Li Xiaozhong. If she can bow her head, she will see a little mouse sticking its head out from the bottom of the pot several times during the interview, as if she were coveting the leftover skins, cakes and dried salted fish left on the table for nearly a week. This small building was built 2 1 year ago, and the residence on the second floor smells of acid wood.

"Home is like a field," Li Xiaozhong, who was imprisoned in a wheelchair, typed this sentence staring at the computer on the stand in front of him. Chen remembers that her mother used to be the kind of person who helped clean the room while scolding slovenly, mopping the floor almost every day.

Li Xiaozhong, who has always been critical, finally tried to be decent. It takes nearly 1 hour to wash your face, brush your tongue and clear your throat in the morning. Jiang Anhong, the new nanny, is a little rough. Although Li Xiaozhong repeatedly stressed that she was short of breath, Jiang Anhong often wiped her face with a towel. On one occasion, Li Xiaozhong was constipated and spent a long time in the toilet. When he comes out, ask the nanny to help him out next time. Jiang Anhong, who has been talking to others almost all the time, directly pressed the lower abdomen.

The words "Wash your hands" are posted on the bedside of Li Xiaozhong to remind the nanny to pay attention to hygiene.

The only thing Li Xiaozhong can control is probably the computer he faces all day. There is a mannequin on the main interface, and the eye control system can mark the mannequin according to the position where the eyes stay, and call the nanny with shortcut buttons such as "itch here" and "pain here". Once the eye control system is broken, "it's like killing me half-life." Through it, Li Xiaozhong can chat, shop and play. She says it is not difficult to spend a day like this.

Operation interface of computer eye control system.

But insomnia is another matter. The hard bed made her ache all night. In the past, Li Xiaozhong's greater hobby was buying clothes. She loves beauty, so she insists on swimming. If she has no time to go out, she will arrange hula hoops, sit-ups and leg lifts. Nowadays, it is difficult to turn over.

"The past and fantasy are dreams." Just thinking wildly, Li Xiaozhong is often trapped in various memories. Sad, she doesn't want to talk about it. Have fun, sing a K with friends after work, take a bath in the bath, or at least travel a few times. She regretted it a little. She should have enjoyed it more.

Lying in bed, she imagined that in another world, she would open a barber shop in her daughter's community-earning another 10 thousand yuan a month and helping to take care of her grandchildren and enjoy her old age.

Li Xiaozhong's grandson (right) plays house and makes her up. Li Xiaozhong can't move, she can only laugh in a wheelchair.

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In the interview, there was a question that Li Xiaozhong didn't want to touch: What happened besides getting sick?

During the murder, Su Meilian took care of Li Xiaozhong for nearly four months. She recalled that at that time, Li Xiaozhong talked about all kinds of past events. "I was so happy and laughed a lot." For example, her husband used to chase her and always showed her at night. When I mentioned eating before, the tone was still like chatting. "(That time) her husband was angry with her and didn't want to live."

According to Su Meilian's observation, steve chen will lose his temper when taking care of Li Xiaozhong, but nursing is quite intimate. It's just that most of the time, he is not at home. Li Xiaozhong has played three times. Su Meilian said that Li Xiaozhong once complained to her that in the early days of her illness, her family were fine. If she wants something, she will buy it for her at once. If she can do it for you, she will try to do it for you. "After a long time, her heart will weaken."

Su Meilian tried to enlighten her. If she wants to open her heart, she will keep everything in her heart, and it will only get worse. In her opinion, it is difficult to ask his family about Li Xiaozhong: everyone has a temper, and it is difficult to be patient after a long time.

Since Li Xiaozhong returned home after his illness, the nanny has been mainly responsible for taking care of him. However, due to frequent nanny changes, steve chen sometimes needs to take care of him before finding the next nanny.

Steve chen is feeding Li Xiaozhong.

Chen said that her mother had called home three times before. Li Xiaozhong thinks that if her husband is here, the nanny will at least pay attention and dare not bully her.

During the interview, nanny Jiang Anhong resigned, and steve chen wanted to support Li Xiaozhong. He often sleeps in his room because he has a stomachache from drinking, and the feeding time is irregular. When it comes to feeding, sometimes he is so absorbed in watching the live broadcast that Li Xiaozhong has to "tell" him to concentrate on feeding. Hearing this, steve chen gave a twist to his brow.

Li Xiaozhong said that steve chen once teased her that the porridge she ate during confinement was the same as that of the sow, and she didn't eat that meal.

After Li Xiaozhong hired a murderer for the second time, steve chen, who was originally engaged in freight transportation outside, stayed at home and stopped working outside. During the two-week interview, steve chen spent most of his time playing cards outside. The reporter has seen him several times. When asked questions, steve chen often keeps silent or walks away.

In the only interview, steve chen said there were several reasons for not going to work. "(I) can't go out to work, I can't go all at once, and the nanny is unstable." He added, "Now that we are driving, he doesn't want to get his own car (body) and has no money. It is not easy to find a job when you are old. "

Chen's determination to die also has her complicated feelings. Chen's grandfather has stomach cancer and has to take care of farm work when he is ill. Once he was really in pain, he decided to stay at home and be held down by steve chen. At the beginning of Li Xiaozhong's diagnosis, he talked to her privately about it, saying it was the most regrettable thing in his life, and finally watched his grandfather die painfully.

For Chen himself, it was equally uncomfortable to learn about his mother's illness at first. During the mother's visit, she was always with her when she was pregnant. Seeing that Xixi couldn't cure the disease, she went to Chinese medicine. At that time, her mother was able to get up and take two steps, which was remarkable in her eyes, but her mother was skeptical about Chinese medicine. "I feel useless." After a long period of persuasion, both mother and daughter were very angry. "She may have some pain that we can't feel ... I can't give her medicine like a child, can I?"

As his illness worsened, Chen Ye felt out of control. Unlike signing a surgical order, she felt that her mother had a result: respiratory failure. "Slow knife cutting", nutrition, ventilator, cutting more slowly.

Chen said that she was numb now, but when she mentioned it, she still felt suffocated. In her eyes, her mother's range of activities is even smaller than her mother's, and she can only eat in a daze. If I shut down my house with this computer for two years, "I'm crazy and blind."

Chen Tong often takes care of her children in Changsha. Every time she learned about her mother afterwards, she found it difficult to communicate with her mother. Both mother and daughter avoided the topic of life and death. Persuade mother to live, she can't even get by herself. Asphyxia can be advanced and delayed, which choice is more extreme? The problem lingers in my mind, and there is no solution. "But what can you do to help her?" No. "

After his illness, the photos of his grandson and Chen should be considered before sending them to his mother. The child is happy all day, jumping around, afraid of her if she gives too much, and afraid that she will think too much if she gives too little. Chen said that she had thought about bringing her children back to her parents' house to add some anger, and she could take care of her mother herself. She gave up after trying.

The atmosphere at home made her feel the familiar pain again: her parents had been quarreling since childhood. "I've seen enough." She described her parents' moods as capricious, "love each other and kill each other", and her mother liked to bump guns, refuel and ignite, and she was also grumpy. Even if mother later became a patient, she wouldn't care if she lost her temper. Chen chose to avoid it. She doesn't want her children to go through what she went through.

Now, Chen Yi goes back once every two months. Li Xiaozhong, who visits more often, is her mother-in-law. At the age of 8 1, she always sits silently, thinking that every day is a day. When Li Xiaozhong was angry, she cooked the mung bean soup she knew and bought glucose. She doesn't understand the choice of death. "It's just her own loss."

Li Xiaozhong's mother-in-law and grandson.

But Li Xiaozhong doesn't think so. She said that whether to live or not depends on family conditions and whether to have money. "I have nothing." When she first came to work in Zhuhai, she thought that her daughter would always secretly wipe her tears when she was in a shoe factory. Now she says that her illness continues to the late stage and she relies more on her family, but her daughter has her own family. "It is impossible to take care of me for a long time." In the interview, when the reporter asked about his past before he got sick, Li Xiaoyi told him: "Don't make me so capable. Now I am relying on others, which will make people even more annoying. "

Life and death

Today, Li Xiaozhong has more comfort and understanding, perhaps among patients. She doesn't talk much with her former girlfriend. She joked that others can't be so idle and sit in front of the computer all day.

Discuss the embarrassment of the disease in the patient group, and often share with each other various drugs to treat phlegm, constipation, insomnia, depression and other problems, as well as the "tangled" mood of life and death. A patient sent "Anle tablets" to relieve anxiety, and was teased: If I really can, I guess everyone bought them.

Looking at these messages, Li Xiaozhong seemed to smile, and specially replied to the patient's sentence "Be careful not to eat too much", and then enlarged the photos of the drugs and collected them. At present, Li Xiaozhong takes most painkillers. If he sits for a long time, he will eat one or two tablets.

Sometimes the group will send information about the resale of therapeutic instruments such as ventilators, which often means that a patient has passed away. The sudden disappearance of her sick friend is still hard for Li Xiaozhong to accept. During the interview, she was trapped in those memories, her eyes seemed to be chasing the distance, and she looked extremely tired. She yawned, clicked the box on the screen and asked the nanny to help her wipe the tears from her eyes.

An "old patient" who is still active in the group has also touched her. The other 1996 was only 28 years old when she became ill, and now she can still watch the park with her family in a wheelchair. Li Xiaozhong thinks that if there are other people's families, she may have some contradictions in demanding death. She hopes to get better soon and get cancer again as soon as possible. In the interview, she repeatedly told me to write the proposal of euthanasia into the newspaper, even if the possibility of realizing it is only one in ten thousand, I will fight for it.

In fact, Li Xiaozhong didn't give up after two failed recruitment. She found several possible candidates on the list of friends, some asked for money transfer first, and some asked for whimsy. As soon as she mentioned this, she retorted, "Who dares to come? It's all over the news (the media reported that Li Xiaozhong hired a murderer). Isn't asking for money fatal? I have no money either. "

For Li Xiaozhong, the balance of the account is a "countdown", and he will think of this figure from time to time. The nanny's expenses are all paid by Li Xiaozhong. At present, steve chen is also short of money, and she also bears the water, electricity, gas and food at home. Li Xiaozhong has to stare at it every day and calculate how long she can pay the nanny. Every time she is afraid that the money is gone and people are still there.

When asked about the remaining savings, she nervously sent a private letter, "Don't talk in front of the nanny." Li Xiaozhong has always said that he is rich, afraid of being looked down upon by the nanny, and he will be bullied even more in the future. She said that she made a "bad nanny" hungry, and later warned that she would deduct her salary one day at a time to solve the problem of eating.

It's not that she doesn't want to live. Li Xiaozhong said that it was difficult for him to breathe for several seconds at a time. In fact, it's time to use the ventilator. Passive waiting for suffocation, she wants to live with dignity and dignity. She hasn't opened the second-hand ventilator donated by the patient's family before, and I don't know if it can be used.

During the interview, the reporter helped her raise money. She wants to buy an automatic turn-over bed and strive for a county pension bed.

After learning about Li Xiaozhong, the mayor of Anhua County came to visit him. Photo courtesy of respondents

Since launching the fundraising campaign on September 27th, Li Xiaozhong has released the webpage on the computer screen. Every time the amount is updated, she has to refresh it again, as if to confirm that the accumulated figures are not lying. Two days later, the number stopped at more than thirteen thousand. However, she is still habitually brushing the interface.

After that, she sent a link to her relatives and friends, requesting to forward it. Li Xiaozhong doesn't seem to realize that it is basically the same every time, so you can copy and paste it. But she still insisted, knocking everyone to repeat.

As of press time, Li Xiaozhong's interface is dripping.

(Wang Xiaojiang is a pseudonym)

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