After three days in Zen Valley, I stopped talking.

On March 9, 20021year, Li wrote in Shenzhen.

From the day of shock to the three days of meditation in Lotus Valley, the most important thing in these three days is not to talk, to smell the word in the morning, to meditate, to set up piles, to be vegetarian and to rest early.

I haven't got up so early for a long time, and it's still not bright at 6 o'clock, and it's hazy and gray. It's raining in Mao Mao and it's sunny and cool.

I was unconscious-I forgot to bring my umbrella when I went out. The umbrella was already in the bag, and I forgot it when I went out-I have been lacking awareness in my life recently, and because of this, I hope to improve my awareness through meditation.

The mobile phone was taken away early in the morning-starting today, it can't be used for three days-no longer seeing the world through a small screen, but there is a feeling of rediscovering the world. Without the mobile phone, there seems to be a lot less to do at once, and I am even a little stunned. I don't know what to do next I waste my spare time thinking of some unnecessary actions, such as walking around the garden, walking back and forth on the valley path, or cats and dogs in Doby. In short, it is full of aimless fun.

Before breakfast, everyone recited a thank-you letter. I feel that every word comes from my heart. Halfway through the reading, I was moved to the feeling of crying. I choked for a few seconds and even shed tears.

After breakfast, you need to wash the dishes yourself. It is natural to use tea tree seeds, a brown powder, to remove the oil from the dishes when washing dishes. Wash the bowl carefully and put it on one side of the bowl rack.

Walking on the way to the meditation hall. There is no special scenery on the small mountain road, but it is very natural and quiet, and only birds and insects can be heard. Because of silence, when you meet fellow initiates on the road, you don't need to say hello politely, just nod or smile politely. Because of silence, there is less insincerity, less rhetoric and less right and wrong between people, and the relationship between people becomes very real and pure.

Walking on the mountain road, I stepped on the dew on the roadside grass and got my shoes and socks wet. Poke the dew on the pine needles on the roadside and wet the sleeves of the clothes. Seeing a yellow bug climb to the top of the grass, I felt childlike and touched the grass. I was so scared that the bug grabbed the top of the grass nervously and didn't dare to move. I am on the horns of a dilemma. I laughed, the prank was satisfied, and I stopped teasing. I suddenly found myself awakened by these little flowers and grass bugs.

There is a small square garden at the entrance of the meditation hall. There are some flowers and plants in it, which are not expensive, including a bougainvillea in full bloom. Bougainvillea flowers are red, leaves are green and full of vitality. There are several unknown small shrubs beside bougainvillea. There are two kinds of small fruits on the bush, one is purple and the other is yellow. The fruit is smooth and shiny and looks lovely. Looking at the bone bud in a mosaic next to it, I imagine its future opening. Bees gather honey among flowers and butterflies fly among leaves, finding a feeling of playing in the country when I was a child, full of pure happiness.

The classes in the meditation hall are free, and the teacher doesn't ask you to sit still. Many people can't help but lean or lie back or listen to the teacher, and the atmosphere is very relaxed. In this free atmosphere, I also put down my concerns. I was immersed in the course and completely relaxed. I felt sleepy for a while and didn't need to be strong. I was only half asleep, closed my eyes and listened to the teacher explain meditation. I don't need to recite knowledge anyway. As long as you sow one or two seeds of mindfulness in your heart, it will take root, blossom and bear fruit one day. Listening here is not a training, a meeting, no need to respond to others in time, no need to use quick wits to solve problems, everything is relaxed, casual and stress-free, making people feel very comfortable.

Meditation is to learn how to adjust your body, breath and heart, and realize the reality of "awareness" through meditation. Awareness is unconscious between breaths-between breathing and inhalation. Awareness of breathing and inhalation, awareness of the birth and death of thought, is the beginning of awareness "awareness." Only with awareness can there be a true self.

During the break of the meditation hall, a song called "Wake Up" is played circularly, which is very Zen. Hearing the last sentence "Life is impermanent to wake up", I have a feeling of being awakened by the morning bell and the evening drum, which touches the heartstrings and makes my eyes moist for a while.

Walking on the way back from the meditation hall to the dormitory is downhill sand, rustling and rhythmic. Ears are full of birds and insects, far and near, I don't know how many.

Three meals a day are simple vegetarian. There are not many dishes, just three or four, all simple dishes, such as scrambled eggs with tomatoes, stewed potato chips, oily wheat dishes and so on. Rice is also brown rice, as well as porridge or soup of whole grains, which is simple and delicious.

So I ate a lot for dinner. Coupled with my own gluttony, I always feel that I don't have enough to eat, and I want to eat more. I will eat too much soon, and my stomach will swell. Only when people feel uncomfortable or even painful will they begin to reflect on the consequences of their desires-the control of their desires is the real spiritual lesson.

When I was having dinner, I found myself sitting on an old bench, eating a simple meal in the dim light, and I felt a long-lost feeling in my heart, as if I had dinner in a small town in my hometown when I was a child.

Wake up at six the next day. I slept well that night. I slept for eight hours. I didn't get up at night, didn't dream, wasn't disturbed at all, and slept refreshed.

At breakfast, my desire to eat has been restrained, not greedy, and I took the right amount of food according to yesterday's appetite, not greedy.

When I read the words of thanks, I smelled the fragrance of the drifting food, and I felt a simple joy.

Today continues the weather of yesterday, with drizzle, misty valley and cool air.

Today, during meditation, the teacher asked fellow practitioners to run around in a whirlpool, so that you could feel what it was like to have no sentient beings, no men or women, all sentient beings and the world of mortals rolling around. I was walking very fast when I was stopped by the teacher's order. My body immediately felt qi and blood upwelling, my hands and feet were slightly numb, and my mind suddenly became empty. No ideas come out. The teacher said that this is a state of no thoughts, which is the feeling of realizing the present. The teacher told us to lie down and sleep at once. I immediately lay down and fell asleep comfortably, without thinking, carefree.

The living conditions in Zen Valley are simple and there are not many choices. This lifestyle, which can't be chosen, is simple and pure, which is very touching. I also want to return to such a simple and pure lifestyle one day.

I saw my uncle cooking and walking carefully on the wire between two trees. It's really sweaty to watch him balance left and right at every step. But he finally fell off the tightrope halfway-in fact, it is not easy to keep balance in life. Do you walk slowly to keep your balance every step, or do you walk fast to keep yourself from being tripped over by inertia? This is indeed a problem, and it is a question of value choice.

At noon, I took a lunch break in the meditation hall, accompanied by the sound of rain and music, lying on the cushion with my clothes on. The sound of rain is endless and the music is long, which makes people sleepy and makes their sleep have a unique charm. The song is called Prajna.

After a long period of meditation, I gradually found the feeling of peace. I overcame the feeling of cross-legged pain with the mentality of accepting all discomfort and entered a calm and wave-free state of mind. At first, there will be some distractions in my mind from time to time, but gradually my own thoughts come up and I can feel the rise of my thoughts. I feel a white light in front of my eyes, and I have a clear feeling in my mind, but this feeling is not easy to maintain, and I will soon disturb the calm heart lake because of distractions from time to time. Soon, the feeling of silence passed. It is not easy to keep quiet.

In meditation, experience how to "stop" and then learn how to "watch". Look before you feel. That is, love is empty, that is, love is clear, that is, love is love. Misunderstandings and emotions are like blisters. When you feel them, they are broken and empty. You don't have to think about them, control them, deal with them, have no expectation, no persistence, no difference, accept them completely, and give birth to compassion and pure love.

It rained again at night and even began to thunder. The mountain road was soon completely dark, only the sound of rain was heard. On the white sand path, I hurried to the meditation hall with one foot deep and one foot shallow. Far away, I saw the dim light of the meditation hall, and when I thought of the wind and rain, I had such a clear destination in front of me, and suddenly I felt a sense of sureness and yearning.

There are three flower cats, a black cat, a brown cat, a white dog, a yellow dog and a few chubby goldfish in Zen Valley. The animals here are very nice and human. Will deliberately come close to people. Every animal has its own personality. Black cats love to bark, staring at you and meowing, as if to express their closeness to you with their voices; Brown cats often jump on the table when you are eating and tentatively come to you for something to eat. When you feed it, you will lick it carefully and smell it. If you can't eat it, it will stay still and carefully poke your rice basin with its little paws. It looks lovely. Dogs are good, too. It will climb to your feet, gently rub you and ask you for something politely. If you don't give it, it will go away and won't pester you again and again. I have never heard a dog barking here. Touch the dog's head, you can't hide it, you are not afraid of life, and you are very energetic. A Xiaohua Mall likes our meditation hall very much, and keeps coming to it, hunching and stretching his tail, meowing and purring, as if begging him to stay in the meditation hall and study with everyone. Fellow initiates put it outside the door and closed the door, but it jumped in through the window again. After three times, its heart was very firm in Dharma. But fellow initiates insisted that he leave, and he finally walked out of the meditation hall by himself.

In Zen Valley, I found that everyone has returned to the nature of many children, and there are many natural natures revealed, and they have become naughty boys and girls, full of childlike interest like children.

Long meditation, 45 minutes. I can feel and perceive quietly, but my legs are sore for a while and I can't stand it for several times. You can only adjust your posture and change the direction of your legs. But this action destroys the state of awareness, and the effect of meditation is not good. When I meditate, I can put the sounds I hear in my ears into sleep, and the sounds far and near naturally flow into the ocean of knowledge.

During meditation, the teacher beat each student with a Taoist instrument called incense board. The teacher said in advance that he would hit everyone and would do his best, even warning us to take off the necklace so as not to be broken. My heart began to be nervous, and I gradually felt uneasy about the unknown encounter. During meditation with eyes closed, I heard others being slapped one by one. The voice was loud and clear, and I suddenly felt a strong sense of tension and fear. When it was my turn, I found that although slapping was very powerful, it didn't hurt and didn't need terror. Only then did I really realize that terror is all about the fantasy of the unknown. What actually happened was not so terrible. Maybe this is the truth of fear. Knowing this, it is not difficult to overcome fear.

The last meditation for three days. After meditation, the teacher invited an artist teacher who lives in the valley to sing for us. Accompanied by the guitar, she sang "I Love Us" for us. This song was originally her inspiration for an afternoon, and she naturally played it. Since then, it has not changed significantly. This song has simple lyrics, simple melody and simple performance. But it is such a simple song, but it has the magical power to touch the heartstrings. When I heard the singer's pure, clear and natural singing, I was deeply moved and unforgettable. At the end of the song, I found myself crying involuntarily. Many fellow initiates feel the same way. At the end of the song, everyone applauded and bowed for a long time to express their gratitude. It's really an unexpected enjoyment to hear this song today. It is rare to hear such a beautiful song that touches the soul for so many years.

Sting is a solar term. Thunder awakens all living things and begins to flourish. The "three days of shock" I experienced in Lotus Zen Valley may be the starting point for awakening inner awareness and opening a new stage of life.