Reread Wang Xiaobo's Standing at Thirty.
The two characters crossed the limitation of time and space and unexpectedly came back to life in my heart. Wang Er is Zhuangzi and Zhuangzi is Wang Er. Zhuangzi didn't dream that he had become a butterfly. He wanted to know whether he had become a butterfly or a butterfly had become himself. If I say that Wang Er is Zhuang Zhou and Zhuang Zhou is Wang Er, Zhuangzi will nod.
Wang Er, a small clerk, was in charge of the headmaster's old man at school, so he sang against him and deliberately told some jokes during the meeting to embarrass him. ZhuangZhou walked over to Wang Er squinting and nodded. A guy once showed me how much money he made with a great gesture. I asked him if he earned it by licking hemorrhoids for the king of Qin. Ha ha ha, Wang Er and Zhuang Zhou, who dares to put on airs with me? I won't let anyone down!
Xiao Zhuanling is Wang Er's ex-girlfriend, and Wang Er likes her very much. One reason is that Jason Chung is good-looking and never complains in bed; Another reason is that Wang likes her just like eating and drinking water. But being a wife and being a lover are two different things, so Wang Er and Xiao Zhunling broke up. Wang Er's wife is a bitch now, so Wang Er often misses Xiao Zhunling. Zhuangzi patted them on the shoulder, and he talked about Hui Shi. Old Hui Shi is my only friend. We often quarrel, but we are friends because we often quarrel. Then he died, and no one could understand what I said. I often miss him.
Wang Er said, I love my mother, and my mother loves me too, but she often snoops on my secrets and stares at my every move like a camera. I love my father, but my father always hits me. He always makes me a decent person, just like him. Wang er's mother said that you can do anything you like, first of all, be an upright person, and second, be a happy person. Wang Er was very moved and decided to be a serious person according to his parents' wishes. Zhuangzi smiled, you this kind of love is not from the heart, it's bullshit.
Old Yao, the security captain of the school, broke his leg and was hospitalized. The headmaster told Wang Er that if you want to be a serious person, you should take good care of Lao Yao. Wang er thought, I wash the toilet, I pretend to be the class teacher, and I take care of Lao Yao. Zhuangzi sneer at a way. Most people I have met are just a blade of grass, unable to stand, but falling from one side to the other. Maybe Wang Er is a blessed fool. In the stinking hospital and the emergency room where the dead were carried out one by one, Wang Er suddenly felt very small. He can't stop everyone who dies. He thought his scene would turn into a stiff and disgusting piece of meat in a few years. "What's the difference between a living person and a mouse?" At that moment, in the morning of his thirty-three years old, when he joined the surging crowd, Wang Er realized existence itself. What people earn alive is cotton stuffed into rectum after death. Zhuangzi said with a smile, this I would have said. The king of Chu once sent someone to ask me to be an official. I asked him whether the god beast of Chu would rather die, be put in a temple or roll in a puddle. Ha ha ha, come on, come on.
But even if Zhuangzi agrees with me, Wang Er may not agree. He would say, Wang Er is Wang Er, and Zhuangzi is Zhuangzi. Wang Er is an intellectual who grew up under the modern knowledge system, while Zhuangzi is just an outdated poor scholar. A hundred Zhuangzi is not worth one king and two. Although there are two Wang Er names, they are really unique. Wang Er may like Jesus more than Zhuangzi. Jesus died at the age of 33, and Wang became enlightened at the age of 23. I think the significance of this is self-evident, otherwise Wang Er can write that he is standing at 30 years old, 3 1 year old and 32 years old. But he only wrote that he was thirty-three years old. Wang Erken can like Jesus, but he can't learn from Jesus. Jesus has so many lives on his back, but Wang Er thinks about his own existence. If Wang Er really became Jesus, he wouldn't go to the cross, but fled home directly.
At the age of thirty-three, Wang Er did not become Jesus.