Before it is too late, let's get down to business now. Like many alcoholics in bars, Ying's mood is very heavy, which can be said to be innate. Since I didn't have to wear open-backed pants, my evil ying heart began to grow up slowly. About 9 years old (1996), the color heart began to invade my heart. When I used to like to peek at women's breasts, I remember that once in the vegetable market, people were crowded. At that time, a woman was wearing a skirt in front of me, and I followed her to squeeze past. How do I know that evil Ying's heart suddenly bulges? I don't know where it came from. I gave her a hard twist on the hip, which scared her to shout on the spot. I walked away and pretended that I didn't do it. At that time, she looked at me, probably because I was young, and she wondered whether I had done it or not. It's been many years, so I'm embarrassed to tell her here! I grew up with such an evil clever mind! ! ! ! With the growth of age, I often love sexual fantasies and the attractive female teacher in primary school. I just wake up in the morning and play with my lower body! ! It was not until I was 15 years old (because I entered school late) that I had my first hand ejaculation in 2002. My life began to decline in this way, and it also represented the suffering of hell, opening the door to me and extending my hands to welcome me. . .
The first masturbation and ejaculation brought me a sense of surprise and strange second pleasure. I was immediately addicted to the so-called "pleasure" of hand-welcoming ejaculation, and slapping every day was inevitable. Sometimes two or three times a day, once when I sleep and once when I get up in the morning, which makes me unwilling to study since high school and stop studying before graduation. I don't have to revolve around my mother, and I don't have to spend money. Every day, I know to ask my mother for money to surf the Internet. When will Internet cafes flourish? I stay up all night playing online games and sometimes watching porn. When was the last time you stayed up all night surfing the Internet from 8: 00 to 10 yuan, and from 12 in the evening to 8: 00 in the morning? When I go home to sleep in the morning, I will definitely get a slap. Sometimes I reach out my hand several times and then shoot. In the meantime, my family also asked me to go to work, but I didn't do it for long, and I stopped doing it for a month and a half. Later my family asked me to join the army. However, because I often stay up late and take pictures, my health is not up to standard, so I can't do it. Alas,,, lifelong regret.
After that, I stayed up all night, surfed the Internet for a long time, played games for a long time, smoked, and used my hands frequently. My body began to have a series of accidents before I got old. My height has not grown since 15 years old. Only one meter six, I became lean, my face was dull, yellow, dark, my eyes were dull, I was weak, like a dead wood, and I began to shrink. I am really short, thin and ugly. I think there were girls in my class who liked me! ! ! The most serious thing is that the big teeth of my teeth began to rot one by one, which made me often have toothache, alas. . Oh, my God! ! ! This is the most sunny and youthful time in my life. I was only a teenager at that time, that's the age when I grew up! ! ! ! This suicidal life changed a little when I was 22 years old in 2009, that is, I got along with a girl. However, it didn't last long, and she fell in love with another man. After I ran into her in the bar, she immediately lost her mind and hit him on the spot. At that time, both sides had friends, and the two groups were fighting outside the bar. But after I played for less than five minutes, my physical strength began to drop sharply. Rapid heartbeat, chapped lips, difficulty breathing, heart failure caused by myocardial infarction, and almost died. I quickly walked away and hid, sat on the ground in a corner and watched them fight while exhaling. At this point, my brain is blank ... when I suddenly feel that my body has been greatly hurt, I am very scared and flustered! ! ! !
After this happened, I began to realize that I was going to change, but I naively thought it was a problem of smoking too much and didn't fully realize the harm of hand shadow, so I quit smoking immediately! ! ! I quit successfully this time, except that I was a little addicted after waking up and eating for the first two months. Up to now, I have no addiction at all, but I hate the smell of cigarettes! Maybe after a fight with me, it taught me a profound lesson, which gave me the motivation to succeed as soon as I quit smoking. I have given up smoking for more than five years. I believe I won't smoke again, because I really hate the smell of smoke now! ! ! By 20 10, I still continue to be addicted to ying, but my body has begun to change. Since I quit smoking, my appetite has greatly increased. I often eat and drink. Although I stayed up late, I began to surf the Internet less! After a while, my weight has grown to about 159 kg. Become a short and fat person, walk uncomfortably, and wear out a few pairs of jeans. It hurts! ! ! ! ! Hand ying is addicted to it. . Doing nothing every day, like a loser, curled up in the room watching porn, just like eating every day becomes a habit. It seems necessary to have a massage every day. A series of medical conditions, such as prostatitis, urgent urination and frequent urination, are afflicting me.
Now with the passage of time, the time has reached 20 1 1, and I am 24 years old. Great changes have taken place in my life during this year.
It seems that my luck came to ........... by chance. I learned a craft, such as making cakes, delicious food and catering. When I learned that, I raised money to open a shop. Once opened, the business exceeded expectations. It wasn't long before I opened a second branch. After the news came out, my friends and brothers around me quickly said that they would open a shop together. So I found several better ones and opened three branches in a row. In less than a year, I have five branches. At the same time, the heart has changed, and people have become complacent! ! ! ! ! Laoying is right to say that you are full of warmth and longing. . . Since I had money and a car, my popularity among heterosexual women has soared. I often know my sister WeChat everywhere (when WeChat first came out). On the internet, I always know when I see good-looking people. Every day, my mobile phone keeps ringing and I am very busy. If I don't eat with this sister, I will go to the movies with this sister every day! It's not enough to go to the bar and get off KTV. I'm going to Dongguan with my friends to find a young lady to continue to hate English. I'm already in a crazy state! ! !
Happy hour is on all the time. . . Less than a year later, this "beautiful" life began to appear crisis. Because of my blind expansion of the pavement, temporary fanaticism, and poor management of all aspects of the staff, I spent money like water without restraint. I only remember that I was "dating" all day and didn't concentrate. Three of the five stores lose money every month, and only the other two are supporting them, so the daily expenses are very large. Every second counts the manpower for laying and renting lamps, oil, fire and wax. 20 12 really can't hold on in the second half of the year, so we have to transfer the pavement one by one. In the process of transfer, we also buried a later one (the transfer shop had an economic dispute with others, which caused a lawsuit in court). Because things are more complicated, I won't go into details here, but I'm also a victim and have a great loss. It never rains but it pours. . Good luck has gone away from me, followed by waves of bad luck. It didn't take long for the pavement to turn, and by another chance, I transferred the money in the shop to another friend to run the building materials decoration industry. Unfortunately, this time is different. Good luck doesn't always come from inexperience. Various factors such as insufficient network closed down in less than half a year, and still owed a lot of debts. . . . The car was also sold to pay off the debt. Alas. . . It's only been two years, and life has been ups and downs. I go drinking every day to get rid of my troubles. Go home and watch porn to vent your anger. It's the middle of 20 13 years. When I was at the bottom of my life, I met a girl who was different from other girls. I liked her very much at the first sight. I soon fell in love with her, lived together and often indulged in it ... I thought it was a comfort to be frustrated in my career and proud of my love! ! But after more than three months together, she finally broke up with me. I cried on my roof the night we broke up. . I cried very sadly, and my whole body twitched. I couldn't help crying when I thought of the ups and downs of these two years. Life is like a play, and a play is like life. At this moment, I have a deep understanding of the word karma. . .
Business is gone, cars are gone, money is gone, love is gone, "friends of pigs and dogs" are beginning to disappear, and everything is gone. Which period of time is really difficult, I want to commit suicide, I want to end it, and I can't bear to look back. But the development of things is not so simple. Because I had a serious sexual relationship with my girlfriend before, even if I have a girlfriend, I still have hands! My body has many medical diseases, such as puffiness, edema, swollen eyes, impotence, premature ejaculation, sparse hair, soreness of waist muscles, leg pain after standing for a long time, frequent micturition, urgency and frequent micturition at night. The most serious thing is that I have symptoms of diabetes. At first, I often felt thirsty and wanted to drink water. This is a serious deficiency of kidney yin and body fluid, deficiency of both yin and yang, renal failure and edema, and damage to viscera and organs. In severe cases, there will be stroke, dizziness, chest pain, deafness, blindness, numbness and pain of limbs and gangrene of lower limbs. I started to feel scared, so I found it on the Internet by accident. ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! When I opened it, I was shocked and scared. I suddenly realized that I couldn't take my eyes off it. I feel very excited. Oh, my God! Many of the situations mentioned in it are similar to mine, and I immediately realized that I had to give up English. Looking back, I have won for eleven years. It poisoned my life for eleven years. I have suffered too much in these eleven years.
At this moment, I immediately realized that I had to give up English. During this week, I went to rehab every day, and I didn't practice this week. When I saw a group called "Jieyinying" on the website of the alcohol bar, I joined the group and got to know the owner. (Here, I would like to sincerely thank the group owners, Big Brother (Qiang) and Zhengyi, for guiding me to learn Buddhist knowledge. Zhengyi is a very good one. At that time, the group owner sent me a lot of content related to abstinence, such as (a video about the harm of teacher Chen Dahui's pornography to modern people and a video about the education of sages in traditional culture). I saw a video about the harm of pornography to modern people, in which a woman died of sexually transmitted diseases and cervical cancer because she was too indulgent when she was young, and I shed tears on the spot. After watching the whole video, I was still quite shocked. I told myself I couldn't be evil anymore. I have to quit. In this month, I also broke the precepts repeatedly. Finally, on 20 13 1 1 month, I am worthless until now! ! ! Of course, I also experienced many lessons in the process of abstinence. One month before I started to quit, I also broke the rules many times and suffered greatly. Before every break, I tell myself that this is the last time. This is the last time. It won't happen again. Just so repeatedly. Sometimes I break the rules, lose heart and don't want to quit. Let Ying control his left hand. I don't think I can quit successfully, so I want to give up. I realized that it was absolutely impossible. I stepped up my study and kept reading the warning posts in the warning article column. The flying warning is a good medicine. I also bought many warning books online, such as The Sea of Color by Yin Guang, The Collection of Shou Kang, The Ruthless Yin Law, Peng Xin's Knowledge of Traditional Chinese Medicine, and Relevant Knowledge of Confucianism, Buddhism and Taoism in Traditional Culture. I also joined many Buddhist groups and learned Buddhist knowledge! After many practices and studies, Ying's heart has finally been purified! There is no hand ying, and the meaning of ying has become less! The diet is also relatively light, and meat is eaten less. After drinking a little Chinese medicine and doing exercise for about an hour at night, diabetes gradually disappeared. Hair has grown out, and people have become much younger, full of energy and energy. They don't have to struggle to go up the stairs, and their weight has returned to normal, about 130 kg! No edema, no edema. Prostatitis is much better. Get up early and go to bed early every day, and post it to publicize the abstinence group. It's really comfortable to be a manager in the British group and help new abstainers. ! ! Looking up at the sunshine in the sky, my heart is filled with emotion, and the days when Britain is not evil are really beautiful. I really don't understand why I have been so addicted to English for eleven years. You hurt your body, hurt your bad body, it's really stupid and sad. I could have a healthy and strong body, but it was completely destroyed by the evil English. I really regret it, my heart is tangled and I hate myself too much.
From October 20 13, 165438 10 to July 20 14, I gave up color very well and didn't care much about Britain. I thought I succeeded. I thought it was as simple as quitting color. At that time, I also wanted to learn from other abstinence friends, so I posted a post on the post bar to publicize it. . . But in August, episodes began to appear. It may also be a test of abstinence in Britain for half a year. In August, my calm mind of abstinence changed. It can be called (color-abstinence period, which I call in Du Jie). Sometimes when I read the news online, I often see some tidbits, such as explicit pictures, so I can't help reading them. I stopped posting, reading posts, reading books on Confucianism, Buddhism and Taoism, listening to Buddhist songs, speaking in the Q group (which I used to listen to every day), ignoring them, and being confused. This is called learning boring period. Almost everyone will have a flying brother who also said this sentence. It seems that the foreplay of breaking the precepts has arrived, but I haven't fully realized that I have great desires this month. Chang Yiying, desire seems to have sprung up at once! Clever demon still refused to leave me alone, always tempting me, and the climax of breaking the precepts is finally coming. Once I reported a pornographic website, I opened it as evidence, and my desire immediately added fuel to the fire, so I also planted the seeds of breaking the precepts. By the way, don't open the webpage when reporting pornographic websites. If you don't have enough determination and will, don't report it, which will be harmful. After reading these pictures, my desire began to rise, and I couldn't help but want to see yellow, because the hardness of the penis has recovered, and I admire JJ in bed every morning. Very uncomfortable, very tortured, and has been fighting back. After a month or so of abstinence, Du Jie finally passed. I have no hands. However, I was distracted, too heroic, and once I had a nocturnal emission. During this month, my experience in abstinence has improved a lot. But the process is also quite difficult and painful.
Let's talk about my experience of abstinence for many days.
To put it bluntly, the precept is to be wary. Remember, breaking the precept is willful! (There is a saying in Buddhism that people who do evil in this life have a heavy heart, all of which are caused by karma in previous lives. Speaking of abstinence from meat, when I was in abstinence group, many other disciples asked me the same question, which was how to abstain from meat. I told them that if we want to clear Ying's mind and clear the yellow poison in his brain, we must start from many aspects. For example, pornography and pornography in computer mobile phones must be removed without leaving traces, and pictures on computer mobile phones can be hidden, just looking at words. You can also install an anti-Huang Zhi shield without looking at the pictures. During the Republic of China, Yin Guang, a monk, once said that no one can completely give up the desire to win in a feminine yellow environment. Here, I want to scold the current media, all I know is to put some explicit and sensitive sentences and have sexual desire with some pornographic pictures. In order to attract click-through rates, erotic temptations are everywhere. Let's talk about the problem of mobile internet access first. It is very smart to surf the internet on mobile phones now. When many friends break the rules, they can't help watching pornographic websites on their mobile phones. Here, I also suffer greatly, because it is so convenient to click on a website to see it. . . Later, I really couldn't stand it. After thinking about the method many times, I got through. Safari, micro, blog, all search engine functions are closed and cleared one by one, so that it can't get online, hee hee! ! ! There is no way! You must be hard on yourself to win! The mobile phone only left the international version of QQ, because the international version has no search engine function. Other versions have it, and Weibo failed to start its own business. Wei and Xin are floating clouds, and I don't want to play. But WeChat and WeChat have no search engine function. You can keep it if you need it! Here are some ridiculous topics. Some abstainers want to quit English, so they think they can quit by finding a girlfriend. This is very irrational, not only can't quit, but also deepen your bad English mentality! ! ! There are still many abstainers who often care about the length of penis, as long as the object can be used normally, and there are still many abstainers who quit in order to restore their sexual ability. I want to say if; Ying's heart hasn't been taken out yet What if it brings you back? Continue to do evil? Continue to harm others and yourself? I want to say that the most important thing for a man is his knowledge and career success, so that he can have real attraction and keep people around him, not how long your penis is. If women care about this, they can consider separating. When I was managing the abstinence group, I found something that made people laugh and cry. An abstainer joined the group again and again, and repeated it many times. . . I asked him, what's wrong with you? Are you stupid? He replied that he was told not to add abstinence and other groups, saying that "magnetic field" was not good. I can't quit. . . I said: What's your reason? If you don't join the group, post or study, you will definitely quit? It's really ridiculous. In addition, some abstainers are very eager to give up sex life. After a few years, I just quit for a month or two and asked why I was still in poor health. Or there are some slight symptoms and reactions in your body, you will start to doubt. Why is this happening? Why? What kind? Seriously, sometimes I really don't want to answer these questions. Physical recovery has a certain process and takes a certain amount of time. You have been injured for several years, and it is impossible to recover in a month or two. Like me, it took half a year to get well. Let's talk about some mild symptoms and reactions first, which need no attention at all. The human body has a strong resilience! As long as you stop hurting it, it is bad. Cherish it and you will get what you want! There are also some color abstainers who just quit and ask how to quit when they join the group. I really want to get rid of this bad habit. Anxiety! I told them that if you want to quit, you should post more posts, read more articles about abstinence, learn more methods of abstinence, and communicate with senior abstainers. Learn from people who have experienced it! I don't know what they told me. Said I didn't want to see it, I couldn't see it, and I didn't have the patience to see these things. . . I said: I'm sorry if you have no patience with all this; No one can help you. There is no shortcut to abstinence. It is entirely up to you to learn and experience. Everyone is like this. No one is a fairy. Don't pin your hopes on others!
(five songs of abstinence from color)
(Mentality) (Thought) (Pornography) (Thought) (Persistence)
(Mentality) Let's talk about mentality first. This is very important. It can be said that the success of abstinence depends on one's own heart. Some abstainers are impetuous. For example, I had it during my abstinence. I used to quit well, but suddenly my mood was affected by some things in real life. I feel restless and upset. I don't want to learn anything, see anything or do anything. I also have doubts about the Buddhism I usually study, and I don't even want to be a man. After that, I quit, thinking that it would be good to let it out. This is a very stupid idea. After breaking the precept, the problem will naturally exist, but it will aggravate the seriousness of the problem. Everyone must guard against this problem. There is a saying in Buddhism (to observe the nature of Buddhism, everything is created by idealism), so you should know how to control your heart, adjust your mentality and parallel your heart.
Don't let fidgety pester yourself until there is a more serious reaction. ) Demons and temptations always choose to come at your lowest point. )
(Thought) This key question and thought is the moment when thoughts, emotions, memories, pictures and so on appear in the brain! As the saying goes, a thought is heaven and a thought is hell. Thought is very important. I often suffer from ying in the process of abstinence. It can also be said that when I think about it, qi moves, so does the central nervous system, reproductive system and all functions, as well as all kinds of feelings, thoughts and realms. On the other hand, if you really stop thinking and concentrate on it, nothing will happen, and you will return to a parallel natural state! ! ! In the days of abstinence, I will die from time to time. I use chanting to destroy it and prevent it from continuing to develop and work. Be sure to remember the truth that "if you are not afraid of reading, you are afraid of being late"!
(Porn) About watching porn. This is a key issue. Some brain-dead people on the Internet say that it doesn't matter if you read it at the right time and it is helpful to your sex life. This brain-dead person is as toxic to the public as the expert who says he is harmless. According to my years of experience, it is more difficult to quit porn than to watch it, and it is more difficult to quit porn than to hand it over. However, the appearance of "Yi Ying" is inseparable from watching pornographic films. "Pornography" does a lot of harm and its influence is quite bad. At present, there are many criminal cases of rape of English in society, which are closely related to pornography. Many factors of quitting friends are also caused by watching porn. People who are addicted to watching porn are prone to psychopathy and distortion. At the same time, they will plant seeds of subconscious evil shadows in their minds. This evil shadow will follow you all your life and be deeply rooted, similar to what Buddhists say ("Ayaye knowledge"), and it will be more difficult to remove it in the future. For example, most of my feelings are also caused by the plot of characters in pornographic pictures I have seen. The more you watch porn, the more you want to see it. The more you look at it, the more thirsty you are, as if you were possessed. Especially once you quit for a long time, the consequences of looking back at pornography are quite serious. Just like me, after a period of abstinence, I can't help looking back at porn. A few days later, my mind was seriously distorted, and I returned to my previous state and wanted to have sex again. . . So I want to say that anything related to yellow, it is best not to see, think about, see, and don't take any chances at all! If you don't make mistakes, you will get a thousand slaps. . .
Thought is the most important thing in life, which can directly affect our life! I'll insert a story here. More than 40 years ago, a little boy born in a slum in Austria vowed in his diary: I want to be the president of the United States when I grow up. After several days' consideration, he formulated a series of related goals: to be president of the United States, he must first be a governor; If you want to run for governor successfully, you must get the favor of powerful consortia; To win the support of the consortium, we must integrate into the consortium; The way to integrate into the consortium must be a celebrity; The shortcut to becoming a celebrity is to become a movie star; Before that, I need to strengthen my exercise and cultivate my masculinity. From then on, he realized his idea step by step and approached his ideal step by step. In 2003, he successfully ran for public office and became the governor of California. This man is Arnold Schwarzenegger. Arnold's success verified bacon's words: thought determines behavior; Behavior determines habits; Habit determines character; Character determines fate. If you don't want it in your heart, your dream won't come true out of thin air. Changing your mind can change your life! Although not everyone can succeed, if you don't make changes, you can't succeed. Only by taking action can there be hope and a chance of success!
(Insist) Finally, I want to say; People can't do anything without persistence, and abstinence is the most important. For example, many abstainers broke off before long, and some broke off badly. Some abstainers in the group even came up and asked me how to find Brother Fei after I broke N times. . . Say; If this continues, I hope I can find Brother Fei to help me. . . I said that even if you can find him, can you promise not to mind your own business in the future? If you really want to find him, you might as well read what he wrote (more than 70 seasons of articles about abstinence as a good medicine have been carefully read). Isn't this better? Besides, he is not a fairy and can't spell. Fingers can't stop you, can they? Ha ha! ! Don't pin your hopes of abstinence on others. This is very unrealistic. Some abstainers listen to the so-called harmless theory of others, and they should know the offensive language such as "enjoyment" in life; My heart began to move. Like a good one, how many people have been saved. Isn't it the same? Someone is attacking? He also said that Feifei was a "cult master". Ha ha! ! do you believe that？ As for whether things are good or not, it is quite stupid to know how to analyze and think with your own brain and not listen to other people's suggestions.
In addition, abstinence from color is the most important thing. If you can't insist on abstinence, all your previous efforts are just floating clouds, just like mud cows entering the sea and mud bodhisattvas crossing the river. Many people know that Apple's mobile phone was invented by Jobs, but many people don't know how long Jobs's dream lasted. Jobs worked for 35 years from 1975 to his death in 20 1 1, which means that he persisted in this goal for 35 years until his death, and finally succeeded! ! Famous all over the world, forever in history! His success today is inseparable from the word (persistence). If he didn't insist, no one would know Jobs now! Let's start with Ford in America. When Ford was a child, his father asked him to help him on the farm, but Ford firmly believed that he would become a mechanic and invent machines that could walk on the road instead of animals. Subsequently, he completed the mechanic training, learned the principle of steam, and devoted himself to the research of gasoline engines. He dreams of making a car every day. After 10 years of hard work, Ford successfully manufactured the first car engine at the age of 29 and became a famous car king. Ford's success cannot but be attributed to his persistence in thought. On the other hand, even if you position yourself, you will not succeed if you are unrealistic or have no healthy mentality. Life is an extension of inner thoughts. If you change your mind and stick to it, you can change your life. Now think about this sentence, will it make you feel suddenly enlightened?
I want to say, as a China person, what confidence can you have after reading such an article? I'm really heartbroken, and I'm here to tell you loudly. Not pushing is not evil. What you care about is your future and your life. Let go of your right hand and your desire for women. Learn more about the precious culture left by our ancestors. It can teach us to recognize many things and let us know how to be a man and how to do things.
Can let me know how to really become a useful person.